[hold2truth]

What stops you from committing suicide? What's the reason you live?

[nowheretorun]

lots of answers here hold2truth..... i believe the idea that my son out there can here me somehow keeps me going...

[socalsad]

that's not an easy question to answer. for many, many years i never believed i could complete the act. last year i came to the realization that i now could do this without a problem. then what stopped me is leaving too many loose ends undone. i could not put my family and friends through the mess of what i left behind. now i'm currently getting everything in order. that's what keeps me from committing suicide.

what is my reason for living? i don't really have a choice...until i get everything in order. there isn't that one thing that says...oh, i just have to live for that! well, ok...i have my cats, but they can go back to the vet's office. my pain has overridden their happiness

my life is one emotional day at a time, then the rest goes from there. it's a mystery for today...

I would love to say my family ! However I am nothing if but truthfull, and its medication without which I know for sure I would not be here.

It keeps me stable and aware of what is going on, I am level headed (well as much as I can be) and realise that my family need me.

[Cthomas]

My mom
Husband
T
Godson who adores me
Friends at PC
Friends at PC

Repeat above lol

Good post. OH and the meds are number 1 too!

Colleen

[Mouse_]

I guess the fact I don't really want to cease existing, but I want the pain to stop and on some level must know that or else I wouldn't be here.

[Brian37]

I told God a long time ago that I would never take my own life, and I believe that he would help me through the storm and find shelter some day.....It has been a long road and there are times I question my own ability to cope with the depression, but I hang on.......

I am reminded of Dori in Finding Nemo.....

"just keep swimming, just keep swimming"

[Cthomas]

Awesome post Brian. I love that movie. Will have to remember that love it !

Colleen

[CedarS]

curiousity about what the next day will bring

knowledge that something will change, something will be different eventually

refusal to let the abusers of my past win

never wanting to harm those who love and care for me

determination to claim life

[darkangel70]

What keeps me going is my two beautiful sons and my boyfriend david. I think about suicide alot. then think about my sons without me

[Lenny]

Ideation is not necessarily a bad thing. Contrasting the light and dark is a pretty normal behavior for most of us,,I believe.

I have had moments where the end had it's certain attractions against any beginning I might conjure.

But even in my darkest moments I have had opportunities to witness miracles,,if I chose to see them..and have decided that I don't ever wish to quit before the next one happens..

Lenny

[nowheretorun]

[EvenMoreLost]

It depends on the day, I guess. Today is a bad one, and all I can think to stop me is:

- Fear. After my attempt I'm really scared to try again, and I feel like if I did do it I'd have to be certain it would work this time.

- My mom. I can't imagine what it would do to her. I'm an only child and I know how much she loves me and sorta depends on me in ways, and I don't know if I could do that to her.

It was the latter that got me through high school. Now, 14 years later, I still can't find a better reason to stay alive. I struggle to find my own reasons, rather than just guilt and fear, but can't.

[nowheretorun]

evenmore? more i comment please? i only intend to say that fear can be such a powerful driving force.... and you have chosen a way to use it positively... i am positive without doubt that your mother is thankful...

i too care for an aging and crippled mother.... and she has given me love and acceptance all her days, even before she was handicapped.... i want to help her... she tries so hard and has hurt so much...

i really dont know if it can work for you Evenmore, but i do find a lot of meaning in my life for that reason as well as my 'lost' son...

and i have my own life too.. so it has really benefited the both of us (mom and i) in positive ways.... its been good for my heart to return to family....

thank you for sharing Evenmore....

[Cyran0]

For me it's my sons. Whenever I really consider ending it, I think about what it would do to them. In one selfish act I would damage three lives and it's just not worth it.

Cyran0

[ziggy1]

Evenmorelost, seems like You and I have similarities here. I'm

in the same boat sort of speaking. I guess I don't know what I

would be doing right now if it wasn't for my mom being so Ill.

You know the same happened to me last May and it put my mom

through alot, so I guess in essence, I keep going for her for

now and I have been trying out different things for myself to.

She hasn't been so bitter lately so things are a little more at

bay. You know I am an only child too so it falls all on my

shoulders to...I was surprised when she told me just 2 days ago

she was lucky to have me around, I was Like, "OKAY" where did

that come from? Anyway it helped out the situation. And I know

your mom is probably thankful too...

Try not to look to far ahead I do that at times and it gets so

overwhelming....thanks for your Post!!

[puckyjan56]

my T reminds me constantly to live one day at a time. Down't worry about yesterday or tomorrow. Just try to stay focused(which I know is very hard to do). I think about suicide everyday but I am still here........thinking of you..............puckyj

[PlanningtoLive]

I tried back in 04 and ended up in the hospital for a week. I've been on pretty good meds for awhile now, but lately have been giving it a great deal of thought. I am extremely stressed out right now and even my son may not stop me at some point.

Mary Alice

[CedarS]

(((((((Mary Alice)))))))))

((((((everyone)))))))

[Lenny]

Oh Mary..please change your Userid to Promise from Planning...your value to all of us,,each and everyone cannot be communicated in words effectively.

Just know that your living loving energy effects us all,,and wonderfully so.

Lenny

[goofydr1]

Life is just a game, and the game isn't over just because we want it to be.

[lavendersteph]

what keeps me alive is the bible knowledge i have in the bible it says life was given to us by god and therfore is like stomping on god when we want to take our lives i find alot of comfort in prayer i ask for his mercy and love i always ask before i go to bed for him to send me his angels to make a sheild on me against all harm the thought of angels surrounding me brings such comfort i can't explain recently a sister from our congregation took her life she shot herself i could not understand why she did it i was upset at her actions i was saying someone who knows god and what he offers did that it was mind boggling but then i was reminded that god loves each and everyone of us dispite our action i can not judge her she was ill and had no support i look back and say if only i knew what was happening i could have offered her my hand in friendship and helped her through her pain sadly she left behind 3 children to deal with the pain i ask any one who is suicidal to pray and hold on to god with all your might remem ber also that at pc we have eachother backs and best interest in heart .

[selfy]

YOU PEOPLE!!!!! lol.
no kiddin. if i didnt find this place, id be dumber and deader
dot

[cat9]

i don't know... i am lost...

[agony007]

my sons, my husband, my aunt keep me alive. they are there for me throughout my worst moments.