Useless

Just feel useless. Like pounding my head into a wall. Scared of everything. I don't know how to be myself anymore. Faking a stupid smile every day, faking happy, faking okay. I just want to get up and scream in everyone's face that of course I'm not okay. I'm never okay. I'm tired of faking. I want to yell and scream and RANT but I can't because I'm so stupid. Stupid and I don't deserve anything good. I can't even be ME anymore because I don't know who I am. I pretend to be okay and listen to everyone and be happy but I'm not. I'm weak I'm stupid and I hate myself.

(((((((((((((((((((Ledgewood))))))))))))))))))))))) I don't find you useless, stupid, weak or any of the other deragatory descriptions in your post. I do see that you are in great pain and it seems that you are struggling to find your way. Sometimes it is hard to untangle who we are from what we think others want us to be. Please be kind to yourself and give yourself time to find out who you are.

BB

((((((((Ledgewood))))))))

Ledge

your not stupid. breath in take a few moments for your self
scream all you need too
get it out
If your scared your allowed to be
be you

(((((Vince)))))

Hakuna matata. It means no worries.

<font color="purple">You are by no stretch of the imagination, useless, or stupid, or weak. You deserve so much better then what you are going through right now, believe me. </font>

hi i'm sorry about what you're going through right now.
i hope that you find some sort of peace and support to help ease the pain and frustration. you must be so strong. a big hug and a pat on the back for you and anyone else going through thiscause i too know the feeling.