[shirley1221]

I am so depressed that I can barely function. It takes all my energy to get out of bed. Forget showers or cleaning or going anywhere

supposed to go to my counselor tomorrow but absolutely don't have the energy or desire. What is the use.

I don't know anyone here enough to talk to and in chat I am too scared to really talk. Its just a mess and I am so tired of trying.

I have did and of the people who want to stay in this world there is only 1. that is not so good odds I think, cause sometimes I am still losing time and not aware of things I do.

anyway just want to say that

[nowheretorun]

hi Shirley.. you have one.. thats a good beginning... realise this... to be there for that one, you also must be present.. thats two...

keep posting...

[puckyjan56]

Shirley1221: I know your pain, being so tired to not be able to move, not wanting a shower or even eat, but you need to go to your session. Can someone take you? Can you call your Pdoc or T.? We need you here to help others and you will certainly be missed. We all care about you and it does help to just open up and rant or just a casual talk. By talking about your pain it will help me and others who need it so don't give up. Write another post today ok? bear hugs to you.......pj56

[its_me]

I agree with pj56, when you share here - you are helping so many without really knowing it. Don't give up - we all need to stick together and be here for each other.

[Labyssum]

Hun, I hope things get better for you.
Seeing your councellor will really help, I hope you're able to go.

[Pseudonym]

Adding to the others thoughts: One thing that's worth pointing out is that you being here on PC itself is a positive sign. Signing up and posting things like this can be very therapeutic in and of itself, but the mere fact that you wish to seems like a wonderful advancement from the depression you describe. I'm sorry I wasn't in the chat when you were, but don't feel like you have to contribute. It can be beneficial to just sit and read what other people are talking about (and it's often very non-threatening). Reconnecting with people interacting (even in the smallest of ways) is a great place to start feeling better.

I fifth the issue of going to see your counselor. Getting motivated to do something is something I struggle deeply with too, so I understand what you mean, but when you ask, "what's the point?" consider that the journey can be as helpful as the destination. Days I leave the house (even to get the mail) are by their very nature better than days I don't. So please go.

*hugs*; good luck!

[wickedwings]

i have been like that for the last few months.... i know. come here. it will help to come here. i know you don't know many here, but there are wonderful people here. i'm glad to have some friends here. it may not feel that it will help you, but it does. even if it didn't help, it's better than the alternative. i know - "what's the point." i was like this for a long time. i'm still here. i'm glad to be here. kinda weird to say this now, but i am. keep coming here.