[tango2150]

Having so much and so little, i don't know where i am or how i got here and most of the time i don't really care

I don't know.. something i find myself thinking too much. ideas of what i want to do but being held back.

I'd rather know exactly what was going on than constantly creating different outcomes in my mind.

Its tearing me apart, I've driven away those who wanted me just to try and bring myself closer to ones who don't.

My mind won't let me have what i want and isn't happy with what it gets. I'm not good enough to please myself.
It's affecting things i used to love so much.

If i can't do that how will i ever achieve anything. I second guess so much of everything i do. i want to be someone else

but also i couldn't bear to be anyone else.

Who will i be? i know it's my decision but if i don't agree how will i ever get there..

[nowheretorun]

hi tango

sometimes we lose our way on the path, or spin in circles going nowhere... sometimes we are climbing and climbing, then come to a plateau, and there seems nowhere further to go.. after resting at the plateau awhile we begin to wonder if this is all there is?

there is always more... we dont get to sit sedentary for long... something will come along and push at us to move again...

its then that we gather up the knowledge we've gained, find our two feet again, look where we've been and align it with where we've always wanted to go.....

you can get there.....

[Christina86]

((((((((tango)))))))))

[puckyjan56]

Tango, i hope you find your way. depression is confusing, but hang in there..pj56.........xxoo

[tango2150]

i think ive figured something out about myself today, i was sat at home for ages hadn't even left my room, way feeling pretty down so i texted a mate and asked to mee in town. on the drive in i kinda realised that when i have one thing that gets me down i find the effect spreading to almost every aspect of my life making me feel so worthless.
making a mountain of a molehill as it were. i dont think that im exagerating what things i think i have wrong but i end up thinking about everythig negative and it gets overwhelming. instead of keeping my problems seperate i think very collectively and comclude i have nothing going right.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((( tango ))))))))))))))

[Christina86]

Good insight into one of the problems a lot of us face (I know I'm guilty of things snowballing like that in my head).

So what are you thinking you might do to combat this way of thinking? There's a thread in Social that I made that maybe you can check out... it's identifying 3 things that are good about today (and they can be simple like - I'm breathing or I'm alive too, if you're having a bad day).

(((((((((((((tango2150))))))))))))))

[mountainstream]

[tango2150]

things as basic as "im alive" "im breathing" dont seem to count in when im feeling like shyte i dont find a primitive act such as basic instincet to live an acchievement