thinking too much into things and its bring me down

"i was born to to given away....breed me, breed me, lie to me ,lie to me, give me away" -from first to last

i never felt this way before, but the more i look into my issues the more i realize....i hate who i am....i was adopted....and taken in by a great family who treat me perfectly....but the other side of that is....my birth mother didnt want me....she gave me away....i feel like i have people issues because i wasnt wanted from the very beginning....literally out of the womb, i was betrayed....my own mother didnt want me, let alone random people i meet over the years...why the hell would i expect people to care, when i cant even be accepted by the woman who gave birth to me....

maybe im looking at the negative side of my situation, but i dont see a postive side to this anymore

sarah >> The first line of this post is >>> sarah From first to last .

Would You or Maybe could You My Friend >> Look at the place you are and Know that it is Your future that will Give you the peace you wish for and Best find or seek .

Never even in the best of places do we all feel wanted or >> as I have asked .. Why was I born ,,, only to feel empty .>>.

If Ya find someone that you can allow to share and possibley be there for you and never run away >> would ya consider that maybe a place for you to start and Patience Might be >> as is said >> Your Virtue .

>>> I give this in all sincerity >>

Hi Sarah, I am sorry that you are in distress about this. I wasn't adopted but my mother was very narcissictic and didn't pay too much attention to me. I grew up thinking that I wasn't too valuable because of this but I overcame it. What helped me to overcome it was to realize that she treated me this way not because of what my true value was but because she had problems that she didn't deal with. Maybe your birth mother wanted you to have a better life than what she could provide for you? Do you know the circumstances? I'll bet she grieved giving you up.

An adoptee who was a psychologist told me that he believes that children who are adopted grieve because they are already attached to their mothers when they are born. They have been listening to her voice and heartbeat in the womb and already know her and then she disappears. This grieving is never recognized so it is never completed by the adoptee.

I am so happy that you were adopted by a good and loving family.

Sarah, I'm sorry you feel this way. I was not adopted and whished I would have been! My life was pure hell and my siblings are screwed up as well. Some people are not meant to be parents! I am now trying to parent a 16month old and a 4 year old and am at a loss at being a good emotional parent. The physical part is easy it is the emotional part that is so hard. I know you must not have felt wanted because you were given away but your birth mom loved you enough to bring you life! I am so not proud of the 4 abortions I had before I had my 2 kids. I was selfish and didn't want to get fat,go to Dr appointments,give up medication,cafiene,etc.. and carry a baby to know I would give it away so I took the easy way out! I regret not giving them a chance at life. It was my decision and I live with it every day. I hope you can find some peace knowing you were loved enough for your birth mom to carry you until you could live outside her womb. HUGS!

You can oblige your mum to accept you by making her proud. show her how great you are and if people didn't accept you that doesnt mean not to accept yourself .

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</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> Faces you can see, hearts you can never know.