Collapsing

What is happening to me? I got told by someone, who must have no idea at all what it's like to have deppression: "I know loads of people with problems, for f*** sake michael, just cope with it!"

Cope...with...it? Just, just get a clue. That's the problem - you cant cope with it just like that. People that don't have depression just dont understand.

Dont get me wrong - I know that there are many people that feel as bad as I do, and have worse conditions than me..........billions.

But you cant just cope with depression, and she expects me to.

Well anyway - I have just started collapsing. I have banned nearly all 360 contacts on msn.......and deleted.

I have self injured, I chucked away all my good work. I have quit on everything. I cant be bothered to do anything.

I hate almost everybody. I hate myself. I am sad, angry and I feel pathetic.

I dont want to leave my bedroom ever again. I don't feel as though I deserve freinds. I threw my fan at the wall and broke it in frustration.

I had a few breif minutes where i thought I was gonna get up and go kill myself.

I feel worse than ever. I am thinking about death.

I am a b******, a freak and im worthless.

There is no need for me. Im a mess.

I dont want to f****** go out.

Im going duxford air museum tomorrow and I dont fu***** want to! I have to cus i dont want to upset mum.

Im maybe gonna run away tommorrow morning and not come back

I dont f*********** know

IM SO FUSTRATED!!!!!!

((((((((((((((( mikkyhill ))))))))))))))))


Whoever said that obviously has no clue. I'm sorry they were so insensitive (someone who should have known better IRL said something very similar to me and I felt completely worthless too. ) Its not you, its their issue...

Hi In the Darkness;

You right people who never had to deal with real depression can't understand what we are going through. But don't let them upset you, just look at the source it's coming from and that they just are not aware of the pain and bad feelings we have. Just praise yourself each day for getting up and doing what you can and to heck with everything else, it will happen when the time is right, and friends will understand at some point.

Keep safe and try to be happy.

sending good thoughts that you will rise out of this current funk and have the will to carry on...

I'm sorry that this happened to you Mikky. Everyone has a right to their opinions and I also have the right to only listen to the opinions of folks who I respect. Everyone else's opinion (which is hurtful or ignorant or whatever) can go in my right ear and go right out the left...