Not worth it

Maybe its not even worth talking about anymore ..it is what it is

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Keep posting...

thanks fuzzy for caring ((((((Fuzzy))))))

(purple)))))))))))))))))))))))
everyone matters
You matter...........
everyone is worth it
everyone is important here
its always worth talking about it
muffy

purplebutterfly

i really do not see how I am worth it or how anything really matters right now

((purple)) can you tell us the reasons you're convinced you're not worth it? safe hugs

everything i touch goes to %#@&#!
can not do anything right
always been an outcast
nobody wants to be around me
im always unhappy, depressed, angry
screaming
yelling
cutting
im used
not a good mother
not a good person in general
not a good lover
not a good anything
im a piece of %#@&#!
if you need more just ask, i have plenty these are just a few

how many of these are true in truth and how many are what you say to yourself are true? sorry you are hurting so badly and have been mistreated by others.. a change in friends can make a huge improvement for you imo...

Purplebutterfly,
All of us question ourselves as to whether we're good parents, lovers, etc. Please give yourself a break, don't be so hard on yourself - easier said than done, I know. When one part of our lives stink, it seems like it affects all the other parts and it seems like we're sinking even more. I say "seems" because so many factors play a role... like our surroundings, how tired we are, the people in our lives and how they are doing, how we feel about ourselves and others - those are just a few. If you weren't a good parent, you wouldn't be questioning your parenting abilities. The kind of parents that don't give a rip about their kids never question their abilities, they're too self-centered to really care about their kids.
It's so clear that you do care! You've even said so in prior posts. You care about being a good lover, you care about the things you listed - otherwise you wouldn't be thinking about them - you would have just checked them off and tossed them out with the garbage, BUT you didn't.
You sound tired and worn out. Please do your best to take care of YOU first. The rest will fall into place. Take it one hour at a time if need be and take care of yourself.
Many, many hugs,
Einna

thanks for everyone's encourgement. everything is getting to be too much today and im falling apart day by day. im giving up on ever feeling any better. sorry to all those that are hurting as i try to encourge on PC but right now I am unable to even look at myself in the mirror

Do you want me to reply?

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(((purple)))) its very hard to imagine that what we are saying is true for for you right now maybe, but the truth s that you are a kind and caring, hurt individual asking for care from others and there's nothing at all wrong with that.. they can show you the true beauty of inner you given enough time and assistance from yourself.. and professionals help round out your healing process.. no deserves hurt or to stay hurt.... have patience with yourself and try gently to heal... you can make it.. sending caring hugs and thoughts always