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I've always come across as the carefree and happy person in my family..and im afraid if they know im weak and pathetic...they'll just make fun.

I know parents are human too...I just want for her to see me. Not just me..but who I am and whats happening to me.
My whole family just thinks im going through teen angst..but I swear its not.
Its way more painful than that..way more destructive.

Why do you think that they would make fun of you if you tell them that you are hurting? Why do you think that you are weak and pathetic for hurting? The vulnerabilities that we have make us human beings.

They can't see you if you won't show them. They can only attribute your behaviors as teen angst if you don't share anything else with them.

Technically Ive already told them..and my mom said she would get me help and she never did.
No one takes me seriously..ever. My friends make fun of me..Im always the the joke of the group...
Im getting really tired of having my problems ignored.

What does technically telling them mean? How long ago did she tell you that she was going to get you help?

Would you mind explaining a situation where you were the joke just so that I can understand?

It sounds like you were always the one in your group that made people laugh and were easy-going? It's very hard for people to see others outside that which we're used to seeing them. That's when "Really?? I didn't know that!" gets said about people. (It's like when you first realized that your teachers didn't live at school and actually had lives!) Please try to get a close friend to sit with you and describe your feelings and find a way to communicate to your mom how you're hurting. It's hard to live up to the "You're supposed to.."s that people assign to us.

I mean she found out about it and she promised she would get me help..it was 4 months ago..and still nothings happened.

An example..whenever Im with my friends they only make fun with me, jokingly but it gets tiring after a while...and they constantly degrade me..by implying im going to be a dropout and that my dreams will never come true.

Oh my canstopcrying you got me spot on! Im going to take your advice...thank you so much!

I take it that "she found out" means that you didn't explain it to her?

Do you think that your friends might be joking with you over this issue because they are worried about you?

So you used to be the one in the group who would make people laugh and now you have stopped? If this is so maybe they are trying to get you back to that with their teasing?

(((((Mel)))))

I, too, was always the one my family had high expectations of and I also ended up being the butt of my friends jokes. It got to me so much that I have now lost touch with all my friends and I'm really lonely. I never confronted them about it. Honestly, your friends probably don't even realise what they are doing. I guess they don't know you're depressed? Why don't you talk to your closest friend and try and tell her how you are feeling, or even write it down. If they're truly are a good friend to you then he/she will want to help you in any way they can.
Could they be making fun of you 'becoming a dropout' as an indirect way of trying to tell you that you need to try a bit harder and attend school?
They care about you and so do your family. But neither group of them are mind readers (re-reading that, that sounds harsh... I don't mean it in a harsh way)... if you don't tell them how you are feeling or how you think they could help you then they can't do it because they don't know.

I wish you all the best ((((mel))))

Molly

(((((Mel)))))

I, too, was always the one my family had high expectations of and I also ended up being the butt of my friends jokes. It got to me so much that I have now lost touch with all my friends and I'm really lonely. I never confronted them about it. Honestly, your friends probably don't even realise what they are doing. I guess they don't know you're depressed? Why don't you talk to your closest friend and try and tell her how you are feeling, or even write it down. If they're truly are a good friend to you then he/she will want to help you in any way they can.
Could they be making fun of you 'becoming a dropout' as an indirect way of trying to tell you that you need to try a bit harder and attend school?
They care about you and so do your family. But neither group of them are mind readers (re-reading that, that sounds harsh... I don't mean it in a harsh way)... if you don't tell them how you are feeling or how you think they could help you then they can't do it because they don't know.

I wish you all the best ((((mel))))

Molly

(sorry it posted twice... I don't know what happened, there's something going on with my comp/internet and pc tonight)