[angrybytch]

i don't often post here as i find it difficult to even think my feelings thru let alone write or talk about them. however i have reached what i believe to be a breaking point and i don't know what to do. i am always offered good adivce here and there is always a friendly ear here (i love this place) so here goes...i recognize that i am slipping deep into a depression and i have attempted to try and do something about it. i went on the insurance website to try and find a psych healthcare provider, only to be lead to a dead end. it actually said there were no matches to my search. i find it hard to believe since i live in the middle of a highly populated metropolis. poor information on the internet in leiu of an actual provider book in the snail mail...why is that??? it kept referring me to an 800 phone number...i am scared to death to get on the phone and talk to anyone. i have successfully isolated myself from everyone but my husband and kids for almost a week now. i guess i need to let him know what's really going on with me when he gets home from work and ask for his help. i am very afraid...it is all i can do to get out of bed and take care of my kids in the morning. i just can't stand the way i am thinking and feeling, and i don't want to create a potentially unsafe environment for my kids. that's all i have to do is take care of them and it's hard now. i just needed to let some of this frustration out. any advice is greatly appreciated.

[(JD)]

Hi, welcome "bak" sigh. Seems a few of us are really having a go of it lately... maybe the full moons?

It's really difficult for me to think right now because of my own depression.

I understand not wanting to do the phone call bit, I'm the same way.

Do you have a local hospital where you can go by and pick up the list of their providers that they refer psych patients to? Do you not have an MD who will refer you? Maybe even have someone in the MD's office or the ER even, do the calling FOR you? Social workers at hospitals do that...part of their job.

If you can ask your spouse, maybe not make a huge deal of it, just ask him to find or look up or call for the healthcare provider list for you?

Sigh. Hope this helps somehow.

[h0kie]

I do think you need to talk to your husband. I bet you are scared to do this. But I bet he knows something is wrong, maybe not what is wrong though.

Would your husband be willing to make the call to the 800 number? I abhore using the telephone. So my hubby makes most of the phone calls we need made. I can make a phone call if I need to, but he takes care of most of it for me. If I have to make a phone call I don't want to, I try to plan out what I want to say. If I can't script out the whole convo, I at least write the main things I want stated. it usually helps me to have something to refer to.

I think its great that you recognize things are getting worse. Many people don't realize they're in a "crisis" until it is too late to get help.

[nightdream]

I hope you have talked to your husband sweety. Im sure he can help you find some kind of help.

Do not lose hope!

Hugs!
nightdream

[wisewoman]

You are already heading in the right direction. Hope hubby was helpful. If not see your doc and get a referral. You are trying hard and you will see daylight again.

[jmo531]

I understand how your feeling. My insurance failed me as well time and time again. The good news is that all counties offer mental health services the residents of the county in which they live. My suggestion is to call your local social services department and ask for the number of their mental health services. I tried going through my Primary Doc for a referral only to find that I was looking at a 2-3 month wait. Through the county I only had to wait about 4 weeks. It's unfortunate that they feel that mental health can wait weeks and months. Please hand in there for the children and I hope my suggestion helps. Take care.