[ariesmars]

just no reason to be happy

[nightbird]

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((((((((((ariesmars))))))))))))))))))))))) I am sorry things are so hard.

BB

[ariesmars]

I just wish I had somebody.

[DOWNINNATICK]

Ariesmars;

There is a lot to be happy for, and just because you don't have anyone in you life right now just means you haven't found your soul mate yet.

You have friend here and you can pm me anytime if you just need to vent, because that will help release your pent up stress and pain. Again you have a lot to be happy and someday you will feel better and know how great of a person you are.

[silver_moon]

((((((ariesmars)))))) have you ever heard of that (well it's not quite a saying...) "if you look for someone, you wont find them. But, if you stop looking, love will find you?"
I think that's true to some extent... not necessarily that you'll find someone to be with if you stop looking, but you allow yourself to focus on you. You allow other things to make you happy. You keep yourself busy and your mind has other things to focus on. I'm not saying you'll forget that you're wanting to be with someone, unfortunately you won't... it's human nature. But don't let not having anyone in your life be the be all and end all.
I hope some of that made sense?

Take care
Molly

[ariesmars]

Thanks for the replies. It means something that you take the time to write to me. However, now I feel like changing my title to "I got no reason to live" Everyone hates me, parents are mean to me and everything hurts.

[nowheretorun]

((aries))) i can bet you do feel that way at the moment... ive felt that way before too... for me i had to find reasons to live.... there are many.... for one, society tells me its wrong to not want to live... since i was very depressed and didnt understand many of the things happening to me, i had to adopt some statements as truths and try to work with that...

i lived long enough to learn a few other truths... i needed helpful people to tell me these things and even when they made sense, they didnt seem to help at first... i kept trying different things... never really staying with any of them cause they all seemed to take to long or were too hard....

i learned there is meaning to my life... others told me so and i didnt really know what they meant but i believed them.. i wished it was all clear to me in an easy way but it never really was... people lent a hand tho and bless them, i never would have made it...

believe that you can get better and find reasons for living aries.. i pray you breathe long enough to find the true value of your existence... follow your interests.. they lead you somewhere...

[Phoenix1985]

[ariesmars]

I hate myself!

[cantstopcrying]

I'm sorry you feel so sad and feel like you hate yourself. That's a terrible feeling. Do you talk to anyone IRL about this?

[silver_moon]

((((((((((((((((ariesmars)))))))))))))))))
there's a shoulder here if you need it, and ears too...

[BlueFaith]

(((( aries )))) I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. I hope it passes soon and things start to look brighter for you. You're in my thoughts. PM me anytime you'd like to talk if you want to. I'm here if you need me.

[nightbird]

(((aries)))

change one thing for a try ... ok ...

the word HATE

it is a word that serves no one.

if you apply it to others or to yourself, it does not feel good.

now, if you re-langauge your word, to address the real feelings you have or the insecurities you feel, you might find you are getting further along in a different direction... just try it.

take words like 'hate myself' or 'hate' in general out of any equation.

see if you replace it with a word that opens up your mind and feelings, rather than closing them off, (which it does) ... then hope might take root quicker.

I have personally found that those who believe using the word and all it implies, or feels the absence of love (which it means), don't get relief from pain as easily as those who embrace relief and try to improve their self-image.

you are young ... and have a wonderful life ahead of you. I know you are suffering something, but taking at lest one step in a different direction can transform your life ... putting you in a place where you feel better!

just a suggestion.

try and smile too, it sets off our natural endorphins (painkiller) from our brain ... here's something..

peace and love, and like instead of the 'h' word.
night

xoxoxox

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by nightbird

(((aries)))

change one thing for a try ... ok ...

the word HATE

it is a word that serves no one.

if you apply it to others or to yourself, it does not feel good.

now, if you re-langauge your word, to address the real feelings you have or the insecurities you feel, you might find you are getting further along in a different direction... just try it.

take words like 'hate myself' or 'hate' in general out of any equation.

see if you replace it with a word that opens up your mind and feelings, rather than closing them off, (which it does) ... then hope might take root quicker.

I have personally found that those who believe using the word and all it implies, or feels the absence of love (which it means), don't get relief from pain as easily as those who embrace relief and try to improve their self-image.

you are young ... and have a wonderful life ahead of you. I know you are suffering something, but taking at lest one step in a different direction can transform your life ... putting you in a place where you feel better!

just a suggestion.

try and smile too, it sets off our natural endorphins (painkiller) from our brain ... here's something..

peace and love, and like instead of the 'h' word.
night

xoxoxox

good post

[nowheretorun]

you are worth more than that aries.. you are not hate-able... you can feel a whole lot of stuff but if you let yourself hate yourself then you wouldnt be giving yourself the best kind caring treatment you could, would you? give it a try aries, you're not so hate-able... let yourself have some good stuff now and then, k? treat yourself a little bit kinder and then you can see that kindness exists... then if you want, share that feeling with others who also seem to enjoy that feeling and who knows?

[ariesmars]

I don't like the "h" word. Thinking more about it, I don't really "h" myself. I just feel so alone, I have my mother with me and I keep asking her to spend time with me and she puts it off each time I feel no one cares for me and feel "h"ed. Haven't worked in two weeks, haven't seen my T for two weeks, things are taking over me. Suppose to get a phone call about an aspergers program to help me, and she hasn't called me back for 1.5 weeks, each day the feelings get stronger, until I can see my T. She makes me feel better, but she is sick this week so she cancelled on me. Just so !

[nowheretorun]

this is actually a good place for you to be right now aries... try and see it like this if you can... you've suffered and felt unhappy about some situations... a cumulative total of what you believe are losses have piled up against you... you want help, need help, and you've turned for help... help has been made available to you... you have a breathing chance... dont give up on yourself now when you need yourself most... this is the time you really need to steel your reserve and dig in deeper... let your firm beliefs about your worth take root now and charge ahead to overcome these deceptions that have tried assuming control of your life... you want beauty, you want love... its hard aries, no doubt, but you can go get it, you have the power, you can make it... go for it.. dont let life pass you by... there is much beauty out there and you can claim it for yourself.... follow healthy others leads.... best always...

[(JD)]

(((ariesmars))) You may not know any reasons to live right now, but they are there. Depression (and other disorders) can block a person's honest view of himself and what life there is beyond where he is now.

What are your reasons for not seeing T in 2 weeks? I'd call and fix that situation right now, if you can. I hope it's up to you, and not a hassle. Even if a parent has to approve it, you can call the T and ask them to set it up.

Being under the "control" of another is always tough, and it's not different when it's a parent while you are still trying to learn how live for yourself.

I doubt you will always be alone. But right now, while you are feeling so poorly, and also trying to sort through things, it's probably good that you don't have an ongoing relationship. Just read in the forums here and you'll see that they are a lot of work, and not just wonderful feeling all the time. It isn't because you are unlovable, btw, because I believe there is probably someone out there for you.

One foot in front of the other. I'm glad you don't really hate yourself. But even if you did, you can change things about your life, and even yourself. TC!

[nightbird]

((((Aries))))

I hope your T is feeling better and can see you this week.

As Sky has suggested, you could call and get the ball rolling on your own, I hope.

You are a Dear, Dear Person ... and I care about you, as so the others here, so ... you have friends.

IRL, well, you'll get there. It takes time. I found my first real friend in life at 16 so .... it takes time to cultivate friendships and plus, the opportunity.

You might ask your T what she suggests in your area for you to get involved with socially that won't upset the apple cart, sort of.

And another thing Sky said, about relationships ... so true.

You have time. Don't rush, ok?

It's hard work and emotionally, well, if it's not a good fit, or healthy, and only happens out of need, being needy, well, you see the posts on here.
Many do not supply neither the care nor the respect that people deserve.

Waiting for the right person for you to come along ... is best. And not waiting, but rather living this life, enjoying some small pleasures, and doing what you feel is good and wholesome - will end up bringing the people into your life that you have common ground with ... and there may be friendships and who know's - a love match - waiting to happen, in the best case scenario.

Either way, live your life, and go see your T, keep your head up high no matter what is going on around you (from 'IF'), and know that you are a dear and beautiful soul ... and you will attract good things into your life.

Time is your friend, and that makes you lucky!!!!

Peace and Love,
Night

xoxoxoxo

[meander]

(((((aries)))))) I hope you get through this ok

[ariesmars]

thanks all for the wonderful replies! They mean so much to me! I do feel better now and will see my T tomorrow, if nothing happens. I got so much to talk with her about. I feel so with talking/writing with all of you.

[nowheretorun]

(((aries))))

[ariesmars]

I just want make a statment, and makes me abit sad but...

that picture of the girl on the freshman 15 on the homepage is very attractive to me. she is sexy, and those lips are very kissable.

[ariesmars]

I'm getting stressed out and don't know how to cope!