[stupified1313]

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THE BRAIN IS SO OVERWHEMLED WHERE TO START.......... NON STOP RACING IMAGES AND THOUGHTS I CANT EVEN KEEP UP WITH ALL OF THEM... AARRRGHH... I HAVE NO AMBITION OR MOTIVATION I FIND EVERYDAY SIMPLE TASK DREADFUL AND GRUELING. EVERY MORNING WHEN I WAKE UP, I WAKE WITH NAUSEA, ANXIETY, SHAKING, IMMENSE PHYSICAL PAIN, CRAZY UNCONTROLABLE THOUGHTS OF HANGING MYSELF ( NO I DONT HAVE A PLAN AND IT IS NOT WHAT I REALLY WANT ) AND MY BRAIN WONT STOP IT JUST GOES AND GOES AND GOES I THINK ABLUT ALL THE TASKS AT HAND AND A MILLION MILES PER HOUR. UNTIL FINALLY I BECOME HOPLESS AND SO OVERWHELMED I CAN EVEN GET MYSELF OUT OF MY BED. I JUT GO BACK TO SLEEP AND ACCOMPLISH NOTHING, AND THEN I BEAT MYSELF UP FOR BEING A LAZY *****. IF I STAY AWAKE IM CRYING UNCONTRALLBLY OR IM JUST DULL BLAH NO EMOTIONS.. THIS VISCOUS CYCLE IS DRIVING ME NUTS!!! I TRY TO CHANGE MY THOUGHT PROCESS BUT IT SEEMS NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE!!!!! I CANT EVEN KEEP UP WITH MY BRAIN TO TYPE THIS THREAD.... GRRR.... ANY SUGGESTIONS?????

[gimmeice]

((((((((((((((( stupified1313 )))))))))))))))))

Have you talked to anyone about these feelings? If not I think you should at the very least go talk to your dr about this, they can always refer you to a therapist which might help. I struggle with the overwhelming thoughts too sometimes I have found taking a warm bath or cold shower to be helpful to kinda pull me back to the present. Sometimes reading one of my favorite books can help too, it's hard to read and have thoughts racing through your mind at the same time.

[madisgram]

the first thought i had was boy can i relate to how you're feeling! i used to have long periods of this agonizing state of mind. so sorry you are going through one of those times too. do you have a pdoc or T? the pdoc could adjust your meds if he/she thought that would help break the chain of depression/mania you're in.
when i'd get like this a long, brisk walk would definitely help. i realize just getting out of your own front door may be difficult but if you can use a crowbar..JK..and head on out it will probably help all the symptoms you are experiencing. i found when i was like this i couldn't really focus on any calming exercise like reading so physical exertion was the best solution for me.
hope this helps.

[Capp]

stupified1313
it's so hard to get through these episodes!

madisgram and gimmeice offered some good suggestions.
I would also encourage you to check in with your doc...meds may need adjusted, but at the least he/she needs to know how you are feeling.

I hope you feel better soon,
Cap

[brephi]

Sounds like you're really having a tough time. MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU. That's why the advice from GIMMEICE would be very helpful to you. I'm going through serious bouts of depression MYSELF. It's absolutely horrifying, especially when you are trying to keep everything together and to yourself. Sometimes, you don't want to talk to friends and/or family because you feel they don't understand and you may be scrutinized for appearing weak. Mental illness is a disease just like hypertension, diabetes, etc., and you shouldn't be ashamed if you are having problems. One thing I want you to do is to to see a medical professional so you can be prescribed some medications. There are so many kinds out there to help people like me and you. It may be easy from you as it is for me to talk to someone at this site rather than face-to-face. The advice given by this Psych Central is helpful, but you do need to see a medical professional. There is no shame in doing that. I, like so many others, have seen or are seeing psychiatrists, psychologists, counselors, therapists.

PLEASE GET HELP, STUP. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

GOD BLESS YOU.

[Tumnus]

Very much relating, except for the crying part. I've been distracting myself with the oh-so-helpful habit of watching T.V. It's better than some alternatives.

[daggy]

stupified1313
You made a start by reaching out into this forum for advice and help and that's a great thing and there are so many people that will offer you advice good advice and heaps of it. So take heart that in there somewhere you will find something that is right for you . Even if it is just a distraction from the day to day routine at least it will be something to build on.
The cycle of up and down and feeling low CAN be stopped and believe it or not a more "normal" pattern of life obtained.
I hope you will take what everyone else has said to heart and find some comfort