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Jan 04, 2009, 08:13 AM
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Stuff keeps happening. Keeps making things worse.
I have a lot of trouble opening up to anyone at all. I can't speak my troubles, I can't write them down. This morning I managed to write a tiny bit though. I couldn't get on PC this morning, but what I wrote, I wrote to a friend on here. It was so difficult and it was so painful to see it written down on paper. I didn't write much before I had to stop. My head is such a mess, so overwhelmed. Just wish we could have a break from it once in a while.
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Jan 04, 2009, 08:25 AM
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Molly, I am so very sorry for all your pain. honey were you able to get your papers filled out? i pray daily that you are able to get in to see someone, to find some peace, to remove yourself from your situation.
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Jan 04, 2009, 08:27 AM
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how i wish i could lend out my head to you but i think my head more messed than urs ..so...but at least we still have eachother... 
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Jan 04, 2009, 08:41 AM
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oh prue sweetheart (((((((((prue))))))))) we do have each other... and one day we're not going to feel the pain we're feeling anymore.
((((((Marci))))) Thank you so much for your prayers. I have filled parts in, but I still have quite a bit to fill out (the parts about members of my family, describing nightmares and past relationships are all in the list of parts I need to do). I can't cope  I REALLY don't want to, but if things don't look up a little bit soon I think I might have to admit myself and that scares me so much. It's the start of the new school term this Tuesday, so I can go back to the school this next week. I got a place on the Teaching Assistant course, that starts in February. I want to do all that... I hope so much that going back to the school occupies me enough for me to stay out of hospital. I keep thinking about what I've written too.. I don't know whether to type t up on here or to just leave it.
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Jan 04, 2009, 08:43 AM
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i am so sorry you feel so down.
when i was so deeply depressed, hopeless about life, my T made me do a daily journal. now i know that is hard to do. i balked at him. he insisted. thank god. i made myself write down all the pain i felt, the confusion, the fears. no it didn't change my situation at first but it allowed me to regurgitate all that pent up pain. i often would cry as i wrote. do you think you could do this for yourself? after you've written down your daily thoughts you don't have to look at them again...it's the process of letting the steam out of the pressure cooker inside you. i'm glad you are postng here...it's another way of expressing yourself and please know that we truly do care about you. we care how you feel.  i pray soon that you will have happy days.
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Jan 04, 2009, 08:52 AM
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its hard to wrote about our self but after we finished we just feel relief like i did now...well even i still have this depression with me but aleast it help a bit and it tooks more than 2 month for me to wrote about me... love you molly
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Jan 04, 2009, 09:08 AM
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I have a lot of trouble opening up to anyone at all. I can't speak my troubles, I can't write them down. This morning I managed to write a tiny bit though. I couldn't get on PC this morning, but what I wrote, I wrote to a friend on here. It was so difficult and it was so painful to see it written down on paper. I didn't write much before I had to stop.
[FONT="Arial Black"][/FONT] Poor Moon, I know just how that feels. My body is a dam holding all the pain in. One crack, and the whole structure will shatter. We feel fragile - but actually I think we are the strongest people on earth, to keep carrying on day after day against such odds, wading up to our hips through all this psychic s***, pulling ourselves along with that little thread of hope. You are a warrior. My head is such a mess, so overwhelmed. Just wish we could have a break from it once in a while.[/QUOTE] [FONT="Arial Black"][/FONT] You took words right out of my mouth there. How often I've wished I could be stricken with amnesia! Or just be something happy like a cat or a dog, without any of this awful self-consciousness. Last edited by clio; Jan 04, 2009 at 09:08 AM. Reason: clarification |
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Jan 04, 2009, 11:28 AM
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 ((((((((((((((((( molly )))))))))))))))))
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Jan 04, 2009, 11:39 AM
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(((((((((Silver Moon)))))))))))))))
Heaven Knows You're Special and I Know It Too!!!! Keep posting, 'k Much Love, Holmes |
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Jan 04, 2009, 11:50 AM
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((((((silver moon))))) please take care of you. Things will be looking up for you soon, you deserve that. If I had a magic wand, I'd make things better for you right now.
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Jan 04, 2009, 12:24 PM
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writing it out and seeing what you've written is HARD. When I write things down that I can't get out to someone and then go back and read what I wrote it's scarey to think I wrote those words. I completely understand. It's hard to even write it down. But it's good that you were able to write just a little...I wish I could have a break from it too. I wish we all could Take care of yourself, okay Please keep writing too
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Jan 04, 2009, 04:06 PM
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I wanna reply to you all
 but I can't think... just memories, bad thoughts, triggering, just mess...
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Jan 04, 2009, 04:08 PM
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Jan 04, 2009, 04:17 PM
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((((((((prue))))))))
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Jan 04, 2009, 04:50 PM
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I need to get some pain out... I can't write... I don't know how to do it in a safe way...
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Jan 04, 2009, 04:53 PM
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draw or paint
scribble clean take a hot hot shower and cry in the shower tear newspaper throw a koosh
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Jan 04, 2009, 07:01 PM
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(((moon)))
you can make it. maybe grab a big pillow and hug it as tight as you can.
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Jan 05, 2009, 08:35 AM
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I am sorry you are feeling like this. Do what you need to do to be safe. I will be here for you if you need me.
I hope I hear from you soon  Minty misses you and wishes you would visit. 
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Jan 05, 2009, 11:02 AM
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I can't remember last night at all... all I can remember is that it was bad
But, I'm here.... ((((((marci))))) thank you so much (((((tao)))))) ((((((fio)))))) you will hear from me, noone gets away from me that easily
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Jan 05, 2009, 01:57 PM
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no no no no no no NO!!!
Why do things always have to go wrong, why do things always complicate things all the time. My head feels numb, literally like pins and needles... I'm panicking and I feel sick and dizzy. I hate this!
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Jan 05, 2009, 02:11 PM
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(((((((( silver moon ))))))))
 I am very worried about you. You really need to get out of the situation you are in. Make a leap of change. The thing is that, the longer you stay in this abusive place, the worse your mental health will get. This is why I keep banging on that you need to go talk with your GP, leave home etc. I know that none of my suggestions are easy... I have been in hell myself, I'm hoping you can get out of this hell soon too.
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Jan 05, 2009, 02:48 PM
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I'm trying
I'm trying to do it in a way that won't hurt my family and in a way that keeps me safe too.I don't feel like anyone will ever care about me, or that I'll be able to trust anyone again either.
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Jan 05, 2009, 02:57 PM
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At this point, sweety, taking care of you is most important, not hurting your family is secondary to that. Not to minimize the importance of that, but YOU are the main importance. If they are hurt by you taking care of yourself, there is something wrong with that picture.
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Jan 05, 2009, 03:54 PM
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((((((((((Rabbit Lady)))))))
 I can empathize with the struggles you are going through. I dont know the specifics, but from what I have read I can relate to the emotional upheval that you are experiencing. |
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Jan 05, 2009, 06:04 PM
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I'm really upset right now... it's my own fault. I started watching a programme (it's a documentary about an English footballer and his and his families struggle with his alcoholism and psychological issues) I was ok to start with, but a lot of it is triggering now. Shouldn't have watched it in the first place.
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