i feel as if my entire existance is under threat, i dont know where or what to do, i have a matter of 2 weeks to find someware else to live, the local authority dont want to know, my doc is being an *** by messing with my meds all the time, i saw me son last week for the first time this year and i had a DID blackout and he had to be cared for by the staff in the museum where i took him, so know i have lost me visitation rights to me son as i cant afford to let it happen again he is only 6 and as never seen me like that before, i am losing or have lost everything that i held dear and dont know what to do, i saw the doc today and he said come back in 2 weeks for a repeat perscription and i should be better, i have been on meds for 12 years and i am getting worse not better

[MacD]

Mellors...i don't mean to be presumptuous...but how about a new physician....this one doesn't seem to be benefitting you at all...hang in there....we all care alot.
Mac

[Mahali]

Mellors,
I am very sorry for the way you feel. I know that is so inadequate and I wish there was something more I could do.
Please know you are in our thoughts.

Please take very good care. Stay safe as you can.

[Wants2Fly]

Dear Mellors --

I don't know what to say to be comforting. Everything meaningful in my life was torn away from me 2 years ago. That didn't include a child, so I can't even know how much more that might hurt.

I think you can find a place to stay in 2 weeks. I've found a place to stay in a day, when I had to. Might not be the place that you want, but I think you can do.

It might be a good idea to get another opinion about the meds. When I was in New Orleans this summer, I started "sinking" albeit slowly, and got a pdoc by advice here -- who, was of course, different than the one I'd been seeing in Florida. The fresh perspective he gave made a big difference. My medication schedule was changed so that I could tolerate a larger dose; the one I'd been taking was too minimal to make any real difference, bec. of the side effects I experienced if I took a larger dose all at once. This has made a huge difference for me.

Please accept the love and concern of forum members to help you with these challenges that can sometimes seem almost overwhelming. You will handle them.

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((((((((( mellors ))))))))))))))))))))))))))

i second the other possible suggestions and send peaceful wishes to you.

[phoenix30]

(((((mellors))))

Hey, I'm so sorry ur going thru all that, I can't imagine what it would be like not to be able to spend time with your child. I agree with the other posts - I think you should def try and change doc - you are entitled to do that in the UK, I know someone who changed docs a couple of times and the 3rd was the one who he felt most comfortable with... also, are you seeing any one else like a therapist/psych/counsellor? If you are, how's that going? If not, I would suggest that you request a referral thru your doc (or new doc).

Your local authority may be unhelpful, but they do have a duty by law to house you - sounds good in theory, but I know the reality is quite different.

The housing laws recently changed in the UK. Once you are 'homeless' they have a duty to house you immediately. That may mean emergency accommodation for a while, (not sure about England, but in Scotland it's a max of 28 days in emerg accomm) but at least it's a roof over your head. If you're not working and are on benefits then you may be able to access funding to pay the deposit and rent for a private let - If you've not already done so, pop into your local office or look at the website for C.A.B. (www.adviceguide.org.uk). It must be a really worrying situation. I hope you do manage to sort something out, but what I'm saying is, don't give up on it, there are organisations out there who are not part of the local authority and really can and do help people in situations like yours - good luck...

Thinking of you...

p x

[jmo531]

I'm sorry your going through such a hard time right now. I don't know if I can offer you any comfort to ease your pain but I do think that researching a new doc would be a good first step. I hope that things get better for you as I know it is seems very bleek. My thoughts are with you. (((((((((((MELLORS)))))))))))

[celeste123]

Going through he same thing with my doc, and it's difficult i feel like i'm wasting their time. Last time i went she said she just didn't know what to do with me. And my perscription is in her hands and i've lost all faith in her but mostly myself.
I think maybe a new doc would be good for you i know i'm thinking about it.
((((((((((mellors))))))))))

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i had a DID blackout and he had to be cared for by the staff in the museum where i took him, so know i have lost me visitation rights to me son as i cant afford to let it happen again he is only 6 and as never seen me like that before,

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> mellors,
Are you saying that you had a dissociative blackout episode while at the museum? You also say that your son has never seen you like that before........what are you referring to with 'that'?

I'm concerned about what medications you are on and what has been changed recently? You mention the doc is messing with your meds. That has got to be difficult to be living through.

Blacking out if it was due to meds needs immediate attention. If you are instead referring to a dissociative fugue or similar state then I also urge you to contact your therapist at once.

I'm very sorry about your housing situation and I hope the mother of your child has some sense about visitation rights.

My sympathies. Best wishes mellors. Twelve years of meds and feeling worse sounds very dreary indeed.