having trouble holding on......

Wish it would all just go away. I am so alone,no family near,no friends, I hate that ive had to endure my entire life alone. I dont want to do this anymore. I dont see a light at the end of the tunnel anymore. I wish I could just stop breathing!!!!

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if you can't see the light, I'll try to help guide you to it.

I have been in that deep dark spot, where I can see no light, and start to believe it isnt there, never was there, and never will be there for me. I can see it now. It glints softly through the fog of sadness and hurt that I live in, but I can see it. Hold my hand, we'll go there together.

first, please try to trust me, when I say it's there.

Give yourself something special today, I don't know what you like, some tea? some chocolate? a hot bath? endulge, and pick yourself up tomorrow

I'm not in a good place right now either. Let's hang on together.

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Please don't give up! Eventually the depression will go away! I've seen lots of people in your position get 100% better, remember depression is just an illusion its not reality so just hang in there!!!

(((((((((4everlonely))))))))))

I know you do not know me and maybe you do not trust anyone--but believe me I understand. I too had no-one. I was alone, did not believe that anyone cared or would or could ever care. Trust is still an issue although I am learning. And there are good people in the world which I learned too.

I have no family or none that cares about me, unless I am doing things their way. I was being hurt and living scared every day--running inside scared to death. Barely had a voice or would look at anyone. Was afraid that everyone would hurt me if I did not apologize for everything which I still am working on today.

I felt I was worthless and nothing--and just needed to stop breathing for everyone's sake. But, I somehow reached out and took hold, and I began to seek the help I needed. It was not easy and I wanted so many times to give up. Many tears fell and many times I had to trust when trust was not there.

But, I reached out my hand to someone who was willing to walk with me and stand by me. And I was terrified that that hand would not be there many times but it was always there--and now I want to extend my hand to you-----------------------------------------------------to hold on to as you are walking this lonely path so that you know you are not alone. I want to be there for you and to give you hope and even hold that hope for you until you are strong enough to hold it yourself.

I know you do not know me but if you will just give me a chance--I will walk with you until you see the light. Sometimes the light is hard to see as it is very foggy but with others we can find it together.

dps

(((4everlonely)))so very sorry to hear that you are feeling this way. i used to say i am only breathing air. i got into therapy and dealt with these so very lonely, depairing thoughts. later i was able to re-start my life, learned to make friends that supported and cared about me just as i was/am, had no supportive family either but my friends have filled up my life with so much joy. my son is still in my life but he is the only family member that i truly relate to and i know he cares.
feeling that you are living your life alone can be so very lonely. are u in therapy? that has made the most impact on my recovery from my depression and feeling like life had passed me by. once trust was extablished with my T and pdoc i knew i was never alone anymore because they were always there for me. they helped me regain HOPE. it was a big step of course and baby steps thereafter..leaning new ways to cope with life, learning to not fear, learning to feel safe making caring friends, learning how to know which friends to choose, etc.
i hope anything i've written here may ring a bell with you. most importantly i hope you find some hope for yourself in what i've posted. i was at the very end of my rope when i reached out to the T and pdoc and gained the life i know now.
please keep us posted on how your doing. we truly care.

How about we ALL hang on!

I've been here many times...
I'm a childhood rape/abuse survivor.
I never thought I could trust anyone ever again.
But please believe me when I say things will start looking up for you.
I don't know what's going on with you, but I hope it resolves itself.
Just take a deep breath and count to ten.
Just think about all the good times you've had.
Think about all the good times you'll have.
That'll get you through whatever it is you're going through.
Trust me when I say you're not alone and that people do care.
(group hug) =]

4EVERLONELY, I AM SORRY THAT YOU ARE ALONE. YOU MAY BE ALONE IN ARKANSAS, BUT ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS AT PSYCH CENTRAL ARE HERE FOR YOU.

PICTURE THIS: YOU HAVE SO MANY FRIENDS AT PC THAT WE ALL CAN'T PUT OUR ARMS AROUND YOU, BUT WE STILL TRY. YOUR FRIENDS AT PC ARE GIVING YOU A HUMONGOUS GROUP HUG, LISTENING, ENCOURAGING YOU AND WIPING AWAY AND TEARS YOU MAY HAVE. THAT'S WHAT REAL FRIENDS DO.

SO NOW YOU ARE NOT ALONE. PLEASE STAY IN TOUCH WITH YOUR MANY FRIENDS HERE AT PC. YOU MAY NOT HAVE ANYONE ELSE, BUT YOU DO HAVE US.