still lost.....

hi all...i guess im writing cuz i wanted you all to get to know me some...i have read some of ur posts and met some of you in the chat...i thought it was time i wrote about me...i suffer from major depression and panic disorder and ptsd..i have been ouuta work now for about 3 weeks or so..i so want my life back but just dont know how to fix things...its come to the point where i am now unable to look in the mirror..i was wondering..has anyone ever gone through a phase where when they look in the mirror they dont know the person looking back at them...ya just know the person you see you just dont care for anymore???i know i am a good person and a good mother...i dont deserve any of this...none of this makes any sense....i just wish i knew how to fix this and get my life back....everday is such a struggle....i take my meds go to my appts..the therapits says i need to stop blaming myself...when do the dreams go away,when do i get to see myself again in the mirror????when does this sadness go away???my intent was to introduce myself now .i have seem to have sound like im whining..im sorry for that...i guess i needed to vent..anyway thanks for listeing......

Sherry,

I know how you feel about not knowing the person in the mirror anymore. Just remember it is the illness you are seeing -- not you. All I can say right now is DON'T BELIEVE THE MIRROR. You are still you, believe it. Take care of yourself.

Sherry, it takes time and patience. It will start feeling better with therapy and the right meds. Least that's my experience.

((((sherry)))) I know how hard it is. I don't have any great advice at the moment because I'm sorta lost at the moment myself, but you're in my prayers.

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((((sherry)))) I know how hard it is. I don't have any great advice at the moment because I'm sorta lost at the moment myself, but you're in my prayers.

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Same here. If I can help let me know. Your not alone, and if you ever need to talk there are plenty of people here who are willing and happy to listen.

Thank you all for your replies...i do appriecate them and it truly helps to know i am not alone...i know its a long road..it does help to know i have friends here ..people like you all offering words of encouragement.....thank you so much....

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Sherry, it takes time and patience. It will start feeling better with therapy and the right meds. Least that's my experience.

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And mine, too, Sherry. My slide into depression started in 1999; in 2003 my life completely fell apart, I lost everything I valued. From there it was a fast descent into hell. Despite therapy, it was really finding the right med and schedule to take the drug that kick-started me back up. I also find that prayer helps, and coming to the forums.

People had to tell me over and over and over again that my distorted thinking is the result of my disease. Eventually, I got it -- but I still don't always recognize distorted thinking when it arrives. The Forums are an excellent place to come for my "reality checks."

I hope you find hope and comfort here.