I wish I was in the hospital

I am so stressed and depressed. I wish I could just check out for awhile.
I need to get away I think. I do not know how I deal with so much crap on a daily basis without going completely insane. I wish I was in the hospital. Is that crazy? I wish I was away from everything and everyone without the pressures and stress of work and bills. I cry all the time and it is exhausting to have to pretend that everything is okay in front of everyone, because things are not okay at all.

i don't think it's crazy at all. i feel that way often. For me, i like the idea of a hospital because i'm so scared that if i ever really open up my emotional pain it would be WAY too big to survive. i hope you can find a healthy outlet for all your pain and that you can give yourself a break of some kind. Even little breaks can release pressure so the whole doesn't burst.

(((((((((((((((adamsgirl)))))))))))))

If it is crazy than so am I. When I become overwhelmed and stressed, I've often thought of hospitalization because it is a safe enviornment and will relieve me of the situations in which are causing me stress. I have had three needed hospitalizations, so I know what I am seriously thinking of.

However, if I can talk about wanting hospitalization or writing or talking to my therapist, it helps me to manage instead of wanting to run away.

CC

((((((((((adamsgirl)))))))))))

There's nothing crazy about wanting to check out for a while. I'd give anything to get away to a safe environment that could keep my life at bay for a while. Maybe you could find other ways to escape temporarily? I like listening to music, for example, or going for a walk, or writing a long letter to a friend (which I may or may not send). It's a bit of temporary relief, I've found.
Sorry things are so rough for you right now. I hope they start looking up soon.

I know how you feel. I just talked to my therapist about this last week. I was thinking about my last hospitalization and how it was nice to be away. She talked to me about instead of checking into a hospital, why not go to a hotel for a couple of days?
She said I really wasn't in danger of hurting myself, I just needed a break.
Could you possibly take a couple days off to do this?
I know how tough it is, beleive me. I just felt like this last week, but for some reason, I snapped out of it and feel much better now. Hang in there.

I'm so sorry that you feel so badly. Remember you are posting in PC's Depression Forum and all of us here have similar problems and/or are in somewhat similar situations. When I am depressed I also cry all the time as that is one of the symptoms of depression. Adamsgirl, I've lost of lot of so-called friends because I had to always pretend that everything was okay and under control when it was not. I felt I couldn't confide in them because they really wouldn't understand.

I hope and pray for a better tomorrow for you and that your situation will get better.

not in the least!!!
I tend to wish I was in the hospital more often than I care to admit.