[lostangel]

Well I had a bad weekend because Manny did it again to me and I am not sure how I am going to take it. He said I should get my depression work out and deal with it. But he has to understand it isn't my depression. It is everyone coming at me and even him. I am not depress like everyone thinks I am. I know I am not. I am so stress, lost, angry and unhappy and sad with what is going on and with how I am been treated and how those around me keep coming at me. Even Manny. We had a bad fight and he hit me and I am sure he didn't mean it. I am so sick of everyone saying that I am not to feel or get upset or angry but it is ok for them but not me. I am so sick of that. And I am so sick of not able to do what I want to even if it means to sleep. I am so sick of my son and his sept dad not getting alone and I am so sick of my son not getting alone with his sister and I am so sick of my son treating everyone like sh..t...and being so mean. I am so sick of so people who have money say they don't have enough. I can not get myself new running shoes try that. I guess what I am saying I am so sick of all this.

[Wants2Fly]

Hello LostAngel --

I have had the experience of not having enough money to buy a pair of shoes, and it stinks!

It is never alll right for anyone to hit you. Please don't make excuses for people who do this to you.

I am so sorry that your life is in such turmoil right now. It must be very difficult and painful for you.

I wish I could hug you into wholeness and happiness.

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First, I completely agree with wants2fly about the hitting. It's not okay now and it never will be. It sounds to me like some therapy is needed. Do you see a therapist? Does he? Are either of you on meds? Second I want to say that I totally understand being poor. There was a time that I had to mix ketchup and water to make tomato soup... can we say NASTY? You certainly have my sympathy for the situation you're in. I hope and pray that it gets better. Please don't hesitate to let us know if there is anything we can do to help you... anything at all. If you're comfortable with it, you can PM me anytime for anything. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Please take good care of you and yours.

ryan

[jmo531]

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I am really sorry for the agony that you are feeling from so many sources.
Like the others said, it is never ok for someone to lay their hands on you in any violent way. NEVER!!!!!!!
You deserve better. Please do not put up with that.

I know how it feels to be broke. After I divorced my first husband, I took our two small children and try to raise them on $5.50 and hour. All alone with no help. As you can imaging, that didn't get very far. Many a night we ate PB & J's because that is all we had. My children received all their clothes through hand-me-downs because I had no money to buy them any. Through my will and determination and lots of luck, I received education in the medical field which started me on my way to a great career. Maybe you could look into some classes or something like that. I do not know if that is an option for you.
Please keep posting and let us know how things are going. We are always here for you.

[lostangel]

Thank you so much for what you said. and i know i should not make excuses but it isn't all his fault.

[lostangel]

Thank you again guys and i am sorry to do this. you are helping by listening to me and being there as friends. this place helps me. and no we are not see therapist. i know it is hard to be poor or with not much and then you see others with everything. and i have skills in office and teacher aide. just trying to find work. first i have to get phone and daycare. but thanks.