[Monty_girl]

I have to go to T tomorrow and I'm pretty nervous. With the way my insurance is I get 30 visits a year. which ends up being one month I go 2 times and the next month I go for 3 visits and they keep switching like that all year. So the way it's set up I end up going 3 weeks in a row sometimes. I'm getting ready to start one of these times. My last visit was a very hard one. Since we are now sharing memories in T it's taking a lot out of me. It's been 2 weeks since my last T and it took me well over a week to feel somewhat better. Wasn't until a couple of days ago that I felt like I could somewhat function. But since last night I am coming more nervous as my T session gets closer. Just that sick feeling in your stomach. It took me well over a week to recover from the last session and knowing that I don't have that recovery time after tomorrow has me really nervous. I'm not on any kind of medication so I can't take anything for my anxiety after. I just have to bite my nails and hope for the best. Anyone got any good calming methods? ( no hot baths, is a trigger ) I have a list I made up with T, but sometimes I work my way through the list. So if any ideas drop me a line. I'll give anything a try ( almost anything )
Thanks Monty

[Jinsi]

understanding very well and wanted to share with you a couple ways our system copes with hard t sessions when we cant immediately go home to sleep....
-having a "timed" (10 minutes) kind of de=briefing on paper to collect ourselves to go to next task
-a special tape we recorded to listen to walkman
-this may sound stupid.... but we have a kind of box (tupperware?) that we physically "put" the big feelings into until it's a safer/better time to address it
-some self care/self soothing with a special treat (for us it's usually ice cream for the lil ones or a special very expensive tea drink for the bigs)

I hope this helps a little and I'm sorry if I missed what you were asking.
Take gentle care of yourself
Jinsi

[Monty_girl]

Ice Cream is always good. It's one of the greatest things on this earth. I found a Ben& Jerry's flavor that's kind of fitting for after T. It's called "Mood Therapy" it's just lots and lots of chocolate. Have to buy a pint for tomorrow night to chill out with.

[RhysMadison]

Try to tell yourself that your T is there to help you not hurt you, though it may feel like hurt. If there's a way to maybe go on a set schedule like every other week at a certain time, that might help your anxiety too. I have mine set the same time every other week. That seems to help me so I can prepare myself.
Rewarding yourself after is good too! I'll take the chocolate myself!! My husband takes me & I have him buy me a candy bar so I can have my chocolate. Do you take yourself? If you had someone else, they could maybe help you breathe a bit afterwards. After my chocolate, I usually just sit there w/ my husband & cry. Knowing he's there helps me. If you don't have someone to go w/ you, maybe when you get home come & post here.
Love,
RhysMadison

[Mahali]

Monty,

I had a long answer so I pm's you. Hope this is ok.

Take care.

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[Monty_girl]

RhysMadison my husbands takes me as well. I never feel like drving myself after a session. To spaced out and sleepy to do it. My husband always takes me to starbucks afterwards for a cafe mocha. Seems like I'm numb for the rest of the night after T. Things don't normally hit me to the next day, but I sometimes come out of T shaking, but not knowing why. I don't get home from T till about 8pm or so. My appointments are at 5:30- 7:00pm, so must times I just crawl in bed after. I'll let you all know how in goes in the morning. Thanks, Monty

[Monty_girl]

T wasn't to bad last night and I don't have to go next week like was planned. Bad part is though my T will be in Oregon visiting his daughter for over a week. So another T will be looking after me for a couple of weeks till my T gets back. The other T is nice I've met her a few times and she has watched some of my sessions with me and my T. So she know about what's going on with me. My T is still learning how to deal with DID/MPD and this other T has been helping my T with his DID cases. Kind of feel scared about him leaving, but I think I feel comfortable talking to the other T if something comes up.

Hi Monty,

I've been following this post, it hit so close to home for me-- couldn't find the words of encouragment for you.

I think you are so brave to continue to go-- even though you are uncomfortable with it. I also had a T. session yesterday and related to your anxiety. My T. tells me if I'm doing something that feels uncomfortable then it's more than likely the right thing for me to be doing-- getting out of my comfort zone, it's so familiar but has kept me stuck for so long!

I'm glad your session wasn't too bad yesterday. Thanks for sharing with us.... I for one can really relate. I'm thankful for this forum and people like you, in that some who struggle with posting can often get there concerns met just because there are others here posting that share similar feelings.

Wishing you much progress with your T.

Mandy

[RhysMadison]

I'm glad it went better than expected. It's always stressful when the T goes away. But it seems like this other one knows more than he does. You like her so that's a definite plus. Thank you for keeping us updated. Therapy sessions can definitely be triggering for us.
Love,
RhysMadison

[Mahali]

Monty,

So glad things went well. Take special care and get some rest now if you can.

Take care.

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