Got Parts?

Does anyone here have parts that live in the outside world?
Are you a part (is someone else in the system 'in charge')?
Do you not know and your life is a confused mess?

Feel free to share your experience of how things are now. Thank you.
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Yes we have parts.

The persons that write here are parts that not all inside the body agree with. We don't really know if there's any certain part in charge. It keeps changing.

Yes, my life is a confusing mess. We all feel very very misunderstood and worried that no one else is as a mess as we are. We're panicking to the point of despair inside because there never is anywhere to turn for safety. There's negativity inside (outside also?) against whatever i write.

kerria

kerria I will answer when the brain is working better. ok?

Supposedely I am a part, but I am in control most of the time. My name is Fi I know where I come from and how I got here, so I may be unusual. I have been labeled a part of this body, for lack of a better term. I was not here at the birth , but came here at age 2 when the body was about 12. I have a boyfriend who knows about the others and does spend time with them on occasion. Most eve <font color="green"> </font> ryone is accepting of him in my life and it's only taken 4 years. Very trying years for us all.
If there is anything else I can add, let me know.

Forever
Fi

In a perfect world on a perfect day , we like to believe that three of us adults kind of 'take turns' running the outside world....we rely HEAVILY on journalling and post-it notes for communicating. I hope this ok to tell

Kerria,

I am new to this so I definitely feel someone else is in charge. I just hope that I will be able to make new friends here and I believe that makes you guys in charge.

I have parts (pieces) that have certain jobs that they perform.
I'm a piece. I'm not the original one. But I was put in charge some years ago.
My life is an organized mess. I'm a crazed perfectionist.

I like your subject line!!
My people & I are similar. I was never like Sybil where we all had different jobs, houses, boyfriends. I'm just a part. I'm not the original one. The one host before me we 'killed off', I know that sounds harsh but she was gonna bring us all down. There is one who is the Born personality. Though we don't see her. We just know she's there. I don't even know what age she is.
DID's are notorious for being a big confusing mess. That is like a given!! We are not alone though we feel like it. I'm fortunate to have safety & security. W/ my husband & my parents (my parents didn't hurt me).
When I was younger, I couldn't tell my mom what was going on orally. I had to write it down & show her in notes. They couldn't see what I was writing.
You're not alone.
Love,
RhysMadison

We is parts an get along good except Marie hurted us today
Amy

Hi Place, Fi, Jinsi, Barbiedoll, Monty girl, Rhysmadison and Nothemama8- thank you so much for sharing how it is with you and parts. Nothemama8- i'm really sorry that parts are upset and hope it calms down soon and that everything's ok.
we don't feel so much like an alien and so alone .

thank you. i know that it's not easy to share.
peace to us all and to all inside,
kerria

Wow-
yes we are parts of a whole- the ***** is the few that when acting alone do not have access to the awareness that they are NOT the whole and are unaware of the dx and also the new information that there has been a charechature part or stereotype of my father (rather idealized) whos only function was protective. It has been very wierd to reconcile the fact that he was mortal and has died (Feb. 6) and so this part has no one to be because death was not supposed to be possible. Its not an option for the part to die also and its a struggle to not let the child parts that lost him again figure out how to follow my earthly father to heaven. I on high alert for "accidental" death and injury right now.
Its WAY confusing to be this way and to explain is so difficult.

(((((((kathyanita))))))))safe hugs
i'm sorry that it's so confusing to live.
we have parts that don't know that there are any others also. i tell T that only some of us have DID. The kid parts that don't know there is anyone else are so hard to be because they don't think anyone can take care of them if their f. (husband to me) is being mean or gone .They think that they are all alone in the world and we can't talk to them and tell them anything. They cry endlessly sometimes. We have an idealized mother part .It's so confusing being her.
We're not there when the work part is out and all the time at work is lost which is so nerve wracking but also such a needed break for us. Still we have such a struggle getting to work on time, parts dread it but going through that door feels so good. we have to get there to know. i understand the terrible feeling of 'no one to be' when there's not a place for parts.

(((((kathyanita))))) i'm sorry that it's so hard for you too.

oh my how you touch us where we live.
Negative aginst what I write as you said it is for sure. I hate to write because of it. Have so many that think so different.
Ya well as far as I'm concerned I'm the only one here and nobody else needs to be here.
No body is here.
Oops sorry!!!! got lots of struggles going on here. Just want you to know you are not alone. mlyn and all

Just an FYI - "Got Parts" is also the name of a book by a woman with DID called ATW. The subtitle is "An insider's guide to managing life successfull with dissociative identity disorder"

http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg...glance&s=books

em

Kerria,

Sorry it took so long to reply.

We are separate but none are "parts" or maybe we are all parts of the whole with none being more or less valuable. We do not consider anybody here as being more or less than the rest...if that makes sense.

To my knowledge all know that the others exist. We write all the time and through the years have come up with rules and agreements on things. We communicate... for DID, very well. With a few exceptions.

Some of the others do have certain things they take care of. I am the one who is in front most and interacts with the world.

I have no idea who is the original. It's not something we discuss.

Take care.

place

I don't think we are parts.
I think we are selves.
Each part is as real as any self could be.
Communication varies
Some can communicate with some others
Some can only listen
Sometimes the power changes
Switches between two.
I feel like they have most of the control
But other people say I have more than I think I do
I don't know.
I hear them as voices in my head.
But sometimes when they are talking to each other I can't hear what they are saying.

The two main ones act in the outside world.
I'm not sure about the rest.
I am afraid of them and the stuff they do.
One of them used to try to kill me.
I don't know but maybe she doesn't think it is possible anymore because she hasn't hurt the body in a while.

Late on this thread because parts have been in conflict about how to sign posts. This part mostly in executive conrol now, but it`s a new part, only came in 2004. At least 4 other adult parts, 2 teenagers, &amp; 2 littles.
This new part has access to communication with other parts we thought were dead. She also has access to the whole academic memory although not to the identities that learned it as personal memories.
DT

omg, kathyanita, we understand you. one of our parts is the mother & she (her body) died at Easter 2003. we think we need to kill the part not the body (ours). she is very destructive. at least it sounds like your father was protective, so was mine but he died a long time ago.

dawn-
no he couldnt protect after we were kidnapped away an changed identitie and taught us hoe to speak different it was more than 30 years to find him again he couldnty find us now hes dead on feb. 6