[Monty_girl]

I think this is an intergration issue not to sure. Not to sure about anything today. I need to talk to someone about a lose of an alter. Could someone pm me. I'm not in a good place and have talked with me T, 3 times already today.

[fgh]

i don't do that sort of thing k? therapy for others k? we've lost plenty no problem but they've usually been temporaries anyway. i think i know how bad it might feel we've talked about integration in our circles and with the T ah noone's interested so it can't be so hot. but if ya integrated then she isn't lost huh? if we could all just be one i guess it would be okay it it didn't take like forever. no sense in that if you ask me just do it already. you could just go and post what you want here now that you and the alter are together are you? nona

[fairygirl]

I hope you are all ok. I do not know much about the DID stuff because I am me, although they say I am just a part. It sounds scary and I wish I could help more. I am sending love and hugs and prayers to you all.
Wishing you the best,
Fi <font color="green"> </font>

[RhysMadison]

I am "just" a part in a sense. The original host "died" (integrated tho it feels like a death). So "I" became the host. Doing what I can to rid MY mind of HER. Not many people can understand that.
Love,
RM

[Zorah]

I am a new part who only came into being sometime last year. We have lost parts, we thought some were dead, but I can talk to several of the others. We could never talk to each other before &amp; I can`t talk to the youngers. We don`t know what this MEANS, if anything. Maybe olders` trying to merge. They never wanted to before, so who knows.
Don`t think you all should try to integrate unwilling parts, it has to be a consensus decision I think.

[Monty_girl]

Ty everyone who wrote me and posted. Thanks for the love and care you have shown. I came close to going to the hospital because of so much panic and confusion. But I have a really great T who has really helped me get through this without having to be in a hospital.
It has felt like a death to me. Just a loss. The most confusing part was that I didn't even know her. If that makes any sense. But I still feel as a part of me has died. But I have such a supportive T that has really been there for me and comforted me. I've been going through such a hard time of late that we are thinking about medication now. I haven't been on any meds for over 5 years now. But I really think at this point I could use the help of medication to help with the anxiety and depression. T wants me to go for blood work to just check on my health right now. Been so sick of late he jus wants to make sure it's just depression right now. I'm due for blood work anyways the first of June, so I'm just going to ask them for a complete work up. So we will see what happens then.

[Mahali]

((((((( Monty ))))))))

So glad you have such a supportive T. I am sorry for the loss you are feeling.

It sounds like you are really taking some control of these issues though and rationally moving forward with a carefull thought out plan.

I have every faith that you will get past this with the help of your T and your own strength.

If I can ever be of help please let me know.

[RhysMadison]

Some of my parts that merged, I didn't even know had existed in the first place. I understood all that you wrote in here.
Love,
RM

[fgh]

yep nothing said here is confusing to me seen it all good Ts are good to have i'm like here alone but then i know there are others jj espescially but like any of the others give a hoot nope i don't care where anyone goes just wishing i could go too even the t told me he don't know why i'm still around nona