Trouble again

Hi. things have been upsetting - now tonight there was a call on my cellphone, someone that i never heard of before called and asked for my alter. i don't have any idea who it is. i'm afraid that i might be in trouble because i don't give my cell number to anyone except family and drs, etc. Things like this used to happen about four years ago soon after i was dx with DID but not recently. It's so nerve wracking to not know what's going on.
To make things worse- therapy with my T is a disaster. The last sessions have left me a mess- almost in crisis. T has been so negativeeeeeeee, not being supportive or positive at all, just negative, always so unhappy that i can't communicate and journal. T even insinuated that i was doing things wrong- he said that was why i was so separated- that i was hiding things from myself . i shudder to think that T may be right.
. Please help- i'm worried that i could be in trouble. It's terrible not knowing for sure.
i was going to stop seeing T because he was upsetting me so much and try to find a different T. Now i don't think that it would be a good idea. i don't know- we need some kind of stability so much.

Thanks for listening- anyone have things like this happen? How do you get control? T always says "ask inside " but i don't hear anything.
i wish everything wasn't such a mess.
Take care,
kerria

((((((((((((((((((( Kerria ))))))))))))))))))

That sounds so confusing and upsetting . Is there any way you can trace the number of the person who rang so you could work it out that way? Is there any way you could communicate with the alter involved, maybe by writing to him/her and asking who might have rung?

((((((((((((((((((( Kerria ))))))))))))))))))

That sounds so confusing and upsetting . Is there any way you can trace the number of the person who rang so you could work it out that way? Is there any way you could communicate with the alter involved, maybe by writing to him/her and asking who might have rung? I hope you find some answers and some peace soon.

i'm no expert or anything but a negative T isn't a very effective one. Stability, positive attitudes and confidence are very important things for you to get from your T. Otherwise trust becomes very difficult and you can't work with someone you can't trust.

Asking inside is always a good idea to keep in mind but when it's silent in there perhaps writing down a note or a question and seeing if anyone answers might help. Or maybe try to make a list of things stressing you out so that you can get an idea of the pressure you're under and perhaps some information will slip out in the writing of it. sometimes that happens.

You might want to try telling your T that you don't feel that they are being supportive enough and that their negativity is beginning to set you back and is making you unable to communicate with yourself and your-selves. From what I've seen and heard, writing (be it journaling or creative or whatever) is important. Sometimes things can be written that can't be said. If you are blocked from that outlet then I can't think that it would be anything except detrimental. Perhaps telling your T that they are hurting rather than helping will make them stop. Otherwise find a new T and fast so you don't lose any progress you've made.

like I said, I'm no expert, but I do hope you're feeling better about things soon. Oh, and keep asking inside and reinforce that you're not angry or anything...you're mainly worried and upset. Your alter might be afraid to tell you what's going on because they are afraid you'll be angry with them. I don't know about that since I don't know how your relationship with your alter(s) works but perhaps that will help. And keep coming here for the positive stuff you're not getting from your T. It isn't a substitute but it will help until your T either gets more positive or you get another T.

sorry to talk so much *sheepish smile* take care.