bad days

bad, bad three days. hope it gets better.

thanks,

kd

(((((((((((((((((( Kimmy )))))))))))))))))))

I hope things are better for you too

I know how that goes, kd. I hope things get better for you soon.

Petunia

((((((((((((((((((((((Kim))))))))))))))))))
It will get better though know it doesn't feel it at the moment. Hang in there, don't give up. Take time to nurture selves. You can do this. I believe in you. And know you are loved.

I'm here. Lean on me while you catch your breath.

{{{{{kd}}}}}}

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soothing bearhugs,
Fuzzy

Sorry you've had such a rough three days. Hang in there. (I just wish I could offer you the same kind of encouragement you've shown me.

thank you so much my sweet ((((((((((((((((friends)))))))))))))))) hugs feel so good and safe for me right now. it's nice to know that i only have to say a few words and the support rallies. you're so appreciated.

yesterday i had a very, very hard t. i'm having residual feelings. i knew t was going to be hard because the ugly feelings began monday, continued into tues., and am feeling effects still today (although relieved).

this too shall pass. it just bites that we have to walk thru the coals that we didn't manufacture, but are what lie in our paths because of ill, mean ppl. i've tried every other possible direction to get to my specific desitination, and know those coals have to be walked on. well, i'm right in the middle, i'd say. i'm feeling the heat.

thank you again for the support. y'all are great

kd

OMG Kimmy

it just bites that we have to walk thru the coals that we didn't manufacture

This is my resistance. I resent those damn coals soooooo much they get in the way of my healing. I get half way over them and scream "Why should I have to? They're not mine!"

Argh! Good for you for walking through them. You'll make it. Hot feet and all.

Petunia

(Didn't mean to hijack)

(((((((((((((((petunia)))))))))))))))))

that's not a hijack. that's relation and i appreciate it!

the thing is, they've been made our hot coals, and we sure as heck didn't ask for it. i used to get so stuck too, petunia, with the "why" questions. i'd make progress, get upset ask a why question that couldn't be answered and go back around. i've done that for years in t.

t and i are just know walking around that. i've realized those why's will never be answered in this life. there was no working thru that. i simply had to accept it. i'm still trying to do that. it's more than hard. for instance, a blocked memory came to me a bit ago (8 yrs old. i thought i would've been nuts had there not been a police report out there). well, it brought about the "why" thing again. i quickly was able to say that i'll never know. i'm working on that acceptance now and the safety issues that i have subsequently...along with everything else it's more than hard.

i had to realize that NO, I DIDN'T ASK NOR DESERVE THAT, and that i'll never know why all of it had to happen to ME. mindfulness has helped there to acknowledge these issues as just "existing or being", so that i can attempt to address them and what they've done to us.

thank you again, sweetie.

kd

Kimmy, its awful when things get bad and I too have had feelings that have moved through the days.

And the "why" questions are the hardest ones to deal with cos the answers are never there but the question doesnt go away.

Im sending you some special "all the girls" cuddles, they are really soft, really warm, very healing and especially for you kimmy.

Be safe and kind to yourself.

All the girls

and heres a kiss from me if you want it

X Iris

(((((((((((((iris)))))))))))))))))) thank you!

thank you for the cuddles and relating to the "why" questions can really be so hard.

be safe,

((((((((((((((kd))))))))))))))))

I'm in the trenches too, did I hear mention of hot coals? Hope things ease up on you soon.

Sarah

((kd))
I hear ya sister.
What can we do to motivate each other to keep pushing forward towards the goal of life?

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i had to realize that NO, I DIDN'T ASK NOR DESERVE THAT, and that i'll never know why all of it had to happen to ME. mindfulness has helped there to acknowledge these issues as just "existing or being", so that i can attempt to address them and what they've done to us.

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What you've written there speaks volumes about understanding that you did not ask for this nor deserve it and that there may never be the answer we are seeking for the "why?"

Acceptance isn't easy. Your T sounds wonderfully supportive when you tell us about things from sessions. Staying safe while coming to acceptance on some subject is crucial. Glad to hear you're doing what you need to for your safety.

wishing you peaceful times during these difficult ones.

zh,

as always, thank you very much for your support and added insights.

i hope you're well!

be safe,

kd