My thoughts are arguing with each other :(

My thoughts are swirling around and around and around and they are all arguing with each other. Last night when I went to bed after being awake for a very long time my dreams brought me images of bloodied faces and people who were hurt, but acted like they didnt even know they were hurt. Every so often I hear the young one scream and it almost completely takes over my mind for a few seconds

That, and I dunno about this part - I have been experiencing sort of a ticking sound in the back of my head... apparently it can be a side effect of the effexor XR.

Weird, Man, Weird.
Those dreams really scared us. We dont like to see anyone get hurt and now we feel like somethins rights wrong with us and we are bad.

no you are not bad. its just that there is probably something you are seeing or hearing or touching or smelling in your room or right before you go to bed that has triggered the memorys to rerun. Try changing your sheets to something softer that doesnt remind you of when you were a child, and sleeping with a night light on it the bathroom helps too. Instead of total quiet in your present day bedroom try going to sleep with some type of relaxing music on a programable portable boombox that way when the music stops it doesnt snap or click off waking you back up. You might also try to figure out what the words are. sometimes if Im hungry or forget to do something the voice memories get triggered into rerunning. Cutting down my stress level before bed by coloring, drawing and journal writing also helps decrease the chances of my voice memories getting triggered by something when I think about everything I did throughout the day. The ticking might be the memory of a clock you had as a child try using a digital clock instead of one that ticks. Ive never heard of medication causing a ticking sound but I have been told by doctors when I was on prozac that ticking or electric shock like feeling in the head will happen if the medication isnt taken the same time every day and making sure to drink plenty of water because dehydration causes the same type of audio hallucinations.

thanks myself.

Ticking is gone today!

Hoo Ray!

Things have settled down a bit, less arguments going on, and just a little bit of repetative thoughts and a little bit of rocking.. we rock back and forth sometimes when we are stressed.. people think its weird but sometimes its calming to just repeat one specific thing.. its like it lets us focus on that and nothing else..

When I have panic attacks I always move my hand in one repetative motion and count with it.

Got Online T two days ago to try and build courage to get back in to see face to face t.

things arent so bad today minus having strep throat and wanting popsicles.