I emailed my T...

... sent him Shula's "Mad" post. He knows that I have DID elements but we haven't really talked about it yet (only had two sessions). Seems like only Shula is allowed to express anger and this is something he keeps pressing me on. Now I am hoping I have done the right thing... when I told my counsellor (before this) aobut the others, she decided I needed more help than she could give, which made it feel all wrong...

Reassurance welcomed.

hi caroline,
i think any and every thing you can give your t helps him to be able to help you better. because of that, i think it was very brave and very much the right thing to do in sending t that post. sometimes i bring t things i find that i don't remember doing. it's a scary thing but t is always able to help more because of it. it seems to make sense to her, even when it doesn't to me.
i think you are very brave to do what you did, especially not knowing your t very long at all. well done!

Caroline,

Good for you! It takes alot of bravery to do what you did, especially since you felt "rejected" the last time you spoke out? Perhaps, your first counselor did the right thing by helping you to seek out someone who was more qualified. Therapists have different specialties and perhaps your new therapist is better suited for what you need. Just a thought.

In any case, you did the right thing, in my opinion. If you felt that your T needed to know, then perhaps that what was best for you.

Safe hugs,
Anne

Caroline, I think the more you are able to share the better it will be in the long run. At the end of the day all you have done is supply a bit more about yourself. Im sure its nothing to worry or fret about. Its a good thing

Caroline, I think you did a very brave thing. I am sorry that you felt bad from what your last therapist told you. Possibly she was trying to explain her own shortcomings in being able to give you the support you need. Again I am sorry it did not come across that way. It makes what you did all the more courageous. Please don't worry about what you have done. I think it was a good thing to do. Take care and try not to worry.

Thank you all.

I'm sure my counsellor didn't mean to reject me when I told her. In fact she was very honest in saying that she knew nothing about DD and that was why she felt she needed to refer me on. The problem was that I wasn't in a good place, and the referral process was such hell that it all feels wrong and has left me feeling scared of opening up about this part of me - especially since I don't understand it very well. But I will be glad when I have seen him on Thursday and we have talked about it - even though the talking will be a hard thing.

thank you all. Your support means a lot.