[Claritytoo]

I had an emdr session today. It left me feeling foggy and slow minded. I also feel a lot of fear and a little disoriented. I have been trying grounding techniques but the fog settles over me with in a few minutes. Near the end of the session I didn't feel anything. Not sadness, fear, anger nothing. I think one of my protectors came. I remember talking to my t about not feeling anything but there were tears in my eyes. My t wanted my protector to feel. I explained he don't feel that is what he does. My t still thought he should feel. I became confused and because I couldn't feel my t wasn't able to complete the process the way it is usually done. I am not sure I could do emdr again. I can't figure out what happened

[Kiya]

Hmmm i had much the same result with emdr. protector came in and t couldn't finish it the way it is supposed to be done. she never tried emdr again. said it wouldn't work for me :/ I too was very foggy feeling.
How are you feeling now - 2 days later?

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by Kiya

Hmmm i had much the same result with emdr. protector came in and t couldn't finish it the way it is supposed to be done. she never tried emdr again. said it wouldn't work for me :/ I too was very foggy feeling.
How are you feeling now - 2 days later?

I am fine now. It took about two days but I am back to "normal". I haven't asked my t if we will do emdr again. I didn't want to at first but now I would like to try again. I think it might have done some good. Thanks,

[Kiya]

I had also wanted to do emdr again... but my t wouldn't do it after my swap. :/ alas! I hope future sessions go well for you

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((Claritytoo))))

I am glad you are back to feeling okay. EMDR I have heard can be good thing for those that can do it. I have tried it before and it did not work for us. It was back when I was first starting and had found out that I was DID so that could be part of why it did not work then as I did not have any co-consciousness but now that we do it might do better. Not sure but have been afraid to try it again. But I do understand how you feel.

Wanted to let you know that you are not alone and wish you luck if you try it again. Keep posting and let us know how you are doing. We are listening and do care. Hugs if okay.

dps

[Claritytoo]

Thank you both for your kind words. I did feel better knowing that some of what I went through after is common. It also helps to know that I can post here and someone will understand.

[Kiya]

Turns out my brand new therapist is going to do emdr with all my alters. I wonder how this will go. interested to see the outcome. Keep telling us of your outcomes??

[likewater]

Oh, wow. Maybe that's why emdr doesnt work so well with me. My last T tried it then said we would do something else, my new T did couple times but i dont think it helped and she thought i was schizophrenic and pdoc says no i have DID and that i have to tell her because she needs to change her therapy for me.

[likewater]

Oh and (((Claritytoo))) you are really brave. Good for you. If you try it again, let us know what happens, ok?

[such is life...]

Originally Posted by Claritytoo

I had an emdr session today. It left me feeling foggy and slow minded. I also feel a lot of fear and a little disoriented. I have been trying grounding techniques but the fog settles over me with in a few minutes. Near the end of the session I didn't feel anything. Not sadness, fear, anger nothing. I think one of my protectors came. I remember talking to my t about not feeling anything but there were tears in my eyes. My t wanted my protector to feel. I explained he don't feel that is what he does. My t still thought he should feel. I became confused and because I couldn't feel my t wasn't able to complete the process the way it is usually done. I am not sure I could do emdr again. I can't figure out what happened

My Protectors blocked all EMDR...that's their job to keep us safe...listen to yours..what are they( your Protectors trying to tell you, are some inside being triggered?)

[Kiya]

Originally Posted by such is life...

My Protectors blocked all EMDR...that's their job to keep us safe...listen to yours..what are they( your Protectors trying to tell you, are some inside being triggered?)

Yes.. it is their job, up to a point. but at some point the DID system breaks down (that's what's causing the upset in your life). How long do we allow the protector to "protect" us from a life that isn't working? Yes it is scary to face... and protector helps us avoid more pain. but do we want to live the next 30 years in this much pain? I sure don't.

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by such is life...

My Protectors blocked all EMDR...that's their job to keep us safe...listen to yours..what are they( your Protectors trying to tell you, are some inside being triggered?)

My protector wasn't trying to protect me from emdr he was trying to protect me from feeling emotional pain. I does seem that my emdr session did relieve me of the emotional pain that I had when I thought about a specific event. I now remember the event and I know that at that time I was afraid and ashamed that I did not help my sister. But I don't have the intense bad painful feelings that would accompany the memory. I understand I was too young to help my sister and right to feel afriad about the event. I think emdr helped to release me of the intense feelings but able to recall the event as an adult that is safe from the event.

[Kiya]

sounds like it did its work. glad you are feeling better some around that. that is good to have the intense feeling gone. well done on knowing you couln't hve helped because you were too young. hugs!

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by Kiya

sounds like it did its work. glad you are feeling better some around that. that is good to have the intense feeling gone. well done on knowing you couln't hve helped because you were too young. hugs!

Thanks.....