getting harder

no more talking
no more words
no more here
fly like the birds.

inside out
outside in
what's the difference
still can't win.

black and red
slime and rot
stuck in the middle
can't get out.

it don't matter
no one sees or hears
silent screams
invisible tears

naomi

Naomi

However sad and painful your poem is, you obviously have a lot of heart. I hear you and I know others here do as well. I know the place that you talk of and none of us can get you out, but we can keep you company while you're there.

I'll sit with you

SongBird

Yup.

I will be there hanging out as well

*sits in slime and plays with it*

{{{{{naomi}}}}} {{{{{w_i}}}}} {{{{{the constellation}}}}}



PM if we can help

((((w_i and all)))))
alice

(((((((((((((((((( naomi ))))))))))))))))))))

((((((((((((((((white_iris)))))))))))))))))))

(((((((((((((The Constellation))))))))))))))

i found my knife in h's drawer. i want to c*t so bad...
i promised T i won't. it's so hard. i don't want to go to the hospital again. i just want to stop hurting.
naomi

safe gentle hugs.... PM me if it will help

Thinking of you hon,

Fuzzy

i promised T i won't. it's so hard

(((( naomi ))))

I know it's hard. You're doing great. Call T, even if it's just to leave a message saying "it's so hard."

Sometimes the words spoken out loud help keep us grounded.

Keep posting here too.

Petunia

h came home sick. guess that's a good thing. but i know...
we see t tomorrow.
all upset inside and out.
nap didn't help.
scratching my legs with my fingernails.
n.

i do that scratching thing too ugh

grrrrrr

good luck with t tomorrow!

maybe i am as awful as they said. i don't deserve to be loved. i'm very black and dark inside. they couldn't punish me enough to make me good enough. i try washing myself and my clothes and my hands but it doesn't make me feel any cleaner. c*tting made me feel better. i could see the slimmy dirty inside come out with the blood. dr carol made me stop and now i'm dirty inside again. it has to come out. no one seems to be able to tell me how to stop being so dirty inside.
i was never "too pretty" i am really very very ugly and dirty.
don't like me because i'm really poison and you might get in trouble like everyone else who tried to like me or be my friend or tried to help.
it's pretty useless.
i think i give up
i don't think i'm worth the fight
n.

I think your worth the fight!

And I like you!

White Iris

I SO think you are worth the fight. And you are doing a good job. We all care here and you can PM me if that will help.
Safe Gentle Hugs,
Songbird

I've known you for a while now and I like you a lot!

Please don't give up.... you are worthwhile and worth the fight!

You are so much worth the fight. I hope soon you can see that too. Please try and be safe.

No, Naomi, you are not awful. You do deserve to be loved. Look how many of us here care about you. Everyone deserves love, and you are no different. Keep talking to dr carol and keep trying to hear what other people are telling you. You are worth fighting for. Don't give up - we're not about to give up on you.