getting harder each day

warning bits might trigger

coming here and reading posts is getting harder each day , just because what i have going on around me, i meant to be the strong one tonight i feel really like the weak one, after major tantrums from youngest daughter at weekend got her back into see the doctor who is lovely and will see daughter on her own to give her chance to talk, i explained to daughter if she don't tell what is going on they cant help, so after telling me she wanted to run away and die i knew she needed some real support, so today she saw doc, doc has made an appointment for her between new year and xmas to see her again also trying to arrange counseling for her,

i still have issues with oldest daughter last night she phoned me up at about 9ish to ask me to go to a play shes doing, i feel mean i haven't been to one while shes been at the day center for adults with learning difficulties they do at least 3 to 4 a year and she pulls you around from person to person showing of for attention and this is hard to explain i cant do it, so last night i explained i had already made plans for today and it was to late notice to ring me to go next day , i also explained that her dad and two aunts on her dads side would be there and lots of other ppl she knew, so know shes crying down the phone telling me i have never seen her do things like this , i said yes i have I'm the one who was always there through school and collage her father has only started recently showing an interest, again shes sobbing down the phone, said I'm sorry im busy i cant change my plans

now my second daughter is going to meet her to go xmas shoping tomorrow picking her up from center she asked what do i do when she keeps puling me around and hugging her, i said i don't know just don't make a scene and try to stay calm and get out of there as quick as possible,

youngest wants me to go into town also trying to explain that i don't want to go in there coz oldest will be there and its not fare on second eldest to put up with the nonsense from her seeing me in there
i hope i haven't confused anybody sorry
its just seems so complicated to keep everyone happy all at once

Do you have any towns near enough in the other direction? You could go to "alternate" towns, LOL. Sounds like a rich person, having alternate towns.

Sounds very hard with scheduling so many different needs but I'm glad you're sticking up for your own needs in there too. Disappointment is a fact of life for everyone; no need to feel "badly" that someone else is disappointed, that happens. There will be other days/opportunities. We do the best we can!

To say you are being torn in several pieces at once is rather an understatement. I'm so sorry this is such a rough time for you.

Frog of little brain's heart goes out to you.

I read through your post twice and came to the same conclusion both times.........take some time for yourself. Not daughters, not husband, not family just you and don't feel guilty doing it. You need to pamper yourself a little. Not next week, not tomorrow, now.....the sooner the better.

But then frogs of little brain are not known for their sage advice.

Maybe not, but frogs of little brain are known for their watercress advice, much "spicier" and betterer, in my opinion!

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You can't be expected to keep everyone happy at once ... no one can. All you can do is your best, and sometimes our "best" is better than other times .. but a person can only do so much. You have every right to feel the way you do.
The holidays are an added stressor for everyone... see if you can't take some time for yourself, even if it's just 5 minutes or a half hour ... you need some time to re-group and try and gather yourself before you can really worry about anyone else.
Hugs
Jacq

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Kathy... my thoughts are with you...

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