[kyangel04]

I'm really hurting. Last night, was more nightmares. I cant keep doing this. I'm super spacey, I've been trying to ignore my feelings. It's not working. Just making things worse.

I feel so alone and unlovable. I feel like I'm bad and disgusting. I'm kind of hating myself right now.

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

oh kyangel, please don't down yourself so much! Do you have a t you can talk to about this? When your emotions are so strong and negative, only naturally for those with DDs is it to space out and try to be anywhere but here with our feelings, even if it's being unconsciously done.

Can you try some grounding techniques, or perhaps talk to a t or close friend? Take care of yourself!

[crystal lady]

"I feel so alone and unlovable. I feel like I'm bad and disgusting. I'm kind of hating myself right now."

I've been going through much the same thing today. Feeling self hatred. Time to stop and go inside and really look at what's going on. Sent a note to my T and he suggested I should be exploring what has triggered this negative response.

When I do I will journal to help get it all out.

Just wanted you to know you are not alone in your struggle today. Love from Crystal and all

[kyangel04]

Thanks Purple and Crystal lady, I've been trying my self helps. I do see my T tomorrow. It helps me to come here and talk with you all. It really does.

But, when I feel like this. I feel like I should be punished. Stuff like that. I'll just keep talking and checking in.

glad youre here

[LouR]

I've been doing that all day and I took some advice from a wise person on this forum.
First is try to Relax
Second is that guilt is not a helpful emotion because it triggers and is a neverending cycle this is from my T
Third is tell a good close friend and halve the burden what it is this also from another wise person on this forum
Today I told my best friend who has known me since I was 12 and I thought she would reject or hate me or think that I was cuckoo and you know what she didn't do that at all. She was surprisingly insightful and even recognised my changes and she said to me that they are there for a reason to protect you not harm you... and I realised that my core self is not assertive and thats when I become an emotional manipulator and that I need to find a way to stop myself from over stepping others boundaries. Because thats when I find I become overwhelmed and sink
Fourth "You is beautiful, You is Kind and You is GOOD" thats from my T and I have made it my mantra when I feel guilt or horrible. Its from the movie called "The Help" I haven't watched it yet but thats where T got it from.
Fifth keep talking to us, as we know how you feel and there are some wonderful people in this forum that I feel are Genuine heart felt beautiful people who will help you. Because they are beautiful, they are kind and they are good.

[designer]

You are not alone - we all know what that feel like - take one step at a time - u must make yourself get out an enjoy some sunshine (EVEN IF U DON"T FEEL LIKE IT) for some reason the suns rays really help (esp when you r glummy) do something each day that U enjoy (today I went to the pool - I so much needed that)

Sometimes u must make yourself fight - sometime when u feel better, get a blue book and inside make a list of things to do to pull u up (I actually found a book called "The Blue Book" and it has all kinds of things in it.

hang in there - u have spirit - I learned it is not what I see on the outside that counts - it is what is on the inside ( YOU R UNIQUE AND SPECIAL AND ONE OF A KIND WITH SPECIAL GIFTS THAT U NEED TO DISCOVER) don't be ashamed to be U