An opinon requested

Looking for an opinion on this, it was brought up to me that I may have multiple personality disorder, primarily after writing something that I have next to no recollection of writing and being written directed at me in the third person via my account. It's not the first time it's happened, I also found a letter I apparently wrote myself after a particularly traumatic event that, while barely legible, was definitely my handwriting despite having no memory of anything the letter described, in this case it was the 'death' of my predecessor which sorta made sense to me but I was obviously alive still and had memories of what happened even if they were distant.

Now I have had other 'personalities' running around in my head for awhile, but I always thought it was my OCD kicking in and reorganizing myself so that I can cram all of one emotion in one definitive shape so that the majority of me can carry on and live normally. I also think that maybe they are just areas where I end up being emotionally unstable and seeing them like I do is an aid in trying to live. Then again I end up writing letters to different parts of myself and have occassional dissassociative episodes. I also tend to think, as someone who enjoys writing fantasy, that the idea is fantastic enough that I'm certainly making it up, but that would also make me one of my characters in a world I did not create, at least I think I didn't. I also have had depression deep enough to induce psychosis so maybe I'm stuck in a psychotic episode and it'll all clear up for awhile afterward.

From what I can identify there are 5 of us. 4 are definitive, 1 is more like a mist that only rarely takes control and when it does it is very brief before failing in the struggle for control. I don't know if descriptions of the parts would help or not.

hi Dreamscaper - welcome!
the things you've described could be symptoms of a lot of things. ocd can bring intrusive thoughts, and you can definitely be dissociative without having more than one personality. there are many possible reasons you might write things down and not remember them. if these things are interfering in your life, and you'd like to get to the bottom of them, the best thing to do is to talk to your therapist or doctor about them.

my opinion...I would go according to what ever your own treatment providers say about what your diagnosis 's are and what treatments you are on, they are the only ones that can tell you whether you have a mental disorder or not and which ones.

people online anywhere and even just on our own can read anything into even the sipliest sentence. Example on another website I wrote in a post that I said something to someone and did not recall what I said or the context of why I said what was said.. well you can imagine all the replies I got suggesting I had full blown, unintegrated DID...the site was not a general mental health site,, it was one strictly for treatment providers from my town. I was asking for ideas on how to get through to a client who said I stated something I did not, in a way that would de stress the situation for the client..none of my co workers know my past diagnosis was DID.. I know why the situation happened..I had a medication problem with the pharmacy so to see me through the two days before they got the correct meds in, I was on a lower dosage of meds that I had at home, trying to stretch them to last long enough. it was a medication problem not a dissociative one but yet just about every one of my co workers that saw my post diagnosed the problem as being undiagnosed, untreated, unintegrated DID. people can read anything they want to into the most simplest to answer problems.

Ive even done it myself.. I would not remember doing or saying something, blame it on dissociation problems, go to my treatment providers and find out it was lack of sleep, or I skipped some meals, or my meds are off kilter, or it was my depression/bipolar/Multiple Sclerosis related.....

just because someone doesnt remember doing something...does not say the person has DID..any one mental disordered and not has times when they dont remember doing things,...

referring to yourself in the third person in writing, conversations..... well again that doesnt say the person has DID... many great literary authors have wrote in the third person on purpose or accidentally and they were not DID,

the memory problems with DID go beyond this normal realm of forgetfulness that happens to every human being at some point in their lives..

my suggestion dont worry about what other people think and say about you and what you write.. if ***you *** think you may have DID contact your treatment providers, they can refer you to diagnostic tests with a psychiatrist and medical doctors that can rule in or out all the different normal life, medical problems and mental disorders that share these same symptoms you are concerned about. so that you will know for sure whether what is happening to you is from your already diagnosed problems or something new dissociative or otherwise.

If you have a treatment provider and have been diagnosed with ocd and depression but now think it might be more than just that. I think it would help if you share your concerns with you therapist. Not all therapist are familiar with the symptoms of MPD/DID. If you don't have a treatment provider I think it would be important to find one. When I was diagnosed I was in treatment. It was difficult to accept but my therapist helped me navigate the emotions related to my DID. Hope everything works out for you.

Start looking for a professional who has experience with PTSD and trauma. Some will also list that they are experienced with DID/DDNOS. But be smart and careful. Sometimes, T's being human, just like everyone else, like to jump to conclusions. T's are sometimes heavily invested in certain diagnoses. I've seen it, and experienced it personally over the years. If you are asking yourself these questions then you need to get a professional opinion. I suspected off and on for years that I had it, but because I wasn't "classic" in my symptoms I would tell myself that I couldn't possibly have it. So I attributed my symptoms to metaphysical events. It took a good T working with me for quite a long time before DID became obvious. Crystal

As crystal lady and Claritytoo sugest, Not all mental heath workers are familiar with the effects of trauma, or the treatment of traumatized people.
Many do not even believe in DID/MPD.
definately look for someone with trauma experience, and even experience with dissociative disorders if you can.
My therapist says, some places(and people) speak DID. and others don't. it took a long time for me to be able to admit I was having these kinds of experiences. I'd been holding them back, and deny-ing them for so long I literaly couldn't speak. be patient with yourself. and don't jump at diagnosis.