[shortandcute]

I am having a hard time feeling any grief over the loss of a lady I've known my whole life. (I am going on 50) She was on of my oldest sister's closest friends and I loved her to pieces--I even named my daughter after her. She committed suicide about a week ago and I just cannot bring myself to grieve over this. I start to get a little sad when I see my sister trying to deal with this, but I have a big part of me that almost doesn't believe it. Not that I think anyone is lying per se, but it's more like surreal-or something. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!?!?!?!?!

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by shortandcute

I am having a hard time feeling any grief over the loss of a lady I've known my whole life. (I am going on 50) She was on of my oldest sister's closest friends and I loved her to pieces--I even named my daughter after her. She committed suicide about a week ago and I just cannot bring myself to grieve over this. I start to get a little sad when I see my sister trying to deal with this, but I have a big part of me that almost doesn't believe it. Not that I think anyone is lying per se, but it's more like surreal-or something. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!?!?!?!?!

nothing is wrong with you. everyone mental disordered and not goes through the grieving process their own way. there are 5 phases to the grief cycle and one of them is called ***shock*** (some locations call this the denial phase).. in this phase people go through the process of getting the news someone has died, indifference in other words the news has little to no affect on them other than knowing the person has died and watching how others deal with the news coupled with light sadness and sometimes the feeling of "I cant believe shes gone" then the feeling like the person could walk through the door at any moment proving the persons not dead.

after this phase has passed the grieving person enters one of the other phases called depression, anger, bargaining, and acceptance.

how a person goes through each of these phases is different for everyone and how long they remain in each phase is different for everyone.

again there is nothing wrong with you, you are just going through the grief process differently than your sister or others near you which is completely normal.

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by shortandcute

I am having a hard time feeling any grief over the loss of a lady I've known my whole life. (I am going on 50) She was on of my oldest sister's closest friends and I loved her to pieces--I even named my daughter after her. She committed suicide about a week ago and I just cannot bring myself to grieve over this. I start to get a little sad when I see my sister trying to deal with this, but I have a big part of me that almost doesn't believe it. Not that I think anyone is lying per se, but it's more like surreal-or something. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!?!?!?!?!

You are probably still processing the reality of her loss. Each person grieves in their own way. I had a friend die the same way and I didn't start crying until I started to think of the fun times we had together. I just sobbed. There is nothing wrong with you, grief is very personal and you will feel your grief in your own time. I am sorry for your loss.

[Miswimmy1]

I am sorry for your loss...

I think everyone grieves in a different way. Like for me, when I am sad, I don't think about it. I just move on and distract myself. Ppl actually accuse me of not caring and being cold but that is just how I deal with it. Maybe you just need some time...

[possum220]

Suicide has another sting in its tail. Why???? Shock shuts our systems down.

If/when you grieve it will happen when it happens. You cant force it. Maybe write something down, to your friend or about your friend. Maybe light a candle and think of her.

Maybe talk to your sister.

Take care

[Bmee2]

i am so sorry your friend could not hold on any longer. i am sorry she felt lack of support from loving people. You loved her but she may not have felt it. i am glad you are still here. Remember your friend fondly. Sadness will come when you are ready to handle it.
Be well shortandcute.

[likewater]

My brother died from suicide in july ( well either he pulled the trigger or our mom did we'll never really know), but I understand how hard it is to process. We have to accept the unacceptable or live with the unlivable. I feel like the walking dead, but I can honor my
brother by taking care of myself and everyday I still come alive for little moments of joy. Eventually, maybe, I won't be so dead inside. I think it takes time.

I'm sorry for the loss of your dear friend. I'm sorry she was in such pain. May angels surround you and comfort you, and i'm certain she is at peace now.