During session

During session one of my little ones came out. She in fearful and cries. She repeats the same things over and over. She presents like that when ever she is out. It is good it happened during session but now I am having fear about what she knows. I fear that I will be overwhelmed with what she knows. I have been having a dialogue with everyone about this being 2013 and that what we have are memories that happened years ago. And that we are safe in the present. I just don't know what else to do to prepare me for what she knows.

What I've done, I asked the others to share the memories in steps and not all at once. So I will not be overwhelmed but get time to process what happened. It is still overwhelming but for me it works. One of my alters began to share many memories that were too much for me. I became overwhelmed and unstable I discussed this with my t and came to the conclusion that it was too fast for me. So we decided that she can share the memories with me in the session and if she wants to share more she can write it down and I can read it when I'm ready.

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That is a good idea. I will talk to the others to see if it is something we can do. I don't think the one at the session can write. Most of what she knows seems to be visual. She is not saying what happened she is just saying no, but I am able to see her. It's hard to explain. I think her memories are visual and I think that is what scares me. I am anxious about seeing us being assaulted. I some how have to find a way to know it is a memory and not continue to react like it is happening now. It is not like she is telling me what happened. It is more like she is experiencing it now.

I now understand better what you're saying. This part is still living in the past, thinks that the trauma still takes place? I also have small parts that are still living in the past, and believe that we are still in danger. Those experiences of them are quite overwhelming and can make you feel like everything happened again.
What I do is help those parts to show that it is 2013 and that we are safe. I wrote it on the bathroom mirror so that they would be reminded that we live in 2013 and that we are safe. I tried to talk to them (I do not have contact with all parts) For one of my small parts it has really worked She is more aware of the here and now. But she is also coconscious with me,
we can communicate, so she is learning 'fast'. My other little part is another story ....but that takes time.

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