[tallison]

i was diagnosed with DID a few months ago and i'm still figuring things out.... tonite i went out for a drink with my friend ...one moment i was looking at the lights in one spot and the next moment i was talking about i don't know what and sitting in a different spot looking at the same lights!!! my friend assured me that i didn't do anything embarrassing... and that she couldn't tell that it wasn't me! what a relief!! but scary none the less... it occurs to me that this sort of thing has been happening all of my life!! many people must have shaken their heads at me for changing topics in the middle of conversations... lol but i was out of my element tonight and know that i switched several times... i don't entirely trust my friend as she is interested in me... i don't really know what to do!!! i'm worried about how often this happens and how to control it!! this happens way too much and it terrifies me every time!! sob!!! thanks for listening!!!
tallison

[Evangelista]

Welcome to the Forum Tallison...

I have experienced the confusion and fear you describe because of the switching, it is very uncomfortable and scarey. Hopefully if your in Therapy your T will help you build the skills needed to understand about Triggers, dissociative processes, and there are resources here at the top of the forum. Again, welcome.

Eva

Welcome

I have DID too. You can find my experiences in my blog here is a link to my blog and how to locate the members blog area in general.

http://myself.psychcentral.net/2006/...ate-the-blogs/

Please note -

This is MY experiences with having DID, MY therapy program that I am on for DID and My research for DID.

If your experience is different just take from my blog what you can use and pass on the rest.

As for losing time yea that happens to - ME - but it doesn't upset - ME - when it happens because it has always been happening to - ME - since - I - was a child.

For -ME - losing time of doing one thing and then snap - I'M - doing something different didn't suddenly start happening after - I - was diagnosed.

Losing time was in part why - I - was referred to getting tested and diagnosed as being DID - A therapist recognized that she would have to repeat conversations and - I - had no memory of things her and - I - did and or talked about together.

For - ME - MY losing time is trigger related. If - I - get upset, uncomfortable, panicy and so on - I - lose time.

I control - MY - switching by paying attention to how - I - am feeling and when - I - start feeling uncomfortable, upset, panicy and so on - I - stop what - I - am doing and locate the trigger (the reason why - I - am feeling uncomfortable, upset, panicy and so on) and - I - take care of that by using grounding and relaxation techniques and when ever possible physically walking away from that trigger. That in turn controls - MY - dissociating and switching.

By the way in case capitalization is a problem with you please not that my using capitalization is not for yelling purposes. - I - do so simply to make sure - MY - I - statements are clear because when - I - don't sometimes people skimming and reading my posts and threads don't always see - MY - I statements.

[tallison]

well thank you both for your responses... and myself, i didn't take the capitals as yelling... ty! i've lost time all my life also, but it was the situation i was in that made is frightening... that was likely the trigger... and thank you for the link... i'll be sure to check it out!! btw, i was in a strange city, with someone i don't really know, in a bar which i don't usually do.... not a good time to lose time!!
tallison

[tallison]

i confused i little and scard and i dont understand what where i am i no this is my name but i dont no wy it is here tallie