[Rhapsody]

(((( HUGS )))) to ME.....

I hate THURSDAYS.....
for I am always sad on this day - the day after I can finally stop doing for others and rest / relax.

I do not fully understand it all and yet I have come to know to notice that THURSDAYS are very depressing for me and that I literally have NOTHING left to give to others or even unto myself on this particular day - the day after - the day in which nothing is needed or needs to be done.... at least in my mind.

IDK - it seem to make no sense and yet this is what feel the need to express (from within - from her)..... can any one with DID shed any light on this matter? - for I am confused.

[Rhapsody]

I (Rhapsody) am here today and yet it is like I am looking at my LIFE through an open Window........ while she lives it - I can feel and see it all - and I know the people involved.... yet I do not speak for she is here, she has today (Thursday).

[Rhapsody]

one last thing................ it is her that is depressed - I can feel her feelings and yet it is her that is feeling and I am looking on as she feels and goes thru the day being depressed.

What do I tell the family....... how do I explain to my husband when nothing gets done today.... son does not know of my DID and hubby thinks it was dealt with and that it is just me (but "the voice") did come out a few nights ago and tell him some things as I slept.... but I am not allowed to acknowledge it to him - they "the voice" does not allow it.

[nothemama8]

perchance an incident happened on Thursdays that your protector is sheilding everyone
Reah

[Rhapsody]

No - that was MONDAY's and we have long since figured that one out and the why to it all.... it had to do with our long lost dad that never was.

This is some thing new - from the here and now - more from her not wanting to do any thing or having the desire to function..... more like severe depression with out a life to stand on.

............................. still confused ................................

.................. I personally HATE this feeling - it keeps me from so much.

Example: I will sit here at the computer feeling numb and void while I know there is so much that needs to be done here at home (by me), but it will not get done until the family starts to return home for the day - then I will go and do some of it...... while she is still feeling depressed and numb, hating having to get up from her solitude.

[LILITH]

Hugs to you..... sorry about your blue Thursdays....

[pegasus]

(((((((((( Rhapsody ))))))))))))))

Sounds like little Rhapsody is feeling sad and lonely. She has been through a lot. Comfort her and let her know how special she is.

[ptdrummajor]

((((((((((((((((Rhapsody))))))))))))))))) I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I hope that you can find some peace and relief from these feelings. If I can help, let me know. You can always talk to me.
Dana & co.

[mlyn]

k glad that day is for you cuz need to check my sign in name. They got it all screwed up in chat.
boot me out if you need to.
glad you here.

[Rhapsody]

Thanks everyone...... today was fine and I even got out of the house for a few hours - 12 to be exact... it was like the old ME was back.

Rhapsody -

[Rhapsody]

Hmm - I am not 100% sure yet - but I feel as if it is HER that is depressed and often hates those that I love (I think she holds my teenage to mid 20's years).

Rhapsody -

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[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((Rhapsody)))))))))) Glad to hear things are smoothing out and calming down for you.