[Patagonia]

Is it possible to hear from a brand new part....this late in the game?

[finding_my_way]

Originally Posted by Patagonia

Is it possible to hear from a brand new part....this late in the game?

i would think so. i used to know several of mine years ago, but in 2007 it all went quiet. and now i don't really know who is around anymore but think there are different ones as well as some who were around then. so, i think anything is possible.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Patagonia

Is it possible to hear from a brand new part....this late in the game?

when I asked this of my treatment provider and told her why (I could hear a voice I hadnt heard before) she said yes it is possible. that it didnt mean I had a new alter just that I have healed enough to where my mind was ready to release a more in depth part of me to me. that it was actually a good thing and showed great healing and progress when that happened to me. it showed I was ready to handle what ever that alter was and contained on my own..the more i knew and able to handle like this also meant the closer I was to being fully integrated.

then my treatment providers and I had to figure out whether this new voice was part of my DID or part of my psychosis/bipolar symptoms because it could be either or...it turned out to be an alter with my DID.

my suggestion talk with your treatment providers they can assess why this is happening for you.

Originally Posted by Patagonia

Is it possible to hear from a brand new part....this late in the game?

Yes dear, it's very possible.

[Patagonia]

I don't like this part. It scares me. It silences all other parts. How can I be sure it's even a part?

[Lost_in_the_woods]

Some parts are scary. I hate coming to find out that a part that hurts was around. I'm sorry, Patagonia, that the dark.. "Shadows" (we call them)are causing you pain..hang in there... remember even after the darkest night dawns a bright new day.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Patagonia

I don't like this part. It scares me. It silences all other parts. How can I be sure it's even a part?

your treatment provider will be able to tell you whether this is a part (alter) what kind and if its from your dissociative disorders or something else based on your own history (present and past) with your life, your meds, your diagnosis's, problems you may be having.

my suggestion is if this continues to bother you contact your or a mental health treatment provider, they will be able to help you figure things out and how to best treat this.

[darkpurplesecrets]

It is so hard to be so strong when inside you are nothing and falling to pieces a little more each day. If only someone really knew, it gets so heavy sometimes pretending and trying to be so strong, afraid of failing to the world around you. You paint on another layer to the already layered mask hoping it doesn't crack one more time.......one more day......

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((( dps ))))))))))

(you are strong )

Originally Posted by darkpurplesecrets

It is so hard to be so strong when inside you are nothing and falling to pieces a little more each day. If only someone really knew, it gets so heavy sometimes pretending and trying to be so strong, afraid of failing to the world around you. You paint on another layer to the already layered mask hoping it doesn't crack one more time.......one more day......

you should seriously take up writing, because that was worded perfictly

great post, and i think so many of us can relate

We took a vote on quitting meds, and the "nays" have it. I really wanted to try.

Last night our sister called and all she wanted to was talk about our childhood which I don't remember.

Possible trigger:

Feelings of despair and depression flooded us. Waves of suicidal ideation and desire washed over us, and still do. We are in a daze, not too aware of the present, frozen.

We can't go back there....ever.

This feeling is bleeding into every facet and crevice of our psyche. I feel overwhelmed.

We're feeling better system wide now that we vented some. Those system shockers hurt.

We were curled up in a ball around a pillow most of last night, shell shocked this morning, I still feel strained now after working a little today. We didn't drink. The last time I drank because of this, it was a week and a half in the hospital. So far so good.

[Patagonia]

((((((AlwaysChanging2)))))). Hang in there!

this time of year is hard for us to be positive, because of all the holidays- everyone having someone to spend it with and have lots of things to celebrate and us having none of it- not even our own family wishing us a merry christmas on the day.

we've been trying to be positive.. but god it's hard. even our self harm has been a nightmare this week- every day without fail

and some of us have thought about dying which makes it hard to focus on things

we think (but arn't 100 percent sure) we're dealing with a new insider ( at least 1 we wern't aware of before)

her name is natalie (same name as our protector), and from what she's saying, she's a crazy child who likes dolphins.

it might explain why over the past few days we've been somehow drawn to pictures/ facts about the ocean.

not sure

spent the entire day on here. (at least a lot of it)

litirally nothing else going on..

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

spent the entire day on here. (at least a lot of it)

litirally nothing else going on..

Lol. Me 2. You know it when you see just your posts one after another with no replies in between.

Well, as of an hour ago, we were hating life like through the past week, and at the realization of a direct influence of a beloved resident downer, things instantly brightened up to be a much brighter day. We've gots lots to do, like job search and T finding. I was dreading it, but now I can hardly wait!

we're going to try and get more done today.

yesterday we just sat on here feeling sorry for ourselves- and didn't really get us no where

not sure what exactly we will do, but hopefully something constructive
terrible night last night (i swear everyone had a go at talking at some stage) and was on the computer by 2a.m. not good at all!

[avlady]

yes hang in there and call a doc and t if you can. i hope you feel better soon-this too shall pass.

had a rather embarrassing situation yesterday where i was talking to someone in al ive chat about a problem i was having with my TV, and then later foujnd out that another insider had taken over my conversation and was telling the person all about our past.

a little embarrassed this morning, though i don't think the person on the chat minded too much

Things are changing, not so much facetime. It is what it is.

We've reached out to a whole array of T's, through a local listing website. You can privately email each, so we made a basic letter and now awaiting replies. This feels so....I hate this to tell the truth.