survivor alter?

i am working on a project to get to know my alters. so far there are 6 that regularly reveal themselves. my project involved them telling their story, why they split off and what their role is. i have wanted to die since i was 5 and then my alter, maggie, came along when i was 16 and she was actively suicidal till i was in my mid 40's. she was always plotting and planning ways to die and self harming, but then there was another part of me that always foiled these plans. somebody worked really hard to keep us alive all these years. The thing is, none of the parts that have revealed themselves have claimed this role and it doesnt feel like any of them are the ones either. So I am wondering if i have an alter whose role it was to keep us alive or was it just me? Does anybody else have an alter who fulfilled this role? Am I am making sense?

Hi..everyone is different and the way things work for them...for me i believe i am one of the parts who wanted to live..after years of wanting to die as a kid...and worked hard to stay alive as a kid and an adult..it was not this big choice to do this but we would always get to a hosp or to a t for a phone call..but there were others who were not sui as well. for whatever reason we did not sui and we are very grateful now that things are a great deal better...it could very well be you who helped out and it could be others. for me and my parts..it is not always laid out so neatly who did what and when..even for my own part in things...it is a puzzle that we constantly are solving and is ongoing..i dont know if this help any...

Hi kali, I commend you on your self discovery. I too am on the same journey. But as fars as the one that has kept the system safe and together, that would be me. I'm the one that nurtures this system, the one that keeps us grounded when things get really desperate. I'm the one that soothes and makes the bad times disappear. I take over when the end is near, when there is no more light at the end of the perceived tunnel. I'll wipe the tears from your eyes and give this world a set of new refreshing eyes. My name and always has been Susie for our system. I'm the one that saves us from self destruct. I'm thriving today because I'm good for the family life because, I care, I'm concerned, empathatic, motherly type, etc. hope you find that part that keeps you alive because she/he is there. It has to be. Without me we'd been gone long before now.

Your post makes perfect sense to me! I have an alter who I feel does the opposite than try to save me. I believe she is trying to sabotage me, and she foils my plans every step of the way. I feel as if we are in constant battle. She manipulates people in order to hurt me, and I must try to stay one step ahead of her to save my relationships and my sanity. Though all I know of you is your post, I can say it's my belief that it's YOU who keeps saving yourself. Not your alter. You have probably disassociated your suicidal tendencies to the point they have taken on their own persona. I have a similar situation and that's they dynamic I came up with for me. Your situation may be different, but it's a good thing to look at things objectively. It's like we with DID need to be good detectives to figure out what the heck is going on in our own mind!! Whodda thunk it??

thanks everybody. thinking on it, it may be the rest of us that prevent maggie from doing it or just me or the "sane me" that is predominant most the time with me. we are coconscious so pretty much in it together. that is why nobody is standing up and taking credit for it. because there isnt any one person doing the job.

Kaliope, that sounds like the most feasible possibility. You know your own mind best. Thank you for sharing and hope my response helped a little.