Hosptial, surgery, assault !!!Trigger!!!

I haven't been around much because well I was in the hospital last week and have been doing my best to keep things together. Well wow where do I begin. A little over a week ago. I went to this guys house, he was actually my boyfriend. we had only been back together for 2 days. I broke up with him before like a week before that. I got talked into going back with him. Well I have a part named Jenny, she likes something that I can't even say. This basically all that she is about. Well she came out that night. I also had a friend with me, the one who talked me into going back to him. I told her I didn't want anything to happen because I needed to find out what was going on with me. I asked her to not let anything happen. I switched to Jenny sometime that evening. He had *** with us. This is what Jenny said. She told me more about it as time went on but when I came back I felt really weird and Jenny told me I was bleeding. I went back to the room and told my friend that I needed to leave, she wouldn't leave right away. But finally we left and I noticed that something was running down my legs, I realized it was blood and it was around my ankles. I then told my friend this when we got into the car. I took her home and she told her mom about it and her mom came out and said I shouldn't be worried, maybe he was to big or something and maybe I should get it checked ouit. But the bleeding just didn't get any better. I decided to go to my parents house and I got out of my car and I had pools of blood in my seat, that's when I knew something had to be wrong. I went inside and bleed alot more and my parents took me to the ER. They didn't know what had happened to me exactly when I got there. I don't remember the ER very much. I went in at 11:30 pm. I then had to have emergency surgery, they thought that there was a whole in my uterus or something. so they were going to do some exploratory surgery. When I got out of surgery I was told that there was a tear down there. But I was informed it wasn't in my uterus. They called adult protective services because this was the second time I was in the hospital because of this guy. They also told me there was going to be an investigation. So a week later I talked to APS and an ivvestigator. Jenny came out and talked with him and told him what had happened. One other thing that Jenny told me is that my friend was even in the room when this took place. Needless to say she's not my friend anymore. The investigator told me he was going to set a court date for assault. Just plain assault. But then later that day I found out that things were alot worse than I had thought. I found out that this tear was all the way through and that he could have very well killed me. The doctor believes that something else had to of been used to do this with. After hearing this I'm not so sure that a regular assault charge is really enough for this. I don't want him tdoing this to anyone else and he obviously did something wrong. I am still hurting and my incision may be infected. I really could use some advice on this, does there need to be more of a charge? I'm going to talk to my T about it tomorrow. Thank you to everyone who read this, it means alot to me.

(((((((((((((((((((((((Jennifer))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I am so so sorry that happened. I am glad you found medical support and it sounds like you have a t. I don't know how they decide what charges to press but you may want to talk to your t and the authorities. Please take care of you both physically and emotioanlly.

BB

Jennifer, I'm so so sorry all this happened to you.

Might want to make sure that they have all your medical records from the hospital and the doctor.

We are all here for you. I don't know what else to say. Just that you are cared for here.

Monty

Thank you, I talked to my T and she called the investigator. He should be contacting me later to talk to me. I also tried to call APS and left a message. I am hurting kind of bad today and last night got really bad. I cried alot and I was hurting so bad. I really need all the support that I can get right now. Like my doctor told me this is a trauma and so it's going to be difficult. Even though I don't remember it, it was a trauma physically and emotionally. But thank you for caring enough to post something to me, it means alot because I really need support right now.

Jennifer

Oh sweetie, I am so sorry.

You sure have had your share of trauma lately.

I am sending healing vibes your way.

In my thoughts,

Petunia

Aw. I am so sorry about what had happened!!! I feel so bad. If there is anything I can do please feel free to PM me.

You're in my prayers, hope everything goes well.

sending my love

(((((((((((((Jennifer)))))))) I'm sorry you are struggling. I hope you can get the help you need soon.

((((((((((( Jennifer ))))))))))))

I am so very sorry this has happened to you. I am glad your t is helping you with this.

Gentle hugs,

Jan

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( Jennifer )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I hope everything is going OK for you right now. I'm still thinking about you and hope your Ok. Let us know if you need anything.

Monty

Everything is just really hard right now and the people who I thought would give me support are not giving me much. this is something I can't do on my own and I don't think that some people understand that. I am not strong enought to deal with this on my own. I really am having a hard time and really I should be getting some support here where I live, but they are just putting me off, but I am hoping to solve that some tonight. I will update you all as much as I can. All I ask is please don't push me away.

((((((((((((((((((((( Jennifer )))))))))))))))))))))

We are here for you. Don't worry we would never push you away.

Have you talked to the crisis center in your area? Or might want to talk to the authorites they might be able to hook you up with an advocate who could be there with you while your going through all of this. PM me if you need need anything, I can always listen.

((((((Jennifer))))))

..what your going thru IRL must be a nightmare..keep reaching out here, you will find others reaching back in support..

((((((((( Jennifer )))))))))



Hugs,

Jan

Thank you for responding to me and everything. I am really having a hard time and I broke down again today. I am still living in the assisted living place but none of them really seem to want to talk to me or anything. I am just so hurt by all this that happened. But I guess it was a trauma, so it's going to be hard. I am hoping that I will get through this. I needed to talk to someone so much earlier that I called the hospital. They talked to me for about 5 minutes but that wasn't really much. It helped some at least though. Well I am still having a hard time and I am trying to deal and cope with all of this. Thank you all again for trying to help me and support me. I am going to keep writing and stuff. I am just so overwhelmed right now.

Jennifer

Well I called the victim witness program person today and she told me that there is nothing in the system about any of this. I am concerned now that the county attourney decided not to take the case on. That means that he would get away with all of this. I am still having problems coping with all of this and I am going to start a partial hospitalization program on Monday to help me. I havve been breaking down and crying and I am really hurt by all of this. If I had a choice I would go back to this one hospital but my insurance won't pay for me to go back again. Though it would be really helpful. I don't know what to do. I have been having flashbacks and everything. Though they really are not my flashbacks because I wasn't there. My part, Jenny, was there and she is also very traumatized by all of this. My whole system seems like it is shut down pretty much. I have hardly been switching or dissociating. Though I have been at the doctors office because of what they have to do. I just really need as much support and help that I can get really. Which I am reallyl not even getting hardly any right now. I really don't have any friends in real life, so that is difficult. well I am trying to make it through and any support from any of you would be great.

Jennifer

(((((((((((((((((((((((((Jennifer))))))))))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry that this has been so hard. Please take care of you.

BB