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Nov 08, 2016, 09:07 AM
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why is it so hard to remember who people are?
im quite popular on a video game and supposed to know everyone.. everyone knows me some how, but i cant remember who is who.. i give up already, just treat everyone the same like 1 big person
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Nov 08, 2016, 11:51 AM
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for some its because they drink alot of alcohol for some its because they have or are doing drugs for some its because they are on all kinds of medications for some its normal for some its a learning disability for some its part of their mental disorders for some its part of their physical health problems for some its their diet or not getting enough sleep... for some people its called brain strain (slang talk) for too much time on the computer, too much researching mental and physical health problems so what one is reading about becomes their own (medical and mental health college students get this one alot,too much of one thing causes other areas in a persons brain to shut down and stop storing that information because its deemed unimportant to what the student is needing to do at that moment) my point only your own treatment providers will know why you dont remember people. in me its part of my having bipolar disorder, MS (a physical health problem) and many other things too. my suggestion if this continues to bother you contact your therapist or psychiatrist and they can tell you if your medications need changing, and any other treatment plans that can help you to have a better short term and long term memory (yes there really is medical and mental health treatments that help people with how their brain works and improving memory skills  no matter what the cause is. )
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#3
Nov 08, 2016, 12:22 PM
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i keep telling them that my memory problems bother me...
my T just says that i live in a dissociated state or something like that, i think... i just wanna be able to remember things, normal things to have friends and stuff
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Nov 08, 2016, 05:19 PM
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the not remembering the past bothers me....
not remembering... who am i? what do i like..? i not able to ansser the simple questions... am i multiple? no, im not, im a person hurting bad and i know its about to get worse
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#5
Nov 09, 2016, 02:20 AM
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it sucks :/
i need to get this insurance so that i can see a specialist, im just trying not to freak... T says that i am resilient, that resilience is one good quality that can come from all of this but its gotta get worse to get better Trauma Dynamics - 5 States of the Autonomic Nervous System
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Nov 09, 2016, 08:27 AM
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i forget doing things, always have to ask if i did something or not..
im so forgetful, forgetful doesnt even do the happening justice; im not here, no where to be seen so so unclear, things are mean always fighting fear, losing self esteem life brings a tear, hoping this soul be redeemed must be stronger...
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#7
Nov 09, 2016, 08:32 AM
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i don't know who im supposed to be either, how did things get so bad?
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Nov 09, 2016, 03:12 PM
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i have a hard time remembering normal people, not just internet people :S
even family feels so lonely
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#9
Nov 13, 2016, 10:42 AM
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i'm disintegrating
s.o.s.
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Nov 13, 2016, 12:16 PM
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with in me when this happened it was the final integration process of all my alters letting go of their individuality and becoming one whole person again with me (in other words the healing process that makes it so that a person no longer has DID.) my suggestion is contact your treatment providers. they will be able to help you prepare and understand this part of the healing process of no longer being DID or OSDD. that said in my location this term disintegration is used in another way for other mental disorders for example with borderline, and other mood and behavior disorders it means a person is having problems with things like depression, anxiety, and their functioning levels of self care\hygiene \ trouble maintaining their daily life. the fix for this is medication and sometimes if the depression is the cause ECT (shock therapy) or inpatient treatment. if this is what you meant again contact your treatment providers they will be able to assess why this is happening to you and adjust your meds, get you set up for more intensive inpatient treatment options. Last edited by amandalouise; Nov 13, 2016 at 01:58 PM. Reason: finished an incomplete sentence |
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Nov 13, 2016, 12:37 PM
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 (((((( elevatedsoul )))))) Sorry you are having a tough time. We are all different in how we respond to some things. I usually become increasingly confused, and often experience more despair, if/when I focus upon my dissociative issues outside of therapy. Just my own experience. While people participating in forums are well-intended and put forth amazing efforts, we often cannot find adequate support on forums and can get further lost in our focus on dissociation. I hope you have shifted your focus to: "grounding" and are starting to feel more Present.  WC |
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Nov 13, 2016, 08:53 PM
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thanks, im not sure whats happening but...
im going through a lot... i dont know... what i meant by disintegrating... is i just feel like im dissolving... my reality is falling apart, i am nothing and my life seems to have no purpose who am i? no one... what am i doing here? dieing... what am i going to do? i dunno... sigh, its getting worse, worse worse, im afraid that im going to become a vegetable... incapable of anything... as i try harder, i feel separation... i feel the difference between me trying, and the difference between me dieing... but its over, i feel like there is nothing i can do now; i have pdoc on 17th... therapy 22nd... im hoping things will be ok until then... but i have a feeling its not going to matter, get better, get worse, get better, get worse, farther apart, where am i? who am i? what am i doing? getting better.. no im getting worse... no... yes... stop, please just stop, i want to be normal, i want to be happy, i want a life, i want to have a life, i want my life, my past, my present, my future, i want to exist... i dont want to die... im afraid i cant handle this and im afraid my treatment providers cant either... im afraid i dont have the support i need... afraid that things are yet to get even more worse... and afraid i cant handle much more worsening... sabe? não quero... só quero ser feliz... healthy... alive... não sozinho... 
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Nov 13, 2016, 10:31 PM
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in me it was \ is called depression and bipolar disorder with psychotic symptoms. the reason why it was called that in me is because in my location alters do not die nor desolve into nothingness. everything they are becomes joined together to form one whole person again. another reason why it was not called part of my dissociation disorder problems is because the creation of alters is not a painful process like you see on tv and other fictionalized sources, if it was a painful process children would not be using their dissociation skills to get away from the trauma's that they were going through. here in my location dissociating is more a calmness, numbing, spaciness. if you look up what depression is you will find things like hopelessness, helplessness, feelings of unable to cope, feelings of being unable do get motivated, do things. bipolar disorder is a type of depression where the feelings are extreme. if I remember right bipolar disorder is one of the things your recent past posts said you were diagnosed with. Im glad you have appointments with your treatment providers set up. they will be able to help get your problems stabilized. |
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Nov 14, 2016, 05:07 PM
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i say things metaphorically alot...
albeit my metaphors are lacking alot... i have major depressive disorder... but maybe i do have bipolar... maybe i do also have psychosis... maybe it doesnt matter anymore too... so much what it is why? it just sucks... so bad... i was dx with bipolar in the beginning... 2012... but they changed it... i got it changed in 2016 january... psychological assessment... 3 hour interview... they say my ptsd causes alot of problems... that i have deep psychological wounds... and that my issues would resolve if i could heal them... i see my therapist 2 x a month i think... i force myself to go because i dont want to... i dont want to do any of it anymore... i didn't really mean i felt like i was dissolving... or vanishing... but i feel like my mind is not functioning... i cant think clearly... i cant feel clearly... nothing is clear... i cant see clearly... nothing is certain... confusion is certain... memory impairment prominent... depression head strong.... till its not ... then it is... then im not here... but that doesnt make sense either... so i try to use a metaphor... but my mind is not clear... i am so stupid... the pain, the entrapment the main, attraction stains the contraption the brains malfunction im so depressed.... im so trapped... i just want out... why cant i just get out... i want to run away  why do i have to keep living like this... i dont want to....
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Nov 14, 2016, 05:10 PM
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i hate myself....
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