[Claritytoo]

I went to see my t today. I have been having alight panic attacks. It helps that I now know what is happening so I can talk myself out of them. After talking to my t I realize that I am worried about my adult son. My house was forclosed on so my son has to move out. This friday is his last day in the house. He said he will be living in his car. I can't help him. Even if i could he wouldn't let me. I want him to be safe and in a comfortable place. I am worried. My t thinks that that is most likely why I have been having such a difficult time recently.

Originally Posted by Claritytoo

I went to see my t today. I have been having alight panic attacks. It helps that I now know what is happening so I can talk myself out of them. After talking to my t I realize that I am worried about my adult son. My house was forclosed on so my son has to move out. This friday is his last day in the house. He said he will be living in his car. I can't help him. Even if i could he wouldn't let me. I want him to be safe and in a comfortable place. I am worried. My t thinks that that is most likely why I have been having such a difficult time recently.

My son did the same...what happened to this generation? Surviving is cramping their style.. my son turns 20 in September when school starts (got funding)....he don’t go..he be gone. Tough love.

I think my mind has fabricated all this DID crap. Sorry for being so flaky. I will assert control to overcome this fantasy learned mode of living....it just takes focus to beat this self-programmed fake mental mode of thinking belief.

After a few days deprogramming will be complete.

Dangers of self-diagnosing....you start believing what you think. The mind is an incredible influential organ....you put in crap you get crap back.

Time to climb out of this delusion....sorry for wasting everyone’s time.

See ya.

Somebody delete this account....it’s a fake facade online. Thank you.

How embarrassing....had to fight my way back. That was a strong part...very assertive and closed minded. He had us all blocked out. How he was is fading away....no telling when he’ll be back, but obviously he’s in denial.

That was stressful. He’s been here before- I’ll call him Reset because he keeps trying to reset our life according to the way he thinks.

We got a PC message in our email box that triggered our release....that was a hard toe curling switch....it all feels like a dream.

week's been quiet so far

honestly thought that quieter week would make calmer selves (especially after last week), but no still very much depressed and unable to function with most things

I'm still convinced the cat goes woof woof woof

[dlantern]

Glad it is mostly summer I want my mind to stay full and emptied if that makes sense at all.

was able to shower today.

about the only thing I did get to do today.. depression isn't clearing up

We started this Intense Pulse Light (IPL) gadget to zap blue capillaries and control hair growth. It feels like a sunburn.

This is saturday and getting ready for work.

today the littles started their book.. the naughtiest girl.... I don't know what they think of it. don't like it as much as they thought I think

lots of time loss yesterday.

given up trying to put it all together.... blah

[dlantern]

Yesterday, I used Revlon to dye my hair jet black the host is 40 Female!

[dlantern]

Yesterday, I used Revlon to dye my hair jet black the host is 40 Female!

So freaken itchy....we shaved our body for Intense Pulse Light treatment for hair reduction/loss- now we have these rectangular marks all over our body that itches like a mofo...

Dang it...

Must be patient.

Great ,4:00 am and kid called about wrecking his car. He okay, car not. He never accepts responsibility for his actions...blames tires.

I know how he drives. I know better.

He called for tow truck.

He never got his butt up to get on lease. This apartment complex isn’t going to allow his wrecked car here.

Plus he now is stuck to lose job. He’s driving me crazy.

I hate today.

short of it is:

today in the UK is father's day, and I never met my dad- so it's always hard today.

not affecting me as much as previous years though, think I can put that down to being on the upswing.

but it's still difficult regardless

We spent Sunday getting the boys car towed to a garage, then he left with his friends for the day. Didn’t call our father mainly because he is the reason why we type on this page.

feeling mostly good today (even if a little bored)

difficult night yesterday though- issues with flashbacks and later on in the night a few mini seizures.

but quiet day today. staying inside- I need to get food for tonight... that's it.

weather is hot though, urg. I have the windows open though so should be okay

Life is itchy. Thanks IPL to my legs. I have red rectangular puffy marks on my leg like a zebra for a week now.

started off quite stable......

now quite switchy

just lost an hour, or part of an hour, or...... I don't really know

[Laurel1562]

You know, I didn't put it together till now, that 2 nights ago when I had flashbacks of fear of my father, that it was father's day! klonopin ftw.

Eliminated most of the ugly off my FB feed. I’m so sick of hearing it on my t.v.
that I watch old reruns during the news hours.

AC2... I thought you'd quit facebook anyway

or maybe I read your other post wrong.

or looked too far in to it..

Originally Posted by Laurel1562

You know, I didn't put it together till now, that 2 nights ago when I had flashbacks of fear of my father, that it was father's day! klonopin ftw.

smileyface

I'm blonde and that's something I'd totally do even without the meds

okay day so far and feeling present

no flashbacks last night too, but did fail to get any rest which sucks a bit