we are feeling quite shaken today.

yesterday in the area where we live some police came and we saw everything (from how it started to how it ended)

we don't get on with police and we don't like them

plus the littles are confused and scared, not really knowing or understanding what they saw

we're about to post a thread about it

posting how we feel always helps us

today the littles are upset

they were singing the sleeping bunnies song and the big person they are singing it too didn't join in with a verse and said well it's your opinion it's a good song and I don't want to join in

we're hurt

who here wants to sing sleeping bunnies

we recently got back in contact with someone who we thought we'd lost contact with ages ago

it's cool actually, because he's very inspirational in what he says and very interested in mental health

switchy yesterday a lot

today littles want chocolate and doctor pepper

[dlantern]

Is it reasonable and customary to share that ur a virgin at a certain age and tell later on that is incorrect while dating again. How do you handle dating on journey as parts reveal things?

tomorrow is easter and the little ones are so excited about getting chocolate egs isla (one of the big people inside) is excited too. she wants the littles to be happy

I'm not excited about it. I don't " hate" easter, but I don't particularly love it either

one of the littles was sick last night (too much food)

but isla attended to her and she's all clean now

and happy

we've just been told by someone on the outside that easter is next sunday, not this sunday

angry at the people who said it was tomorrow, and feel sorry for the littles- their dreams of chocolate dashed

(I might actually see if I can buy them some, they've been so good)

well, it may not be easter, but I did manage to get hold of some chocolate for them (a kit-cat eg)

I thought the littles would be happy about it, but it turns out they arn't

the 9 year old is questioning if it's okay to eat easter eggs before easter, the 4 year old isn't bothered either way, and our youngest is too hot and bothered.

we have a broken tumble drier today so need to hang our laundry outside (we did it, go us,) it will just take longer to dry. the drier always seems broken, perhaps we need to think about getting it replaced?

we had fruit today for breakfast too, which is a healthy alternative to marmite on toast (and more refreshing on a cool day)
our youngest soiled herself quite badly today and isla is taking care of her and cleaning her up

yesterday isla had to change her 4 times- that girl is getting stinkier by the day.

yesterday we got a long awaited email from microsoft

one of our email addresses (an address connected to a lot of abuse) has finally been shut down for good

patience really pays off. we're thrilled

yesterday we had chicken for dinner and some chocolate. it was nice, for once we actually felt full (first time in a few days)

lol.... I just had what I was going to say and forgot it.

oops?

Originally Posted by raging vortex

lol.... I just had what I was going to say and forgot it.

oops?

oh yeah

getting someone out tomorrow to fix the drier (hopefully they will be able to)

not really anything else to say about today.

it was what it was.

bit of this, bit of that
productive, not really

but we got through

[Mountaindewed]

I’m usually very hard on myself when I dissociate but considering I have some type of infection and I’ve been feeling like crap for almost 2 weeks straight, I know this is abnormal dissociation.

[lucidity11]

I don't like this new look. I feel like I can't trust it. Why does it look like this? Too much change. I am trying to get on with my life. Someone I loved in my past died last month. I hadn't spoken to him in a while. I really loved him but the time wasn't right. Also I just learned that I am going to die at 68, Actually I have known for about a year. I am not sure why I was told. I used to think that it would be good to know so we could get our life in order but now it seems like we have stopped looking forward. Stopped building toward the future. I don't know if it is because of my age or because I know the age I will be when I die. I haven't wanted to say anything about this because I thought that would mean it would be true. But my friend who died was 72. I was told 50 years ago that he would die at 72. I am not certain I can do anything to change this. I hope I can. Maybe. Who knows maybe I won't mind when I am 68.

[Fuzzybear]

The limited vocabulary and blaming attitude of ......some....... of the professionals in this forest irl. Wtf is wrong with them

my intense chronic pain is making daily tasks almost impossible to complete.

and most of the time these days my body is being controled by the littles

(which explains the fact why I've not been on much)

we are halfway through the new year and now I can look back on the past 6 months and be like yeah... I've done **** all

it isn't good

Possible trigger:

the suicidal feelings have been really strong lately too

not only because of death threats from family (you'd think they'd stop by now), but also because of lack of future plans, lack of motivation, and lack of support

[FearLess47]

So sorry you are struggling, raging vortex.
I can very much relate to the chronic pain.
It makes all the other stuff that much more difficult to bear.
And I hope you are safe from threats.

FearLess47

Originally Posted by FearLess47

So sorry you are struggling, raging vortex.
I can very much relate to the chronic pain.
It makes all the other stuff that much more difficult to bear.
And I hope you are safe from threats.

FearLess47

thank you FearLess. that means a lot to me

how are you feeling today?

just got back from voting in the general election.. never been so embarrassed in my life!

called the wrong name and was laughed at because they thought I was about 9 or 10, not the adult that was supposed to be voting

ugg littles

oh, and I didn't know who I was voting for, probably didn't help the situation

[FearLess47]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

thank you FearLess. that means a lot to me

how are you feeling today?

Today I feel hopeful. Even though I have so much medical stuff going on at the same time. I'm tired of being poked and tested and given new things to take, new opinions. But alas...we march on.
FL47

[incognito2]

one of my alters is having suicidal thoughts and freaking out everyone else. the child alter is adamant about finding real help so we are. On a side note I found another personality which contains my inner voice. Its really empathetic to everyone.

Originally Posted by FearLess47

Today I feel hopeful. Even though I have so much medical stuff going on at the same time. I'm tired of being poked and tested and given new things to take, new opinions. But alas...we march on.
FL47

sounds like you're taking it in your stried though, that's good