I'd like to think after yesterday's eppic fail of a day today would be better (I'm not sure anything could be worse than yesterday), but today I've all ready become really stiff in my back, confused over what day it is, and unmotivated

so doubt it

I hate coming on here out of fear of not knowing what an Other might have posted, right? Lol

Anxiety seems to crescendo when opening up the page, then shock, embarrassment, horror, or no big deal ensues.

yesterday was an eppic fail of a day

today is... an eppic fail of a day

listened to some music, caught the end of the lion king, and ate junkfood- that's my day really so far

I took a shower today and used a diffrent shampoo.

I still felt totally gross afterwards, and it didn't do anything for my mood, but i suppose it was nice to try a diffrent scent.

had to send a few emails this morning to people, but didn't do much else.

feel a little nautious from all the overeating I've been doing, but it means nothing... I continue on regardless

nice to see we're back to the rain and the wetter weather today

apart from hating the sun, october is not the month for warmer weather.

come on darker nights all ready..

feel like today's been mainly wasted.

I ate junkfood and watched " hotel for dogs", which is the extent of my motivation today

[Gr3tta_0]

I keep zoning out. Maybe I'm just tired. I feel funny. Everything looks funny. Or somethings wrong with my eyes maybe.

I have decided that my word of the week (yes, I still have words of the week), is,

"breav", spelt with a "V"

why I am choosing that as my word of the week I don't know- it just is

breav is just a cool word, and we all breav, so

it's raining a lot today

it's nice... I'm in heaven

Mum and I is going to an Oriental food store called Hong Kong across the Mississippi River which sounds like fun, shopping with mom.

Bad dreams again....gender confusing dreams

I find that I don’t think like those of my gender...

It’s On Call week. Really want to stop drinking.

worst overeating day for a long while

getting through so much candy

feel crap too. very depressed

Nobody to talk to. No friends or family that cares to understand. Our demeanor in no way reflects what is going on inside.

Wanting to rent a therapist and have a drink with.

[Fuzzybear]

Renting a therapist to have a drink with, that doesn’t sound completely unappealing.. assuming they have a brain

[Amyjay]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Nobody to talk to. No friends or family that cares to understand. Our demeanor in no way reflects what is going on inside.

Wanting to rent a therapist and have a drink with.

How is it going with your mom there?

Originally Posted by Amyjay

How is it going with your mom there?

It’s okay. We get along. We’re not so lonely as far as relations are. But she definetly is not an emotional crutch, I wouldn’t want to burden her with my load. Our system can tolerate her.

I actually don’t know why she is here other then we asked her to be, but I can deal with it, after all, she is Mom.

I feel extremely lucky today

yesterday my dinner was off, and overnight, I had a really bad tummy ache

it continued for a lot of this morning too- I'm still amazed how I was able to eat breakfast because of the pain

but now it seems to be subsiding, and I just feel really lucky that it's not worse and that their are no other side affects

just ashame that my overeating is 10 times worse than it was yesterday and I have nothing really going for me today.

mood's okay despite not sleeping again

weather is raining

[Claritytoo]

yesterday was a bad day today is better.

Made terms with our young one after fights this morning

[TrailRunner14]

I usually meet with my counselor on Tuesdays and we had to change this week. I have been good with it and have felt really good about not missing him. It feels like I’ve grown up a little bit.

I don’t watch tv. Our weather is in that crazy southern summer one day and winter the next cycle right now and I was going to watch the weather this evening. I sat down to watch too early and heard a horrible story of something horrendous that happened to a little one. It wrenches my heart and I can’t let it go. Tears.

I don’t know how to shut this off.

I’m up by myself doing something I should really not be doing.

It’s not bad but I could make a better choice.

People are so evil.

not at all a productive day

overeating 10 times worse (if it could even get any worse)
just feel..... well not sure

existing

Trying to tell myself that I‘m okay...there is nothing wrong with me....hoping that it will stick. Retrain the brain that is.

Experiencing identity loss and confusion today.

[dlantern]

For those that enjoy the occupational socialization journey more than anything else....

Here is my check in today, if your inner world tells you to wipe my counter again when that can come after cooking I'm going to scream!!!

Basically you go to your first teacher of the keeper of the home mother father brothers when they are safe then television. Then to all the jobs our held and those in the community......

You wash all the utensils dishes pots pan and eating material. The cleanliness of the home and counters is basically something a therapist will try to sabtoage " counter". Wash dishes and clean the counter after

Kids driving us crazy with no car payment. Quit being mediator between him and the finance company...spent the entire week stressed and anxious....why did we co-sign for? Wth? Whose bright idea was this?

T made a statement that seemed inconsequential at last session. Upset of young ones just grew for days so had to call him. The word for the weekend is Peace. No thinking of dissecting or guessing at the why of the upset. Just going to do fun, calming things until next session. That's the plan! Hear that *everyone*!!!! The weekend plan is PEACE!!!!