[Amyjay]

I am really tired after a long hard, very stressful and out of ordinary day at work. So tired. Yesterday we had a good therapy session where one of our younger members talked a lot and shared a whole lot of information with the T that is probably very important for her to know. It feels like we have entered into new territory now.

it is still very cold outside.
little alicia is upset.... so she wants to watch this dvd we have with adult language in it (she saw the case), but we all know she can't- because if she does she'll start repeating all the language

so we've told her and she's not happy. we've tried to distract her (like for some time today we built a snow hotel), but she keeps coming back to the dvd

This is my first Saturday off work since Christmas. No big plans. Can never think of plans that actually happen.

today we were asked straight up,

" how many adults do you have in your system?"

surprisingly it actually stumped us, because we know them and we know what they like, I guess we just can't count

hahahhhaa

we are having roast lamb today. woohoo.

[Kiya]

I seem to have a new alter- created from a horrific ER experience in November. She has worse moods than my bad mood alter and is more impetuous. Spontaneous too.
Today has been difficult. And it’s only 3pm.

today we are having problems with the dates again

bit of a shock to the system once we realised it was wednesday

to be fair, we wern't sure what day it was, so I think it was a shock to the system that we were even still alive

[Claritytoo]

I saw my t for the second time. She is good so far. It was difficult for me to actually get there because of all my anxiety but I went. The rest of the day I felt anxious and confused. I hope this goes away soon. I have also been feeling fear and I don't know why. I adopted a dog that needs help and that was good but I think she may eventually go to a family who is more active. She is a sweet girl. And I am working on her anxiety issues. Go figure

Feeling like just saying screw it and do it. Nobody screw with me right now. You won’t like it.

it's been another really rough night for us with no sleep or rest.

so far though today we've actually been productive, had our shower, had a pepermint tea, and our breakfast- even called to see when someone could come out and fix our tv (well we were a little anxious doing that, but we did it)

feeling present

My teeth aches, my brain itches.

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

today we are having problems with the dates again

bit of a shock to the system once we realised it was wednesday

to be fair, we wern't sure what day it was, so I think it was a shock to the system that we were even still alive

We gave up on dates and being surprised by it. It’s just another red flag that I’d rather burn.

[Claritytoo]

I found out that my son may have to move in two weeks. He struggles with his own mental issues and now has injuries to his leg and arm that have limited his abilities. I want to help him but he is not talking to me. I am concerned that the loss of housing will be too much pressure on him. I don't know what to do. And all of this is causing me to hide in my mind. I know I am feeling depressed and I am flooded with anxiety. I do nothing day after day. I can't move. I feel tired.

[childofchaos831]

Had a really switchy day yesterday. Was exhausted by the time I got home. Went to bed at 9, and woke up super early this morning... the sun is just now coming up... hope today is better.

That grounded post thread just made me sad because I have nothing to ground to.

[cool09]

Dissociating is the worst. I want it to go away.

I kept hearing this heavy loud swishing sound like whom whom whom.... I blocked my ears and shifted my eyes.... heard it....so I opened my ears and looked side to side and I was hearing metallic swooshing sounds with my eyeball movements....wtf??? It was louder than the t.v.

Funny how I accept everything as normal.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

We gave up on dates and being surprised by it. It’s just another red flag that I’d rather burn.

Well that wasn’t nice...sorry. I hope things are better.

It's easy to forget (for us- no excuse) that things aren’t the same for people and I should do much better at being cordial, caring and concerned.

It’s not easy when one is lacking of certain people skills. But there is plenty of room for improvement.

feeling a little disturbed (for those that want to know what we're on about, check in bipolar- thread called rant about animal abuse)

the smaller ones (kirsty, alicia, budgie and bethany), have had most of the time out

not sure how we feel about all that, about littles taking over- but also I think it's safer for someone like alicia to come out, than it is say a big person right now

We’re fixing our dog. She’s a beetch. The littles Love her. Whatever.

we're alive.

certainly not doing well or happy, but we're okay if that makes sense.

maybe not.... hmm

all the english theme parks re-opened today

theresa inside is thrilled

she loves looking up queue times and theme park news

quite upset and angry.

(see other thread)

as bad as this sounds, we've been set a challenge.

can we eat 16 chicken nuggets in 1 hour

I think we can, but hmm.

getting worried about what's at steak

if we win, we get a Hawaiian punch, and if we lose, well we've lost the punch and we'll be so embarrassed for losing.

we are such sore losers, and yes we feel bad for accepting this challenge, but.... well, we can only try

we did it.

16 chicken nuggets in an hour

well, 16 chicken nuggets in 10 minits (yeah we're greedy)

but reputation saved

A co-tech is on emergency leave and I’m covering emergency services in the evening plus my normal 8 hour day. Yesterday was a 12-1/2 hour day.

People don’t get how we get one tracked and keep on going on a task....because we have an alter for that.

My body is sore and tired, I want to back to bed...but we’re not screw up our overtime because of it.