We had fun yesterday for our holiday playing with the car and just being ourselves. It now has to all end because we needs to get ready for work, and the guys needs to do their thing. Oh well, looking forward to this weekend. It’s getting late- always clock watching we are.

difficult day yesterday.

went to get my mcdonalds yesterday like I said,

very irritated waiting in the long queue, and even more so because it was hot- and my pain levels were really bad

mcdonalds wasn't that great anyway- had nuggets and chips- but just wasn't feeling it.

failed to rest the entire day and in the nightt, today I am in agony too

had my shower (and feel gross for it), and went to the shop for a few things- that's it though, no other plans today

Why do I even try?

Why?

Why am I even here?

Or there?

hi this is stacy.

been playing online card games all day and eating candy.
thinking a little about my abuse and it makes me sad

want to listen to music soon but others want to watch soap operas

Originally Posted by raging vortex

hi this is stacy.

been playing online card games all day and eating candy.
thinking a little about my abuse and it makes me sad

want to listen to music soon but others want to watch soap operas

Hi Stacy!

I’m sorry that you are sad, I’m Karen and we just woke up. I’m hoping that we can go out and play to have fun and not work today.

Made this week a short week, only four days of work invested. The holiday pay for the fourth doesn’t count to overtime on Saturday. I normally work it after all 8 hours is 8 hours, but screw it. We go on call all next week with a possibility of over 80+ hours if crap hits the fan every night and weekend.

Slept late and been online for a few hours posting and noting, wondering why is half the crap is even here.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Hi Stacy!

I’m sorry that you are sad, I’m Karen and we just woke up. I’m hoping that we can go out and play to have fun and not work today.

we hope you got to play.

((((safe hugs)))))

yesterday, for once in our miserable lives, we actually had a deecent dinner- pork ribbs and garlic naan

so we didn't have any naan bread in the house, but we used something like it.. couldn't taste much of a diffrence really. it was nice.

difficult night, mainly lack of sleep- and one of the little ones wanting to sing let it go from frozen all night (she didn't in the end, but wanted to)

not doing much today, just cooking roast dinner later

chilling for the rest of it

Getting ready for the coming work week, we are back on call 24/7 till the following Monday with a mandatory 48 hours.

It’s not bad, but the expectation of waiting for the phone to ring is annoying, even when it doesn’t.

I just wanna quit.

another day of doing **** all.

what fun!

another night of no sleep

what fun, also

ditto my previous post

actually can't find anything new to say

oh accept for the fact that during breakfast the plate with the marmite on toast fell off the table in to my lap

oops

well.. bit of shaky hands today

Feel like crap. Didn’t drink last night and barely slept. Every little noise woke me up. Dreams weren’t mine, like wide eyed watching a movie.

the lady who I've been teaching the forum too finally managed to post something.

I am so happy for her, I knew she'd be able to do it eventually- next I'm going to teach her how to send private messages

it's really good that someone joined the forum on my suggestion.

makes me feel happy and that I accomplished something in life

sleep didn't happen again for me either (I didn't expect it was going to anyway)

meant to be seeing an old friend today- coming over to catch up.

but that's it

Knew if I stayed up late watching movies, I would sleep like a rock, finally.

england are out of the world cup.

now I don't have to constantly here

" come on england, come on england, come on england," everywhere

I feel gutted for the thousands of fans who was hoping for an england v france final, but glad all the world cup fever is over.

we did well. people should be proud

Bought a few beers finally after a few days and slept all night long. Dreams were my dreams. We were on a hot roof all day yesterday- feeling wore out.

baught ourselves some coke

peach coke too

a little diffrent to the regular stuff

it's nice..

Another hot one in paradise.

[Amyjay]

I am so tired and raw. Trauma is so devastating. I feel devastated. I am devastated.

"I" was devastated. A child.

She was.

I feel okay.

just feel a little gross from my shower today

always makes me feel gross because of my body issues

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I feel okay.

just feel a little gross from my shower today

always makes me feel gross because of my body issues

Don’t I know it. I desperately want and try to start an exercise program, the only problem is that I’m never around much to do them let alone getting the other guys doing it. Then when I’m back out, I’ve forgotten because our memory sucks and I’ve got other concerns till I pull up my shirt or look into a mirror again.

We’re going to work today, I’m hoping that it doesn’t wear this body out...but it is a good wear out, because it means we made money and got to help out a bunch of families and persons in need.

I’ve decided that I suck at being mentally ill. Bipolar but not quite, DID but not quite, smart but not quite, not normal but not quite...

Stuck somewhere in nowhere but yet not quite there.