At work public identity confusion

I recorded a job video to show a contractor....then a southern voice narrated a bit....shock...it was this body and it wasn’t me.

This got me thinking about all the comments this body makes in the different voices, moods, jokes, and attitudes in the day....it gave me a complex and feelings of great horror.

How do other co-workers see me? How do I come across? But I’m also realizing that I shouldn’t be the one out leading today which even isn’t my job. Why am I out at work today? Why did the guys take the day off? Can’t even walk right like they do.

I just wanted to die and cringe with the heavy of all this weighing on little ol me trying to fake it through the day acting like our work body should of acted. It was hard and difficult leaving me often perplexed and stressed. I remember everything that happened earlier today because I was there. This was like trading places with another person and struggling to do their life. I napped out of pure exhaustion after dinner.

The technical work knowledge was there...at least that showed up, but the male personna didn’t...so, I went through an identity crisis...enough almost to quit the day over....but I tuffed it out to the end...or everyone would of been mad.

Why does this happen? Does this happen to any of you? How do you deal with such an identity crisis? What gets you through it?

I was desperate, crushed, embarrassed of us, sad about our mental state....what do other people think? How are we perceived? Parts were short of suicidal but we refused to go there and quieted them voices.

I really don’t expect an answer....just being out at work today has freaked me out.....waaay out of my comfort zone.

We just deal with today just like we do everyday: hope that nobody noticed and keep heading on.

Nobody knows about our mental condition and alters and stuff....and so wish that we can let other people understand our sporadic behavior....but am afraid that it would lead to strained relationships and loss of job.

Plus, it seems that when people are enlightened, switching becomes more obvious and freely done: can be system devastating. It seems that our secrecy is the borderline that keeps us contained.

I listened to a voicemail I had left for my husband once and was so shocked to hear what sounded like a young child.It was the most cringe worthy moment I think I had experienced.The realization that I really was DID and what my therapist had diagnosed me with was true blew me away.Which led to all the questions and thoughts you are going through.

I went through a sort of existential crisis over it for awhile.

I know that's different than what you're talking about but still,thought I would at least say something to let you know you're being heard.

No this takes the cake angell conwell is using last nights episode against thinking the dudes on the show also mann and wife to wipe before cleaning. She wants to work so bad you get ur siticom and find your skill in the bedroom you can't run all the parts of my home then!! That is clearly a last night spilling into the morning!! What helps this the family time version of here!! stay in the bedroom dimwit!

To comment on the poster, basically you got to see it for what it is summaries are just for that I know increasing is important so that you are not over loaded. I basically just share the presence convo that present and say yep I was called on might be a little jittery but when I look and do not having to see a hand know you wipe with all mindfulness before and stop chasing someone else aspirations or just imaging you got a hand.......Those that can come out and do it graceful kool the others got things on their mind so repeat it so that they know how to get out so easily it becomes second nature. Or tell us why you need to stay dissoicated it helps the convos better to escape easily it is just by nature something so it wont seem like they can be so inflexible with us. It just isn't enough completed in our journey in 7 years of our journey 3 months are with thought feeling emotions identity player out in all of it variatons and presentation the others is just guesses.