More weirdness

So in the last couple of days. My thoughts have said I am going to take you to Greenbriar. I have NEVER heard of anything called Greenbriar. My mother did pull up to an orphanage and say get better or get out but that was called something else. Then a seperate I had the thought, Satan says. Plus many other crazy things. Other people with DID or OSDD say they have commentary on what they are doing. These are just random thoughts that pop up make no sense. I noticed thst these thoughts are becoming louder. They are still coming from me though not an outside source. Its getting on my nerves. I notice these thoughts mainly happen when I am not busy.

If it was me, I would sit down and journal what you are hearing. Write what you hear with no questions of where (or who) it’s coming from or trying to figure out what it means. I include the feelings that I’m feeling also.

That helps me get it out of my head and onto paper.

Sometimes getting it on paper, where I can look at it instead of hearing it helps.

I have been doing that for 3 weeks now. Its all just random nonsense and no emotions are attached to it at all.

Mindfulness helped me find images one time when I was stuck in a hard place. I know that seems to be a go to a lot these days, but it did help me find images in my mind that I hadn’t seen before.

The hard place I was in was with me and I sat, breathed and cleared my mind and opened my mind and images came. I didn’t understand them but I just let them come.

I have a sketch pad and colored pencils. After the images came I drew what I saw and it helped me put some pieces together. I took the drawings to my next session and talked about them.

I hope you can find something that helps you! Anything that gets the thoughts out of my mind and puts them where I can see them help me. Hug!!

I'm so sorry you're going through all of this, Dnester It must be very hard for you. I completely agree with what TrailRunner14 has already wisely said better than I ever could. Try to write these thoughts down as much as you can. I'd suggest to bring them up to your therapist. I'd suggest to talk to her about this and see how it goes from there. Hopefully she will be able to help you. I'd encourage you to bring the notes you write down to you and discuss them with her. I hope things are going ok with your therapist. She's there to help you after all. I'm so sorry. It must be very annoying and even scary for you. I hope you'll be able to calm down these thoughts. Write them down, even if they don't make any sense to you. I hope you'll be able to discuss them with your therapist or with any professionals. We'm here for you if you need to talk about it. We all care about you here. We all love you here. Feel free to vent here as much as you need or want. You know we won't judge you. I promise you that. You're a wonderful person. Stay strong, Dnester. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! Try to hang on. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this

I am losing my mind I feel like I am going to do something bad. I dont even know what is truly going on. If this is even the right forum to put this stuff on. Or should I be on the psychosis forum? I cant talk to my T she is on vacation. I dont want to go to the hospital. I am scared.

It doesn't sound like there's anything to be scared about right now. You don't appear to be in any danger. It seems like you are reporting random thoughts that aren't accompanied by an emotion or action. Is that an accurate assessment of what you are saying here?
If so, I don't think you or anyone else are in any danger from there random thoughts that pop into your mind. Maybe obsessing about them is making it worse for you right now because you are panicking about what it means or what it is. So much of your attention seems to be on there ramdon thoughts that don't seem to mean anything to you.
What would happen if you just noticed them and then let them pass by without worrying about them too much?

I have different thoughts. The random ones that are nonsense they are annoying but no real emotions are behind them. Then a seperate issue I have a wild variety of emotion and I feel like I am going to lose it and hurt someone. I am starting to believe the first issue isnt a dissociative disorder at all but either Ocd or medication induced mania. The second issue is what worries me. I dont know why I feel like I am going to lose it. I certaintly dont want to.

I'm so sorry, Dnester Please go to the hospital if you need to. Your safety must be the priority. When will your T come back? Is your Pdoc available? Perhaps you could try to talk to him/her and see how it goes from there. Please don't give up. I understand it's scary. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You're not alone here. We're here for you if you need it. Try to hang on. Remember that we're here for you. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this

I see my T this Wed.