FAQ/Help |
Calendar |
Search |
Legendary
Member Since Sep 2019
Location: USA
Posts: 16,689
(SuperPoster!)
4 42.2k hugs
given |
#761
It's good to hear you're doing a little bit better, @stahrgeyzer. Maybe your FB groups are helping?
__________________ "Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot) "Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller) * * * * * * |
Fuzzybear, stahrgeyzer
|
Magnate
Member Since Feb 2018
Location: literally hell
Posts: 2,338
6 5,648 hugs
given |
#762
Thanks. The FB groups are helping. Lots of people with similar diagnoses makes me feel less strange and lonely.
|
*Beth*, Breaking Dawn, Fuzzybear
|
Magnate
Member Since Feb 2018
Location: literally hell
Posts: 2,338
6 5,648 hugs
given |
#763
Today is one of the worst days in a long time with SI but then I accidentally came across a fb group called Snoopy is Awesome that made me smile. It's filled with happy snoopy pictures and snoopy quotes.
|
Breaking Dawn, Fuzzybear
|
Breaking Dawn
|
Legendary
Member Since Sep 2019
Location: USA
Posts: 16,689
(SuperPoster!)
4 42.2k hugs
given |
#764
Quote:
__________________ "Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot) "Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller) * * * * * * |
|
Fuzzybear, stahrgeyzer
|
Legendary
Member Since Sep 2019
Location: USA
Posts: 16,689
(SuperPoster!)
4 42.2k hugs
given |
#765
I had an ok day today. I got along a little better with the voices much of the time. One of them did not want me to write that, like you all might know I'm talking about him. But I guess he thinks it's ok right now, so I can go ahead & post this. Take care everybody!
__________________ "Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot) "Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller) * * * * * * |
Fuzzybear, stahrgeyzer
|
Magnate
Member Since Feb 2018
Location: literally hell
Posts: 2,338
6 5,648 hugs
given |
#766
I miss little Paul coming out.
little Paul missing |
Breaking Dawn, Fuzzybear
|
Legendary
Member Since Sep 2019
Location: USA
Posts: 16,689
(SuperPoster!)
4 42.2k hugs
given |
#767
My voices don't "front(?)." One of them has told me they've tried to work the hands & body while I'm sleeping but can't do it. Their voices can go outside of me, as if I'm hearing other people in the room with me. At least one can throw his voice, & other sounds, into another room. So that's a skill he has, apparently, that the other voices don't have. He can "put" another voice behind me, in front of me, or anywhere, to be with his voice or away from his. One of the other voices says they don't know how he does that. When I first started hearing voices, they were only outside of me. I thought they were coming from someones radio, maybe next door. Later I knew they came from me. They were in the same room as me. Then later, I heard them inside my head. They claim they don't remember any of those things or any of their past behaviors like I do.
__________________ "Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot) "Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller) * * * * * * |
Fuzzybear, stahrgeyzer
|
Magnate
Member Since Feb 2018
Location: literally hell
Posts: 2,338
6 5,648 hugs
given |
#768
@Breaking Dawn
I can't help but wonder if your voices are EPs. ANPs and EPs can be alters. Some more developed than others. ANPs usually cope with everyday life in outer world while EPs cope with trauma and often in inner world. Here's a good article on them: Apparently Normal and Emotional Parts The present academic model for dissociate disorders is based on the theory of structural dissociation. You might want to read these two articles Secondary Structural Dissociation | DID-Research.org Tertiary Structural Dissociation | DID-Research.org and also Primary structural dissociation Primary Structural Dissociation | DID-Research.org See the image at the top of each page. For primary you'll see one ANP & one EP. That's usually not DID or OSDD. For secondary you'll see one ANP & multiple EPs in the image. That's known for OSDD. Just a thought that maybe in your system you're the ANP and your voices are the EPs. EPs can definitely have dissociation and not remember things. They can be very abusive & angry. They hold trauma. In tertiary there are multiple ANPs & EPs, which is known for DID. |
*Beth*, Breaking Dawn, Fuzzybear
|
*Beth*, Breaking Dawn
|
Magnate
Member Since Feb 2018
Location: literally hell
Posts: 2,338
6 5,648 hugs
given |
#769
also it's possible there are unknown "deeper alters" which could ANPs or EPs Systems and Subsystems | DID-Research.org
|
Breaking Dawn, Fuzzybear
|
Breaking Dawn
|
Legendary
Member Since Sep 2019
Location: USA
Posts: 16,689
(SuperPoster!)
4 42.2k hugs
given |
#770
@stahrgeyzer, my cell phone won't let me access your links. But I did find a lot of information on the internet about EPs & ANPs. My voices don't seem to remember traumas. I'm the one with the memories. And most of them don't care about my feelings & memories. They do have emotions, though. One of them gets upset when others continue the cruelty for very long. Others exhibit anger. I remember two of them seeming depressed, & having social anxiety in the super stores. So I guess they could be EPs.
__________________ "Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot) "Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller) * * * * * * |
*Beth*, Fuzzybear
|
*Beth*
|
New Member
Member Since Jun 2022
Location: US - CA
Posts: 7
1 |
#771
Hi.
1b. |
*Beth*, Breaking Dawn, Fuzzybear
|
Legendary
Member Since Sep 2019
Location: USA
Posts: 16,689
(SuperPoster!)
4 42.2k hugs
given |
#772
__________________ "Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot) "Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller) * * * * * * |
Fuzzybear
|
Magnate
Member Since Feb 2018
Location: literally hell
Posts: 2,338
6 5,648 hugs
given |
#773
OSDD-1b?
|
Breaking Dawn, Fuzzybear
|
Breaking Dawn
|
Legendary
Member Since Sep 2019
Location: USA
Posts: 16,689
(SuperPoster!)
4 42.2k hugs
given |
#774
I found OSDD-1b on the internet. There seems to be a newer attitude about dissociative disorders. I'm glad to see that. Maybe I can eventually open up more about my situation.
__________________ "Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot) "Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller) * * * * * * |
Fuzzybear, stahrgeyzer
|
Legendary
Member Since Sep 2019
Location: USA
Posts: 16,689
(SuperPoster!)
4 42.2k hugs
given |
#775
No activity here in over a month. I haven't been doing very well lately but it's a little better now.
__________________ "Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot) "Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller) * * * * * * |
*Beth*, Fuzzybear, stahrgeyzer
|
catches the flowers
Member Since Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
(SuperPoster!)
4 23.7k hugs
given |
#776
Yes, I so wish this particular board was more active. I wonder why it isn't?
Anyway, I'm hoping someone here can help me out because I'm pretty desperate. Has anyone in your system ever turned on you because s/he felt like you did something that betrayed his/her trust? Also, has your system become disorganized and chaotic because they're angry and confused about something you did? __________________ |
Breaking Dawn, Fuzzybear
|
Breaking Dawn
|
Legendary
Member Since Sep 2019
Location: USA
Posts: 16,689
(SuperPoster!)
4 42.2k hugs
given |
#777
Dear @*Beth*, my system has been abusing me in many ways for a long time. I'm in a lot of pain & I'm like their prisoner. Once in a while we get along ok. They say they don't care about me. Sometimes one will say they love me, then say they don't care about me. They resemble the abusers from my past. I hope one day to find a good therapy for this & safe medication. I'm sorry you are suffering. I hope you can find help, too. I'm so grateful for PC/MSF! It's all I have to help me keep hanging in there. God bless you & all the people here!
__________________ "Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot) "Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller) * * * * * * |
*Beth*, Fuzzybear
|
*Beth*
|
catches the flowers
Member Since Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
(SuperPoster!)
4 23.7k hugs
given |
#778
@Breaking Dawn
I am so grateful for your reply. I did not know this could happen. My situation also replicates my abuser's behavior toward me. I feel so confused...my people were helpers for so many years, then something happened and they suddenly became frightened, angry, and chaotic. __________________ |
Breaking Dawn, Fuzzybear
|
Legendary
Member Since Sep 2019
Location: USA
Posts: 16,689
(SuperPoster!)
4 42.2k hugs
given |
#779
Quote:
__________________ "Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot) "Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller) * * * * * * |
|
*Beth*, Fuzzybear
|
*Beth*, Fuzzybear
|
catches the flowers
Member Since Jul 2019
Location: Downtown Vibes, California
Posts: 15,701
(SuperPoster!)
4 23.7k hugs
given |
#780
__________________ |
Breaking Dawn, Fuzzybear
|
Breaking Dawn
|