maybe someone can help?????? my mind is an absolute muddle... really truely.....

Please... the question isn't my dog...

so very sorry.. to have to say it here... but time has come when I must deal with my older dog.. he is 13-14... and a large breed...

and.. I am highly allergic and asthmatic.. to the yeast.. and fungus infections that he gets.... and they are.. very difficult to treat...

I had made up my mind.. that the next time.. he became ill.. that was going to be... "it"... no matter how hard..

I have been extremely ill the past few months...myself...

but it is very hard.... perhaps I could nurse him thru another 6 months I don't know... I do know.. it is.. baths 4 times a week... drops.. meds... and... I just can't do it..

So.. Friday is the day..

Today.. I went in to see my therapist... and I don't really know my therapist..yet I have been seeing him 2 times a week for over a year.....

My Question??????????????

am I in shock.. or something???????????... what is wrong with me????????? really.. I don't even want to go back to another session... I am.. like... really confused and scared on why this is happenning to me...

what could this be??????

[pegasus]

Is your question why you didn't know who your therapist was?

If this is the case, it is likely that a new part has come out to meet T. This is actually a positive thing.

I have been with my T for a long time now so he knows all of me. But I do remember in the early days with him having the same thing happen as you. I sat through a whole session and at the end I had to ask who he was and his name, and write it down.

It's progress!

[Perna]

Oh, I'm so glad, Pegasus you have had a similar experience to share with freewill. I'm glad too, that you feel it's good!

Oh, freewill, sorry you're so confused, I don't like feeling confused.

Thank you... very much.....

yes... as time is going on... I am feeling more and more detached from everything... so am going to cancel my T's appts for this week and next... until... I can take care of my dog.....

not sure how to "come back"... from all of this....

[sabby]

((((( freewill and pup ))))))

It's hard to wrap around saying goodbye to a long time member of your family. Wouldn't you say you are in a grieving process my friend? It is very normal and also difficult to go through. Can cause great distress and confusion.

It sometimes takes a long time to come to these kinds of decisions. It is never easy to do what sometimes needs to be done for all considered.

I'm sorry you are feeling so out of sorts my friend. Know that I'm sending you love and hugs.


sabby

[RACEKA]

Freewill you are going through the grieving process. You should see your T. You need him now. Let yourself grieve. A dog is a member of the family. I have a golden retriever. I am divorced so she is my everything. She's in whatever room I'm in.

I'm so sorry what your going through. I really feel for you. This is not going to easy.

My thoughts are with you.

Thank you... everyone...

yes... I am grieving... this dog.. has been my "everything"... I raised him from birth... actually was there and took care of him from birth on... and.. we have been so "in tune"....

he is about 75 lbs... a "mutt"... so cute... a terrior.. mixed with a english springer spaniel...

my ex's dog.. got pregnant.. at 1 year old.. because he didn't fix her... I took her.. for the pregnancy.. because he wasn't taking care of her... and I found homes for all the pups... and got the mom fixed...

my ex... then realized how much he loved his dog.. and took much better care of her.. so I was ok with giving her back...

but.. I kept this pup....so am very attached....and my T.. told me that he was unexpectly going out of town... so that shocked me... he has that right.. but.. I really hate it when they spring it on you.. a couple of days before... ya know.. it is a vacation... and I wish him well... just.. wish.. he would give more lead time...

[bipolar_bear]

I am sorry that your T is going out of town during this hard time for you. I know how hard it is when you have to deal with the aging of one of your pets as they become so much part of your life. Please know I am here if I can help.

BB