[darkpurplesecrets]

Everyone is hurting and I am scared. There is so much going on inside and I have no idea where to begin to tell anyone how it feels. My insides shake with fear and my head screams of the memories we carry. And everywhere I look I see.

It was this night I hated myself and needed no longer to create anyone else. There was no one else to create for I had died inside--I was dead as far as anyone knew or would ever know. Even today, no one knows what all happened that night--and I do not know that they ever will. Is it even important? Does it really even matter?

I hurt, really bad--more than any word could ever tell across this screen. Maybe it will never matter. Sorry, I know you all are so very supportive and wonderful people, but I am just the one who is so sick right now. And lost in it all. I am trying, but it really hurts. I could really use a hug or two right now if there is anyone listening.

darkpurplesecrets

[sabby]

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Yes my friend, it does hurt...so incredibly much.

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Even today, no one knows what all happened that night--and I do not know that they ever will. Is it even important? Does it really even matter?

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This is your story....your life. It will be completely up to you if you ever wish to tell the story, in part or wholly. No one would ever force you to do that, but there is always someone willing to listen should you decide to do so. What happened to you is definitely important...important to you as it was your experience, important to me, as I am your friend and I care very much about you, important to others, in the realm of knowing the person you have come to be in your life. Yes, what happened to you matters...it matters a great deal because YOU matter to me and a lot of other people.

We can share in some of your pain by what we ourselves have experienced in pain. Unless we share the exact same life and experiences you have lived, then no one can ever know or feel exactly what you feel inside. But we can be compassionate, we can be loving, we can be understanding and we can be a friend to one who we know is hurting beyond belief right now.

You and your lovelies on the inside are working so very hard to come together in ways none of you thought was ever possible. It is a testament to the kind of person(s) you are....the amount of hard work you put into yourself to heal and live each and every day as best you can. And like all of us...some days are just plain better than others.

You are allowed to be in pain. You are allowed to cry out in that pain. You are allowed to reach out for a warm hand to hold, a shoulder to lean on a hug to let you know that someone cares.

Much love to you my friend
sabby

[___Shadow___]

AHh I'm so sorry you are there, It is hard!! I hope you find some peace fast...Like someone told me the other day on here when I thoought I couldn't do another day, another hour, min...It gets better!
At the time, I thought on no, I need advice but when It does get better, that is what helped, It does get better. We are only given what we can handle..even if It doesn't look like that.

[pegasus]

We have died many times over too, my friend.

With love and understanding hugs...

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We're listening.

[wanttoheal]

((((((((((((((((((darkpurplesecrets))))))))))))))))))) I'm sorry you are hurting.

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((darkpurplesecrets)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry you are hurting this much. I know for me that memories sometimes are not verbalized inside but emotions and pictuers. It can be so hard to explain to someone who has never experienced this.

It is a hard decision whether it is important for you to tell someone what happened. Sometimes someone safe helps to work through things. It can be so hard to do alone.

Know I am here and have many hugs for you. And understand how terrible things can feel.

BB

[Kiya]

i'm out here too - listening... lots of hugs for you!!!!!

[multipixie9]

Darkpurplesecrets:

I am listening and I DO care. I believe you even before you say it.

No, I don't know what happened that night, but I know it IS important because it changed your life in a terrible way that should not have ever happened. It MATTERS because the pain is still holding you back from having a joyful life. It matters because you did not deserve what happened to you and because all betrayals ARE EVIL.

My words can only guesstimate at your situation because you are not revealing the true terrible facts - but it reminds me of things I suffered and how horrible I felt and how it shattered my life, my heart, my hope.

I get SO frustrated sometimes wanting words that MATCH how bad it was and they all come so very short of that - they seem so feeble and puny and can never express the holocaust that I went through.

I offer you butterfly hugs - they land so lightly around your shoulders and they never make you feel bad, they just whisper you are loved and someone does care. Please take as many of my butterfly hugs as you want. cover yourself with their bright, gentle touch.

This may not be the best time to say this, but you do have a very expressive way of writing and someday I could see you getting to do other things with it - things that express beauty and joy again - someday.

You've been here longer than I have. Keep coming back and let the kind people here be there with you - until the pain eases off again and you can take a deep breath in. Beauty will come back...

Leslie and the Pixies

pixees soree yu feel soo bad. do yu have teddy bear? any loveee? i wish yu better soon. bye bye, darkpurplesecrets, i yur freend toda.

[RozG]

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