[jopepsi]

sorry to keep posting but i just dont know what to do i just need help

[nowheretorun]

what kind of help?

[DianasClan]

We are here to help hun. what kind of help do you need?

Diana

[snowflakes]

((((((((((jopepsi))))))))))

Need not to worry, we are all here. Whats bothering you jopepsi?

[jopepsi]

having very bad days right now with DID, just so confused and trying to withdraw from everything and everyone and i know thats not good but i dont know what to do. want to feel better but dont know how just keeps getting worse instead of better, all the others (alters). are coming out more and one very fearful and angry and full of rage, dont know how to deal right now. ok i be quiet now sorry to keep rambling on. just to let you all know i love jigsaw puzzles and am good at working them but i have always felt like one so why cant i work it out and put the pieces together as easy. or at all for that matter. im just a jigsaw puzzle torn all apart and dont know which way to go right now.

[SongBirdandDaisy]

(((((((((((((((Jopepsi)))))))))))))))

[turquoisesea]

first, withdrawing from everything/everyone is a normal response but it doesn't seem to help in the long run

Please keep posting, tell us more of what is going on.

So you're a jigsaw puzzle , pieces everywhere.
For me, when I solve a puzzle first thing is to find all the pieces. Before trying to put yourself together - try to calm down and accept the pieces.

Can you communicate to any of your parts? Do you have a T?

sorry i'm not more help

[Safron]

jopepsi,

I like doing jigsaw puzzles too. I like to find all the edges first setting all the inside pieces to one side. Once the edge has been assembled I like to pick out the parts of the puzzle that stands out the most, like a colour perhaps. I gather all those pieces together and then spread them out where I can see them clearly then I begin to fit them together. Once they are together I move on to the next dominant colour and set about putting it together. I now have two large pieces of the puzzle but they are not yet connected to the rest of the puzzle. I continue arranging and fitting each colour together and before I know where I am they begin to connect to the edges of the puzzle. I can work on a section of a puzzle for quite some time before I see where it fits to the edge of the puzzle. Then I begin to see the puzzle coming together, taking shape and beginning to make a lot of sense. It takes time. Sometimes years to bring the puzzle together. But just by working on it towards that end helps me cope with all the scattered pieces.

Enjoy the puzzle my friend, that‘s the important thing.

[DianasClan]

I agree with Safron. I love puzzles but have not worked one in a long time. I know what you mean about feeling like one. I feel that way too. Just take your time and start with the outer edges. The rest will come in time.

Diana

[bipolar_bear]

I know I feel like shattered glass. I am hoping in time the pieces will start to fit togehter as I heal. Healing takes time and I think that given that you will find yourself getting "back together". I am sure your puzzle will turn out to be a beautiful one.

BB

[jopepsi]

Originally Posted by bipolar_bear

I know I feel like shattered glass. I am hoping in time the pieces will start to fit togehter as I heal. Healing takes time and I think that given that you will find yourself getting "back together". I am sure your puzzle will turn out to be a beautiful one.

BB

awww thank you so much thats so sweet of you.

[jopepsi]

Originally Posted by DianasClan

I agree with Safron. I love puzzles but have not worked one in a long time. I know what you mean about feeling like one. I feel that way too. Just take your time and start with the outer edges. The rest will come in time.

Diana

tyvm, seems like i been fighting all my life and im just tired of fighting, maybe thats the answer stop fighting and just let whatever happen. hmmm never thought of that till now while i was replying. tyvm

[jopepsi]

Originally Posted by Safron

jopepsi,

I like doing jigsaw puzzles too. I like to find all the edges first setting all the inside pieces to one side. Once the edge has been assembled I like to pick out the parts of the puzzle that stands out the most, like a colour perhaps. I gather all those pieces together and then spread them out where I can see them clearly then I begin to fit them together. Once they are together I move on to the next dominant colour and set about putting it together. I now have two large pieces of the puzzle but they are not yet connected to the rest of the puzzle. I continue arranging and fitting each colour together and before I know where I am they begin to connect to the edges of the puzzle. I can work on a section of a puzzle for quite some time before I see where it fits to the edge of the puzzle. Then I begin to see the puzzle coming together, taking shape and beginning to make a lot of sense. It takes time. Sometimes years to bring the puzzle together. But just by working on it towards that end helps me cope with all the scattered pieces.

Enjoy the puzzle my friend, that‘s the important thing.

sounds like the way i do my puzzles,and tyvm i will try to enjoy it.

[jopepsi]

Originally Posted by turquoisesea

first, withdrawing from everything/everyone is a normal response but it doesn't seem to help in the long run

Please keep posting, tell us more of what is going on.

So you're a jigsaw puzzle , pieces everywhere.
For me, when I solve a puzzle first thing is to find all the pieces. Before trying to put yourself together - try to calm down and accept the pieces.

Can you communicate to any of your parts? Do you have a T?

sorry i'm not more help

have not been able to comunicate with them yet but starting to hear more of them, and yes i have a T. she told me to talk to them which im working on.

[jopepsi]

Originally Posted by SongBirdandDaisy

(((((((((((((((Jopepsi)))))))))))))))

tyvm for the hugs

[DianasClan]

Originally Posted by jopepsi

have not been able to comunicate with them yet but starting to hear more of them, and yes i have a T. she told me to talk to them which im working on.

This what I am supposed to be working on also. My T wants me to learn to communicate with them but I am having a hard time with this as I feel like I am going crazy. Let me know how it goes for you.

Diana

[turquoisesea]

Originally Posted by jopepsi

have not been able to comunicate with them yet but starting to hear more of them, and yes i have a T. she told me to talk to them which im working on.

that's good, I know it's strange...
communication is so wonderful because you can get the parts to work with you rather than aginst you, if that makes any sense keep working on it

[jopepsi]

Originally Posted by DianasClan

This what I am supposed to be working on also. My T wants me to learn to communicate with them but I am having a hard time with this as I feel like I am going crazy. Let me know how it goes for you.

Diana

im starting to hear them more often now and we are pretty sure we have a crew of 12 and have names and ages on them so now maybe we can start to communicate some hopefully we are feeling more comfortable with each other but will let you know more later

[iamtwilight]

(((jopepsi))) glad you're getting some information, that's a huge step. i think i started getting information when i started writing, and talking to everyone inside, even if they don't respond, someone might be listening and pass the information to those who aren't present at the moment.

keep up the good work

[Kiya]

Originally Posted by jopepsi

just to let you all know i love jigsaw puzzles and am good at working them but i have always felt like one so why cant i work it out and put the pieces together as easy. or at all for that matter. im just a jigsaw puzzle torn all apart and dont know which way to go right now.

hey, me too! that is exactly what I think about myself/ selves. it always makes it better to see another think exactly what I do about myself. I love jigsaws and wonder why i can't put myself together

[multipixie9]

i know what you mean jopepsi about puzzles although i absolutely can not do them. i suck at jigsaws and my singular spouse can do them so fast.

i know the pain and fear and crazy swings of being split. it is so dang hard keeping my cool when i get soo low or so wild or so sad and angry and frustrated.

monday i thought i was going to come out of my mind, i was looking for anything and finally got an emergency meeting with my T. all kinds of pain and rage came out that i never could let out before. i got a new part of myself up front, deborah. she has the backbone and grit leslie had beat out of her by age 3.

it is wednesday and it is daylight to dark different for now. it is something special and there is a lot more way to do before we find a place we all can rest in - but it is good and it happened.

things can and will get better jopepsi. keep on keeping on. hugs.

leslie and her pixies

[jopepsi]

Originally Posted by multipixie9

i know what you mean jopepsi about puzzles although i absolutely can not do them. i suck at jigsaws and my singular spouse can do them so fast.

i know the pain and fear and crazy swings of being split. it is so dang hard keeping my cool when i get soo low or so wild or so sad and angry and frustrated.

monday i thought i was going to come out of my mind, i was looking for anything and finally got an emergency meeting with my T. all kinds of pain and rage came out that i never could let out before. i got a new part of myself up front, deborah. she has the backbone and grit leslie had beat out of her by age 3.

it is wednesday and it is daylight to dark different for now. it is something special and there is a lot more way to do before we find a place we all can rest in - but it is good and it happened.

things can and will get better jopepsi. keep on keeping on. hugs.

leslie and her pixies

thank you so much for this information it does help so much
my T wants me to try and let out some of the rage and anger as well but i havent yet as im scared to. ty for the hugs , and hugs back to you cause we all know how hard and frustrating it can be but at least we have friends like us who really understand on here that we can talk to. thank you all so much for being here, and if i can ever help anyone dont hesitate to let me know please ..