[Daggah]

I had recently revealled to my therapist some information on my past sexual abuse, and she called me a liar, then stated now she could see I never had MPD and I was faking it the whole time.

normally, I'd just go to another therapist, but in actuality, my family just... spent the very last of our money on furniture. We won't be able to pay off our bills for months, and my birthday, in May, I can't even get anything. I have to go with the little clothes I have, and I will spend all the family's money on food and school only.

I have two therapists. One, I don't trust a single bit. All she ever does is prescribe me medication. And I only see her once every two months. The other thinks I'm a liar, and I see her each week. Both are free and paid by the state.

I found someone who specializes in DID... her office is in WALKING distance. But she charges several hundred... ouch.

I have a phobia of being called a liar. So instead of standing up for myself, I said, "yeah, I'm lying."

I only have to stay with this therapist for three more weeks. Then comes my court date for my foster care situation. I think they're gonna send me back. I'll miss all my friends and such, but it will be for the better.

Basically, I'm panicking because I was seen as a liar. It actually makes me depressed and pick up an old habit of mine, to take enough sleeping pills to knock me out for a few hours. I need a little support and advice on what to do instead.

And I'm also worried about fostercare. Going back will be saying good-bye to my best friends who truly love and support me. It will be saying good-bye to my mother. It will be saying good-bye to my future ((LONG story)). But it will mean I'll be safe. ((my house is full of hazards, and I have MANY suicidal personalities)). I guess my other selves also need to read that whether I wait to emancipate myself or go back into fostercare, we will all be able to look out for each other still.

EDIT
Also, tomorrow is a horrfiyingly triggering day. A satanic holiday, as it were.

[Tormented_Lilah]

((((Dagger)))) Love you. You'll be okay. We're all here supporting you.

[Daggah]

March first.... At. Eichatadt's Day.....

[Mahali]

Dagger,

I hope you get a T that can help you.

Good luck.

[dayzee9]

<font color="red"> </font> forums at psych central dayzee@charter.net[list][list] <font class="small">Code:</font><hr /><pre> </pre><hr /> Any T that accuses you of lying is probably saying what she did because DID or MPD are no longer listed in the official DSM.... My last "evaluation" by a Big Shot Psych Doc said that after being diagnosed as MPD/DID since 1986 & being in therapy for it.....he told me (alter) that "I did not exist!" He said that "Laura" (the original dayzee9) just had a <font color="blue"> </font> multi-faceted personality!!! Funny, there's 8 of "us"; extremely different from each other in every way....but suddenly because of a removed diagnosis from a printed manual almost 20 years of hell (therapy, ECT's etc) POOF! NONE of us exist! And he laughed in my face.... Now what does that mean in re: "lying" HA! I do not believe that my violent alter didn't smash his laughing face!

[kimmydawn]

DID is an official dx in the DMV-IV. it's official on all of my paperwork as well.

gl.

daggah, i'm sorry for what this dr said...

kd

[SweetCrusader]

kd's right. DID is still in the DSM, folks

[Daggah]

Actually, it was because my symptoms were not as close as Sybils. Curse Hollywood. ^^; it was also because I just recently stopped "blacking out" when the others were fully out. I finally accheved co-consious, but since it was not in therapy, nor have I been in for a long time, I was seen as a liar.

Well, I would go get a new therapist, but I dont have the money, and now my mom's calling me a liar.... as are a few of my friends.

glad to hear its still listed. I'll keep looking for a therapist. I can't just give up.

[Mahali]

Dagger,
I do not know how things are where you live...but where I see my T there are several therapists. If it is like that where you live perhaps you could see a different T in the same agency. Just a thought.

Don't give up. Someday you will find a therapist who will be able to give you the right diagnosis.

Makes no big difference to me if it is in the DSM IV.
I am pretty sure we exist. *shrugs*

[Mahali]

kd and sc just realized that may sound bad to you two.

I did not mean to minimize the importance of it being listed in the DSM IV. It just does not matter that much to me.

(Sorry for the interuption Dagger.)

[RhysMadison]

Some T's will base their fees on a sliding scale fee. Won't hurt if you ask this one T that's near you. Some know most people can't afford counseling & are willing to give you a break.
Yeah, Sybil... Good movie but dang.
As long as you know you are not lying, faking, making this up, that's what matters, not what these people think. My T doesn't believe in diagnosing per se. Yeah I'm DID, but we don't focus on what I have, we focus on who I am.
Love,
RhysMadison

[Daggah]

thanks, everyone. Mother recently one of my alters, so I have my mom on my side again.

I think I will be able to get proper help soon. Thanks, guys ^^

[fgh]

Hello. I hate it when some body calls me a liar. I do not know who might have lied but it was not ever ever me. The only other I know my age is not a liar and I made her come long after I was around so it is not her. My T does not say any one tells lies. We all tellk what we know to be true. Some people can not handle that. I hope you find a nice T.