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Sannah...............we telled T exactly that in email........
no response to that question........... just a response with regards to the stuff going on rite now..........ya wanna know what he say..like dahhhhhhhh.he asks bead iffen she had any way to vent or anything she could do to get her mind off of the stuff going on between now and 4pm...is he like walking around on mars or what!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GGGGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() bead
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...can.. .....will..... just.............see come visit my photo albums and see some pictures of mary's beadwork http://forums.psychcentral.com/album.php?albumid=305 Problems are only opportunities with thorns on them." ~ Hugh Miller |
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(((((((((Beads)))))))))),
I hope your therapist appointment goes ok today.....I know what you mean about him stirring up your pot.......& will all that has been happening to you just daily to deal with.....where is the time to deal with the underlying big issues that are there to handle. There are times when it feels that just daily life is more than we can handle.....don't throw anything more to have to deal with. Praying that your daily NOW life will slow down a bit so you can breath & have some quality time to deal with what is going on inside. Definitely know that you are NOT stupid.....no where close....you are wise & able to survive things thrown at you.....couldn't possibly be stupid & get through the things you have been able to handle. Your statement about not being able to handle things the first time around isn't quite accurate. You handled things very well the first time around....your mind took over & did what it needed to do to survive......sometimes when life comes down to the survival level....the mind takes over & handles things for us in the the best way possible to handle what we are going through.....don't doubt that was the best way & probably the only way to handle things that first time around. Sorting out what the mind did that first time around is the tough part, so you can understand yourself NOW better. You have to believe that only a strong person could have gotten through what you have then, & NOW..... You are a wonderful person.....a very special person.....don't listen to any part of yourself that tells you differently because it's completely wrong.........you will get through all the now junk in your life & be able to breath.....then you can deal with the issues deep inside without worring about adding more bad into the now. Allow your therapist to prioritize what you need to deal with.....hopefully your therapist has your best interest as his priority..... Caring about you, Debbie
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(((((((((((((((((((Debbie))))))))))))))))))))))))))) (((((((((((((((((((Sannah)))))))))))))))))))))))))) Therapy went ok today..................gooder then we thunked it would at any rate. ( we are a worrier one of them few things we does real good) it was tiring and we feels worn out, frazzled but much gooder then usual. No digging into EVENTS of the past.......more like exploring what we feel and why we do or dont feel it......... WE AINT going over to janet and Blaise's no more...........iffen that offends someone in that mad house we sorry but cant handle the yelling that goes on there.........not by janet not by the kids is too much it sends us back about 40 years to a world of darkness hopelessness and helplessness. it is not worth it for bead even to keep the peace with don by doing so. breifly touched on that subject when he brunged us home and he did not really say anythng at all.......the silence was as LOUD as the screaming in her head gets but it still beat the heck outta him yelling at her and arguing about it............bead sure there will be more discussions but we'll cross THAT bridge when we comes to it not gonna worry about it till then ( who do you think your kidding marsidotz ) Me and T talked about the fact that we are not 'in touch' with any of our feelings with the exception of fear and anger..........not on the seuface at any rate.yeah, he's rite about that........them's seem to bes the feelings we know goodest, maybe that's why we allow we allow us FEEL them where we dont seem to be able to feel anything else ?????????Every time T suggests to us to comfort each other bells whistles and foghorns sound off in her head in a major way..........we have not really explained that to him very much.........Me just telled him that it sounded like a wierd thing to do and left it at that .........too embarassing dont think he would get it anyway and he would just tell us to comfort them any way so like what's the point ya know????? anyway talked to don a little about that too and he agrees with T he say that is what we do just about every day..........either scared angry or depressed.........like so bite me excuse me.......The thought of comforting one another is so foreign to bead that it is aolmost like hearing a 4 letter dirty word...... You need each other T telled Me.........WHHYYYYYY??????? dont want them to be there..............altho cant seem to be able to hate or ignore them away.............T said mary asked him last week why is getting rid of the others any different then cutting off a arm or a leg or cutting your hair......his answer was..........this is so dumb.........what are you gonna do cut off both arms, legs, ears, etc, there will still be some of you left ( there's 15 of us last count ) SORRY T BUT THAT ANSWER DOES NOT COMPUTE we did not mean were gonna cut off a body part to represent each one of the othersore like do not unnerstand how iffen we gets rid of one ( or a few for that matter ) that we will ALL die!!!!!!!!! dont want to be nice to them even iffen it would make em SHUT the f up because we dont want them to be there to begin with much less like them!!!!! No one will answer that ???? in a way that beads can understand it!!!!!!!!!WHY??????????????????????????????? Debbie How in the world does splitting off into 15 different personalities equal dealing with the past well? sorry we is so cynical..........cant help it its where we are.............and , yeah we agree beads strong..........somwhere in there.......just so sick of all the s hit in the garbage can!!!!!!!!! We give T credit where credit is ude at least he was smatr enought to realize that we could not handle any EVent digging today......and yeah, we do think he's got beads goodest interests at heart.......... Altho rite now beads just wanna curl up in a little ball and hide where we cans cry but thats not an option either!!!!!!!!!!!! So our crappy existence goes on...and on...and on...and on... (Wonder what's gonna happen next?) ((((((((((((((((((((Jewels)))))))))))))))))))) dont be surpirised iffn you gets that phone call in the not so distant future........beads could use some well something dunno what just grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr beads loves ye all and glad your here!!!!!!!! thanks to anyone who has the concentration to read all of this ( and unnerstand it ) iffen we making any kind of sense at all any input would be helpful ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() xxx beads
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...can.. .....will..... just.............see come visit my photo albums and see some pictures of mary's beadwork http://forums.psychcentral.com/album.php?albumid=305 Problems are only opportunities with thorns on them." ~ Hugh Miller |
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((((((((((((((((Eskielover))))))))))))))))) ((((((((((((((Sannah)))))))))))))))))))) ((((((((((((((((((Jewels)))))))))))))))))) ((((((((((((((((((Fuzzybear)))))))))))))))) (((((((((((((((((((Manda)))))))))))))))))))) ((((((((((((((Pegasus))))))))))))))))))))) ((((((((((((((((((MeSo)))))))))))))))))))) (((((((((((((((((((Anyone else who read this!))))))))))))))))) beads watns say THANKS for all of your support........... ye all always seem to be here for us to help us thru the rough patches and beads could not do it without ALL of you good people's here at PC PC rocks, xxx beads ![]() ![]() ![]()
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...can.. .....will..... just.............see come visit my photo albums and see some pictures of mary's beadwork http://forums.psychcentral.com/album.php?albumid=305 Problems are only opportunities with thorns on them." ~ Hugh Miller |
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Sannah like doesn't anybody hear......Mary Sue did not particularly want to survive when her was younger anymore then we does now.....the only difference is NOW we has to cuz checking out by our own hand is NOT sn option........
Mary Sue tried to kill us for the first time when we was 9 years old she od'd on valium and alcohol.....like WHY are we still here beadwork is like.not very useful skill to anybody and we feels so useless cuz we cant do anything right anyway are we making any sense at all? hopeless, mary
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...can.. .....will..... just.............see come visit my photo albums and see some pictures of mary's beadwork http://forums.psychcentral.com/album.php?albumid=305 Problems are only opportunities with thorns on them." ~ Hugh Miller Last edited by bipolar_bear; Apr 30, 2009 at 11:18 AM. Reason: Added a trigger icon |
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Mary Sue didn't want to survive but our bodies and minds are programmed to survive.
Mary, you are valuable because you are one of the sweetest human beings that I have ever met! Everyone is valuable anyway but you have extra reasons why you are valuable! ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]()
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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I am new here and I your not stupid! I have heard this word many times to much throughout my life until one day I started to learn that it's my life and I am not stupid that I must let this go.
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awwwwwwwwwwwwwww your so sweet........ thanks, beadys ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]()
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...can.. .....will..... just.............see come visit my photo albums and see some pictures of mary's beadwork http://forums.psychcentral.com/album.php?albumid=305 Problems are only opportunities with thorns on them." ~ Hugh Miller |
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((((((((((cher123)))))))))
welcome to pc cher123, and thanks for your words of encouragement and for posting! marsidotz (beadlady29) ![]()
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...can.. .....will..... just.............see come visit my photo albums and see some pictures of mary's beadwork http://forums.psychcentral.com/album.php?albumid=305 Problems are only opportunities with thorns on them." ~ Hugh Miller |
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((((((((((((((((((MeSo))))))))))))))))))) thanks for the hugs and for all of your support and thoughtfulness..... you are a gem! hugs beads
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...can.. .....will..... just.............see come visit my photo albums and see some pictures of mary's beadwork http://forums.psychcentral.com/album.php?albumid=305 Problems are only opportunities with thorns on them." ~ Hugh Miller |
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((((((Beads))))))
I understand too well that awful feeling of self-hate. Sometimes, when you can't find a place of understanding or comfort for those parts of you that you don't like, the best you can do is be willing to sit with them and tolerate their presence. That in itself is forward movement, even if it feels awful. |
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((((((((((((((((((((peaches)))))))))))))))))))
beads tell you how sorry that you have had so much pain....... that said, it is comforting to realize that we is not alone in our pain, and that maybe we is NOT se weird after all because someone else is experiencing the same self-esteem ( guess that's what you call this?) issues that we is. you are sooooooooo right...........simply tolerating the others is our best effort right now.......however that is much gooder then how we have dealt with each other in the past. thank you!!!!!!!! hugs iffen you wants em, mary susan
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...can.. .....will..... just.............see come visit my photo albums and see some pictures of mary's beadwork http://forums.psychcentral.com/album.php?albumid=305 Problems are only opportunities with thorns on them." ~ Hugh Miller |
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